I want to share this with you all


In March '04 I fell and hurt my back, on June of '04 I was diagnosed as having a slipped disc in my lumbar back. The horrible pain was compounded with poverty since I was unable to work ( workmans comp just wasnt enough). My doctor was a conservative guy and only prescribed me 30 loritab a week, and he thought they should last longer. Needless to say I was stuck rationing loritab, and just suffering beyond belief.

During treatment I was given epidurals, and facet blocks to help ease my pain but nothing worked. My horrible physical pain led to horrible emotional pain. I felt hopeless, helpless, useless etc. There were many nights I was kept up by pain, unable to sleep. While suffering there in the darkness of my bedroom there were many times where I just thought of ending my life to stop the pain. Had it not been the love of my wife and kids I would not be here today.

Eventually I was sent to a neurosurgeon who put me on Oxycontin for my pain, until a spinal fusion can be performed on me. The Oxycontin is a wonderful drug, it doesnt make me feel cloudy and it helps so much. However it couldnt curb my emotional injury. The depression was so severe and hard on my family, in retrospect the emotional pain was worse than the physical pain.

A couple days after Christmas my best friend of 13 years ( who is also a cancer patient) presented me with an audio Bible. He explained to me that the word of God has helped him cope with Chemo and keep his spirits up throughout his ordeal.

The day after my friends visit I listened to the book of John, and within 15 minutes I felt so renewed, happier than I had been before I hurt my back even. I do still have back pain, but the depression that nearly took my life is gone.

Jesus healed many people while he was here on Earth, he even brought people from the dead. Jesus still heals people everyday, and I know my physical healing will take place. Just a little bit of faith can do great things.

I wanted to share this with you guys, I am not trying to preach but just to share with you all my story. Just open your heart and ask God for a healing in Jesus' name, I know He can help. May God bless you all.

Have you tried posting on the Christian board? They might want to hear your words as well.

Glad you feel better.

Thank you for sharing this with everyone. While I am sure there are many on here who might disagree having prayed for years for a healing for their pain... there are still the promises of God spoken in the Bible for our healings... emotional, physical, mental etc. There is a big difference between a "miracle" and a "healing" and this is where many people start to loose faith. A miracle happens instantly... no more pain, corrections to bones and muscles, cancer gone etc.... but a healing is a process.... it takes time.... and in our own human understanding , too much time I am sure as some pass away having never found this healing during their time on earth.

I have been suffering with Fibromyalgia and Back injuries for over 10 years now. I have clinical depression, chronic fatigue and a list of other "diagnosis" I have seen people get healed right in front of me of many things... and there is a church in California whose list of miracles grows daily. Not some sort of super radical holy phantom stuff... medically documented before and after stuff... the top of their list is cancer !

I am not posting this to start a debate with anyone on this post about the bible or God or the power of prayer...I myself have a post on here regarding my back pain... I am writing it to encourage Flockhead and anyone else who has prayed for a healing and not seen it come. There is hope for us all and until that time comes, we do what we feel led... we seek medical attention from those God has graced with such talent.... yes, we take medications... even for depression... but we dont rely in those bandaids as the end of a battle... we press on for the victory promised to us!

Just pray ,pray ,pray. I can't hurt.

Hi Flockhead,

I am a believer myself. I trust my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ in everything I do. I am suffering from horrible post op depression and when I read your post it helped me. Thank you. I have been slipping in my faith, still believe, still going to church, etc....but my faith and connection w/Him I have felt slipping, almost like He has better things to do then listen to me whine, so my prayers are almost non existent. I feel selfish. Thank you for your post, I needed to hear something like that.

shakarkia

I couldn't "deal" with out faith...Im just not strong enough. I know, because 12 years ago I tried to kill myself. It wasn't until I was hospitalized that I had reached rock bottom and knew that if I got out of the hospital and nothing had changed...I'd try it again but would try harder. I decided to give church a try. It couldn't hurt any! The love and support I found, kept me going back. The grace of God has kept me sane since then. I suffered with depression for 10 yrs. I also suffered with Fibromyalgia, hashimoto's disiease, arthritis and several back problems which I still have. But the depression is gone. That's why I can say that only by God's grace did I keep my sanity. Maybe no miracle healing here, but I am alive and happy.

I'm definately not here preaching, but it sure feels good to share my story with other believers and I love reading your stories.

Have a great night,

Lorie :angel:

I am so happy to read that my story helped. I have been reading this board aong time and was amazed to see how many people sharing the same affliction. The Lord told me to share my story of renewal yesterday, and after reading some of the responses I can see why :) May God bless and heal all of you

Its great to be able to openly express your faith and see and hear peoples faith in God making a difference in their lives. Its often difficult to understand why some experince healing/miracles while others continue to experience debilitating pain. Im sure Jobe wondered the same thing. The reality is that wondering and questioning gets us nowhere. Hang in there, and thanks for sharing your story
losy