whuteva
09-28-2003, 05:52 AM
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Belle45
09-28-2003, 01:55 PM
It would seem to me that you have many issues here but the most prominent is you have very low self-esteem.
When you say you have no one to talk to and everyone has left you...That is a terrible feeling. I often feel that I have no one I can talk to but sometimes being lonely until you can sort through whatever needs sorting through is the best thing. Yes, it's lonely as hell but when a situation you are in is causing much greater problems then it's time to back away. Stand outside the circle and see what it is YOU want and need. It seems as though you've "attached" yourself to this man because you were lonely in the first place and now you know of no other way to be. Let's face it...you were a teenager when all of this took place, you grew with it and now you are scared, frightened of change.
I'm no expert here as I've got my own issues but living a life as you have described is not living.
Good luck.
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whuteva
09-28-2003, 04:01 PM
You got that right. I have totally isolated myself. I havnt talked to anyone in 3 weeks since hes been gone, all Ive been doing is sitting in my house thinking. Ive left once to get grocerys. I didnt mean to lay out all my problems but there all tied to this man having brain damage and con-ing me into all the lies hes put me through in the past 9 years. I am having a amazing discouvery that his "NO impulse control"and No pain" is connected to being a SOCIOPATH and its taking me 9 years to figure out. I thought maby the BRAIN board would be the best place to get info, and maby have somone tell me my situaion isnt that bad and as complicated as it seems. Like you kinda did. I am not lonly, I am used to having no-one I hate everyone now and prefer to not see anyone. Ive just beccome VERY bitter.
I guess the only thing to do is ask him straight up if hes a sociopath and everytime he says "thats sad" when I say my neck hurts is b/c he has no morals or remorse. Thats what Im assuming Of corse wheh he comes back all my 3 weeks of healing myself by thinking is gone to waste. Thankyou for you time and insight
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