Hi, Just got off the phone with my sister in law. Had a bad day, he is down to 89 pounds, woke up this morning at 3:30 AM starting flinging his hands/arms into the air, she and her sister tried to calm him down talking ect didn't work, he curled up his hand made a fist and hit my sister in law in the jaw. I am sure he did not know what he was doing as he is so medicated - but what would make someone who is so nearly at death, have the ability to ball up a fist and hit someone. Is this a sign of being "very afraid" to die. She called the Hospice worker and she was over their within a 1/2 hour, she calmed him down and gave him an extra dose of morphine. She said to up the dosage and that she felt it would be this week-end that he would pass over. Around 5:00 AM he went to into his semi-coma and now it is 6:00 PM and he is still out. He can't swallow any longer so she has to take a syringe with the morphine and deposit it into the side of his mouth and tilt his head back. The nurse said that it would get into his system. My sister in law can't even stroke his throat as the tumor is so big (almost cantalope size) and he has no more reflexes in the throat area. Well, thanks for listening, just thanks. For the people that have read all the messages and who did/did not reply, I just wanted to say thank you so much. Sometimes we are not looking for replies (when we get them they are a godsend) when we don't, I look at this as a diary to just express myself with people who are going through the same things who understand and except....no more....no less. Thank you all and luck to all and keep the faith. Judie