Kistal
12-25-2004, 11:12 PM
Hello all... we have had quite an eventfull week and a very sad Christmas! On Tue. night we went to the ER because I was having some light bleeding and minor cramping. We got there at about 3pm and we didnt get home until midnight... I was basically told that I was going to miscarry and that I needed to come home and take it easy. When the ER doctor looked at the ultrasound that they did he said that he didnt see the baby and thought that it was a tuberal preg... He called in my OB and he came in and said that he saw the baby and that he wasnt concerned about that but the baby only looked as if it were in week 4 of development not week six i.e. the baby wasnt developing correctly and I was going to loose it... we were told to return to the ER if my symptoms increased so the next night ... I was doubling over in pain and did NOT WANT TO GO BACK!! I didnt want to be poked and picked at agian. But my husband MADE me and now I'm glad that he did. I went back to the ER at about 11 pm and at 4 am my OB determined that I had something going on in my left ovary and that it required sugery NOW!! So at 5 am Thurs I was in sugery... What they found was a ruptured sist and that was causing fluid to build up around my uterus and that was what was causing all my pain. The OB told hubby after sugery that there was a 10% chance for our baby to live but he said that it was all in God's hands. Well this is Christmas Day mine and hubby's first together... and It's time to say good-bye to the prego boards... I've filled up at least 8 pads today and just now there was a lot of pinkish brown tissue on the pad... good bye my sweet precious baby... your with Jesus now... Good bye August mommies ... I think it's going to be a while before we have the heart to try agian.. :(
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Soulcatcher
12-25-2004, 11:30 PM
How do you know that wasn't scare tissue and only the yuck flushed out? There may still be a chance. Miracles happen. If your body does reject the baby due to the surgery I wouldn't let it discourage you from trying again. The reward will be great and worth every effort of trying. Take some time if thats what you need but keep the thought in your mind. Keep us posted.
beanie_1122
12-25-2004, 11:30 PM
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I know exactly what you are goin thru. I just went thru all kinds of torture Dec 13-15th and ended up having emergency surgery also to have a D&E caz my baby died inside of me and didn't abort on its own which caused me to hemorhage. I was 10 weeks 3 days. I know the pain you are feeling and I know it takes lots of time to cope with it and to move on. I too will not be tryin for another one for awhile. This is the 2nd time it has happened to me and my ob feels there is something wrong and I need to go thru extensive testing to figure out whats goin on in there. Hang in there and take one day at a time!!!
BEcca1978
12-26-2004, 12:52 AM
This is so sad. I am so sorry for your loss. Greive for as long as you need to.Don't let anyone tell you it is time to move on till you are ready. We'll be here for you when you are ready whether it be a couple of months or a couple of years. God bless you hon.
mommaboyz
12-26-2004, 12:07 PM
Im so sorry to hear of your loss and on x-mas day none the less. how awful Im in tears now. get some reast and I hope you will feel at least a little better soon. Im sure you will grieve a long time but like you did say in your post. he/she is with Jesus now if it had to happen at least your babys in a wonderful place now. Have comfort in knowing that one day you both WILL get to see your little angel. God bless
Kistal
12-26-2004, 01:27 PM
Thank you every one for your replies and support!
sammieP
12-27-2004, 10:35 AM
You bought tears to my eyes and sadness to my heart. I hope you recover well and my thoughts are with you.
Rest now and take each day a step at a time.
Rest now and take each day a step at a time.
kierrasmommy
12-28-2004, 01:30 PM
I'm so sorry for your loss. I had a miscarriage at almost 5 weeks along but I can't imagine being farther along and having to go through it, on a holiday at that. I had only known I was pregnant for 3 days when I miscarried, by 10 weeks you have bonded and made plans ...how sad. (((HUGS)) Take all the time you need, there are great books out there for dealing with miscarriage. Only you will know when the time is right to try again. I wanted to try right away but it still took us 4 months to get pregnant, I doubt we would have started trying as quickly if I had been further along. Take care sweetie. I'll be thinking about you.
jmcummins3
12-28-2004, 04:12 PM
I'm so sorry for your loss. Always remember that your baby is your guardian angel and always with you in spirit unil you meet again in Heaven.
miamore
12-28-2004, 07:57 PM
i cat stop crying , ur post hit my heart tremoundously. i know exactly what u feel like that happened to me when i was 19 and married, and i am 24 now. i never forget the baby he/ she that was inside of me, i always rem to this day , but u know u will over come that. image having to go thru 5 misc. and now i finally have my baby boy 10 months now.i know its bad to say but after the 2nd one i just had no pain, no more at least that i would let myself think of, and to the person that said they 2 had a miscarriage and ur doc said u need testing get it done, but also even if nothing comes back as soon as u know ur preg again go to the doc, and he will do all the testing. i kept wondering why was i not having babies come to find out i have an antibody that carries lupus but a blood clooting syndrome. when i would get preg, by body produced a clot in the placenta that did not allow for oxygen to get to the baby, and would regect. so know i know , that it wasnt my fault soemthing i did, cuz that what i felt like every time i had a mis, why god, and what did i do some much for this baby do leave, why why why??? u know. and if i had not gotten to the doc my baby boy now would have died......... god bless hun and take ur time i be u feel real sore and do take it easy i know i took off even a week of work after first and when i returned i hurled over in pain to find out that i had got an infection .. so please go ge checked back when ur doc tell u to and really take it easy ur body just went thru a whole lot and so has ur mind.........and i know it is hard to especially hear what i am about to say but take ur time to grieve but dont take a long time hun cuz it will get to u i promise......... i did exactly that, wonder why, what he/ she would look like and so on and it sent me straight in to a bad depression that i did not need to be in that deep keep ur head up and i promise u will one day have another and yes dont have one right now i think doc say dont try at least for 3 or 6 mon to let ur body heal god bless baby doll and to your sig. other i know he has to be feeling bad to please let me know how ur doing and him............
Kistal
12-29-2004, 11:05 AM
We are Okay... I dont know it's really hard. Yesterday was the first day that I've been alone since I lost the baby and it was HARD. Since I had surgery someone has been here with me everyday so I got to keep my mind off it. But now it's gone back to being just me and I cant go back to work until at least next week maybe later I just feel like crying all the time. This baby wasnt a planned baby but now my husband says that as soon as the doctor gives me the all clear he wants to try agian. I'm not sure yet if that's what I want. I dont know how to tell him that. He was so excited about being a Daddy. We still havent told our families... well our parents know and so do my grandparents but his aunts and uncles dont know yet. I dont have the heart. We are all very close and the baby got christmas presents! And those are another story in themselves it is so hard to look at them!! I went to the doc yesterday and was told that there was still a lot of fluid (ultrasound) and that my blood hormone level was up higher than it was when i had my surgery so that means that I did carry the baby for at least two days after I got out of the hospital. I go back on Thursday to see the actuall doctor. All I can say is wish me luck and pray for me!! Thanks.
Crystal :confused:
Crystal :confused:
miamore
12-29-2004, 10:49 PM
good luck to , and i will keep u in my prayer i know exactly how u feel so i am worried about u ... please keep me posted ok take care and i promise it will pass and wont be so bad................... by the way how do u feel about this as in ur not blaming urself like i did r u ?? cuz its not ur fault........ what thought r running thru u head................... maybe getting them out will help
Kistal
12-30-2004, 03:05 PM
I know it's not my fault. I went back to the doctor today and he explained to hubby and I what probally happened. He said that the cyst that I had may have had nothing to do with the misscarriage but it just hurryed it along. I'm okay... I'm not happy about it but we are dealing with is as best we can. That's all that we can do. Thank you for your concern!
Crystal
Crystal