Has anyone seen MistiGrace? I've been thinking about her and haven't seen any of her posts lately. Just wondering... :confused:
Novblis

I'm here, Sarah. Sorry I've been out of touch lately. I've been thinking of you, though.
Last week was crazy; I lost 5lbs :confused: This week hasn't been a whole lot better; I lost the couple of lbs I gained back, but i'm still going to my recovery group on Friday nights-in fact, since it's close to Christmas, tomorrow they're doing a potluck--I can already feel ppl staring at me while they chow down and I just sit there. :nono:

I do hope and pray you're doing well.

Love,
MG

Misti-
I am so glad that you are doing okay. How do you feel about losing the 5 lbs? Truthfully. I know that when I see the scale number a little lower than yesturday I smile...it's sad.

I am glad that you are still going to your meetings. I understand how you feel about people and how they watch you not eat. When people see me eat only small portions I feel bad, but at the same time I tend to be prideful. That is really really sad, but it's true. I enjoy watching others eat, because I feel that I am in control and they are not. I wish this disorder didn't turn me into this different person. This prideful, ugly person. I don't want to be this way...

As you can see, I am not doing so well. I haven't been doing so well for a while now...things are just very difficult.
Keeping you in my prayers,
Sarah