iceman777
12-16-2004, 01:10 PM
Ok, this is not easy for me to do, but, I have decided that it is about time that I asked for help. The easiest way for me to put this is, Have you ever had the feeling like that there is something wrong, not with you, but with everything around you, but you just can't put your finger on what it is? I have had this feeling as far back as I can remember. Like one day, I'm going to wake up from this dream, or someone is going to show up at my house one day, and tell me that my entire life has been some sort of reality TV show, and everyone I know or have ever talked to has been an actor. I also suffer from anxity, (i think).. I'm always looking for an escape route, or for something to defend myself with, I believe this might stem from my past military experiences, so i'm not really worried about, but, it just seems like lately everything has been amplified. Another thing is I have a problem being around lots of people, this past Halloween, I was in a costume store with my wife shopping, and there were around 40 people crammed into one isle in the store, and I was caught in the middle, and I broke. I started flipping out, pushing my way out, like if I didn't get out of there, I was going to die, and as soon as I hit an open spot in the crowd, I got really dizzy, and felt sick to my stomach, and fell down. It only took a few mins to regain my composure, but I couldn't go back into the crowd, and had to leave the store.
My wife has pleaded with me many times to see a doc, but, I have refused. What must be understood is that I HATE going to the doc's office, even for something as small as a checkup. When I was in the military it was mandatory, but, since I got out, I haven't been to a doctors office (5 years). Even now as I write this post, I debate with myself back and forth, on weather or not, I should let my secrets out. I use to be able to push these thoughts to the back of my head and get on with the rest of my day, however, its not so easy anymore. Can anyone let me know whats going on?
My wife has pleaded with me many times to see a doc, but, I have refused. What must be understood is that I HATE going to the doc's office, even for something as small as a checkup. When I was in the military it was mandatory, but, since I got out, I haven't been to a doctors office (5 years). Even now as I write this post, I debate with myself back and forth, on weather or not, I should let my secrets out. I use to be able to push these thoughts to the back of my head and get on with the rest of my day, however, its not so easy anymore. Can anyone let me know whats going on?
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Taurus80
12-16-2004, 01:55 PM
I've had your same thoughts about this "Truman Show" thing and I'm sure many other people have! I've OCD, mostly revolving around the fear of going crazy...which is why I always think crazy thoughts, just to torture and obsess myself.
Did you get diagnosed by some pdoc? Do these thoughts give you anxiety and/or distress, or they cause you to worry? You might have OCD I think!
Did you get diagnosed by some pdoc? Do these thoughts give you anxiety and/or distress, or they cause you to worry? You might have OCD I think!
iceman777
12-16-2004, 01:58 PM
I was editing my orginial post, when I noticed your reply..
survivin
12-16-2004, 09:13 PM
i have had ptsd for 3 years now and i have had very similar symptoms. it sounds like a doctors visit is in order. i know its hard to trust people. but who knows. it might help. and if he or she just gives you a bunch of BS then just leave. i have learned to not take what the doctors have to say as gospel truth but rather weigh it and decide for yourself
kerry1
12-17-2004, 01:26 AM
Geez, that sounds so much like me, how I used to be, that is. I had a similar experience in a store. My mother thought I was being a drama queen, but I really had to get out of there.
Feelings of unreality are symptomatic of depression & other mood disorders. I totally relate to dreading doctors - I want to faint or puke or scream, and my heartbeat goes through the roof. BUT I think you're going to need to tough it out this time and see one! This is not going to go away by itself, and it needs to be correctly diagnosed by a psychiatrist. Don't try OTC herbs - you may have an adverse reaction and then you'd be even worse off. I've tried herbal stuff with a psychiatrist's guidance - I haven't found anything that works except prescription drugs. If I ever do find a natural treatment, it will be under a psych's supervision.
Please oh please see a doctor!! At least you don't have to take your clothes off for this type. I'm sure your wife is wrong some of the time, but not this time!!
Feelings of unreality are symptomatic of depression & other mood disorders. I totally relate to dreading doctors - I want to faint or puke or scream, and my heartbeat goes through the roof. BUT I think you're going to need to tough it out this time and see one! This is not going to go away by itself, and it needs to be correctly diagnosed by a psychiatrist. Don't try OTC herbs - you may have an adverse reaction and then you'd be even worse off. I've tried herbal stuff with a psychiatrist's guidance - I haven't found anything that works except prescription drugs. If I ever do find a natural treatment, it will be under a psych's supervision.
Please oh please see a doctor!! At least you don't have to take your clothes off for this type. I'm sure your wife is wrong some of the time, but not this time!!
elenaroberts
12-17-2004, 03:35 PM
Well looks like were not alone iceman you just read my posts on schizophrenia board please!im getting more and more scared when i find out people thinking like me.OH:(IS THOSE ALL TRUE my God! still DO NOT understand why people call this ocd!i have searched a lot about those really but i cant see any reason for it to be called ocd.my doctor calls it like that too.
stargirl193
12-21-2004, 10:39 AM
Hi, you sound alot like me... there is something called depersonalisation and dissociation (-not- disociative disorder which is schizophrenia) which fits alot of what you describe. Feeling like you are in a dream, or detached slightly from reality- and it is also highly related to anxiety. There is a good forum here which also has descriptions of what defines the disorder: dpselfhelp.com
Hope that helps
Hope that helps
MTS
12-21-2004, 07:10 PM
When I suffered from sleep deprevation and anorexia, I had such a spell. The walls, the table, the ashtray on it, nothing seemed "real" or "physical". To my knowledge it's nothing to worry about unless you're feeling healthy (no stress, etc.) and you experience it.
kristycake
08-15-2005, 10:58 PM
so i suffer from depersonalization and i have these feelings of "unreality" but my doc says its from high anxiety. I have had it for years and it comes and goes. I have recently been switching antidepressants and now feel like i am going to lse my mind. Any suggestions?
Ruth6:11
08-16-2005, 10:22 AM
Iceman, another thing along with OCD that you have described is
Social Anxiety Disorder or maybe Claustrophobia
&
Panic/Anxiety Attacks
My sister used to get that feeling you got in the store - on a Florida Freeway going 75 mph... She got a simple med - took as small amount as she could cause she hates doctors & meds too and it made all the difference in the world.
My brother-in-law has social anxiety disorder - it prevented him from even coming to family get togethers. My sister has come by herself more often than not.
That's the time to realize that a problem is taking over your life and you can DO something about it!!
And lastly, you are an extremely articulate person. Do you do any writing? You should think about it. Creative types often have these kinds of "problems"!
:angel:
Social Anxiety Disorder or maybe Claustrophobia
&
Panic/Anxiety Attacks
My sister used to get that feeling you got in the store - on a Florida Freeway going 75 mph... She got a simple med - took as small amount as she could cause she hates doctors & meds too and it made all the difference in the world.
My brother-in-law has social anxiety disorder - it prevented him from even coming to family get togethers. My sister has come by herself more often than not.
That's the time to realize that a problem is taking over your life and you can DO something about it!!
And lastly, you are an extremely articulate person. Do you do any writing? You should think about it. Creative types often have these kinds of "problems"!
:angel:
leilina
08-27-2005, 01:01 PM
Hi
Okay to put it bluntly...you sound like my dad. Everytime I was upset he would be like "buck up kiddo" the whole brush it off attitude. He was in the police force, you should be able to relate. The point I am trying to make is that I grew up with that sort of "buck up" mantality and let me tell you, you can only repress stuff for so long. Eventually it will devour you whole if you don't deal with the problem. If you must we can discuss it a masculine way: if your leg was broken you wouldn't pretent it wasn't and keep walking on it everyday so why are you doing it to your head? If that isn't enough insentive at least do it for your wife...trust me, my boyfriend is unnecessarily dealing with my last 10 years of repression, and boy do I wish I had of dealt with it earlier.
Good luck
Okay to put it bluntly...you sound like my dad. Everytime I was upset he would be like "buck up kiddo" the whole brush it off attitude. He was in the police force, you should be able to relate. The point I am trying to make is that I grew up with that sort of "buck up" mantality and let me tell you, you can only repress stuff for so long. Eventually it will devour you whole if you don't deal with the problem. If you must we can discuss it a masculine way: if your leg was broken you wouldn't pretent it wasn't and keep walking on it everyday so why are you doing it to your head? If that isn't enough insentive at least do it for your wife...trust me, my boyfriend is unnecessarily dealing with my last 10 years of repression, and boy do I wish I had of dealt with it earlier.
Good luck
codymt
10-28-2005, 03:52 PM
Been there, I became so anxious that at one point I would not leave the house. I took paxil for years prescribed by a psychiatrist for panic and anxiety disorder. Also try eating well, limit caffeine and alcohol, sign up at a gym... get good physical excersise. Maybe when you were in the military you were more disciplined in these areas and able to keep the thoughts at bay. Try a Dr. and as someone else posted if you aren't comfortable with what you are told get another opinion. I know if I need expensive work done around the house or a big purchase, I research and get several bids. Do the same with your health.