Galaxy1
01-07-2005, 11:00 AM
I just wanted to go ahead and mention that I have been diagnosed with different types of depression, which was four years ago. Since then I have been on and off Zoloft. All my life I've been extremely shy, and anxious.
That info might play a part, but it's not what worries me.
I find "bestiality" arousing, and three times in the past year I've used peanut butter to get our dog to lick me. I feel so horrible, and guilty.. and I know it's so wrong and against the law in most of the states. I haven't done it in more than 5 months, but still think about how stupid I am, and what people would say and think if they found out. Would family still love me? Will I go to jail or something?
I've missed my period three times, which I'm going to the gynecologist for the first time to get checked out. But I can only assume it has to do with a combination of my depression, and the anxiety.
I hate going to therapy for several reasons. I've only gone about 4-5 times in the past when I was in the 10th-11th grade and it didn't help much. I felt like a test subject, and that she would laugh or something.
I want to go back to therapy if it will help me feel better.. but what concerns me most if that if I tell her about this Zoophilia thing, will she tell my mom or the cops or something? Will they help me and not judge me? Because I really do want help, I'm scared.
For the past 3 days I'd also been experiencing this pressure and constriction in my chest, like I can't breath. I also feel tingling, lightheaded and weak sometimes. It gets worse when I stand up, or go somewhere. I think it might be because I went off my Zoloft suddenly because I forgot to take it, and then maybe started too again not long ago?
Thank you for reading this, and I hope this is in the right section.
That info might play a part, but it's not what worries me.
I find "bestiality" arousing, and three times in the past year I've used peanut butter to get our dog to lick me. I feel so horrible, and guilty.. and I know it's so wrong and against the law in most of the states. I haven't done it in more than 5 months, but still think about how stupid I am, and what people would say and think if they found out. Would family still love me? Will I go to jail or something?
I've missed my period three times, which I'm going to the gynecologist for the first time to get checked out. But I can only assume it has to do with a combination of my depression, and the anxiety.
I hate going to therapy for several reasons. I've only gone about 4-5 times in the past when I was in the 10th-11th grade and it didn't help much. I felt like a test subject, and that she would laugh or something.
I want to go back to therapy if it will help me feel better.. but what concerns me most if that if I tell her about this Zoophilia thing, will she tell my mom or the cops or something? Will they help me and not judge me? Because I really do want help, I'm scared.
For the past 3 days I'd also been experiencing this pressure and constriction in my chest, like I can't breath. I also feel tingling, lightheaded and weak sometimes. It gets worse when I stand up, or go somewhere. I think it might be because I went off my Zoloft suddenly because I forgot to take it, and then maybe started too again not long ago?
Thank you for reading this, and I hope this is in the right section.
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SandraM
01-07-2005, 07:19 PM
Don't be so hard on yourself sweety. And there is no such thing as a stupid person, its people that do stupid things. As well as there is no such thing as a stupid question, only stupid answers.
Galaxy1
01-08-2005, 12:58 PM
Thank you so much for replying. I've been checking this topic frequently and wondering if people would point and go "you're sick!"
SandraM
01-08-2005, 06:12 PM
We all make mistakes in life. It's our learning process I think. Which usually makes us stronger in the longrun. Try not to let things get to you sweety.
kitkat77
01-16-2005, 08:55 PM
You're not alone obviously -- there's even a name for it. If you do any reading about it, you'd find out it's not even a disorder of any sort! Many people are aroused by animals, some partake in sexual activity with them while others do not. Apparently this "lifestyle" is only a problem if there is any abuse happening or if the person is troubled by their feelings. It is on the same side of the fence as pornography (not even child pornography -- legal porn), if that makes you understand it any better. It is treated the same way. If you are troubled by this then you should be honest with your therapist -- they are there to help you and will not judge you!