Maybe I am angry, maybe I am lonely. But I don't really have anyone to talk to. I cant even talk to the guy that gave H to me (insistent that he dosen't have it). My family treats me as if I am a black plague. So scared that they are going to get it if they step foot in my house.
Maybe I am just fallin into apathy about this. I know life goes on blah blah but I worked so hard to get where I am now and now it's all gone.
This really sucks... time to go crawl under the blankets and cry myself to sleep again.

How recently did you find out Missmom? I'm sorry if this is long but i hope it's helpful.

I know when I found out I went to the doc office by myself, my gyno took one look at my vagina and came up and said 'well...i think it's herpes' And i shot up and said "are you kidding me?!?!" And she said no. And I instantly began to cry it was a real shocker I was hurt and upset. She went on to explain things but all i got out of it was "its not life threatening and i can still have kids" but while she sat there and rambled I dont remember a thing.

I cried the whole drive home, I was alone, nobody to drive me or comfort me. I throught my life with my b/f was over, and my parents would think I was nasty. It wasnt 100% i had to wait for the tests, i went home and cried in my moms arms and then had to "discuss" my sex life w/my parents, it hurt like hell"

I think my parents may have been more open to the idea because i went online (found this site) and several others that were very informational about herpes, i discussed w/my mom everything about it that i learned and we became informed together.

I haven discussed the fact that i have herpes with many. My mom/dad/brother/boyfriend and One of my X's knows because I asked him to get tested that came back negative. I have a younger sister who doesnt know she's only 14 and we plan on waiting till she's old enough to understand this isnt something to be advertised.

How informed are you parents about herpes? have you told them how herpes works? How it's passed on, how they cant get it by using your bathroom our breathing the same air you and I and the rest of us here breath? Are they willing to be informed. I think if they understood it better they would be more open to the idea that you have it and that it doesnt mean your a "plague".

Your days and nights will get better. My whole world felt fuzzy for about a week or two after learning this news. I was on the board reading up and looking up treatments/suppressives, though my doctor didnt put me on anything since i havent had another OB since my primary.

As for the guy that you believe you got it from, the best thing you can do is move on. Dont dwell on him or how or why. It doesnt get you anywhere except upset and mad. I know I thought "why me, im not one of "those" girls Im clean i've only had sex with 3 people...condoms almost always! why why why"

Everyone here is very supportive, remember to keep your head high and things will get better i promise! ~Dream~

I found out last weekend. I found out by myself as well. My whole family knows no thanks to my mother.
I just got over my primary, I think. I am a mix of emotions right now. But the thing is that I don't know what to do.

there isnt much you can do. Your doctor may or may not put you on meds. Mine told me to wait and see if I have another ob b4 she puts me on any type of meds. but did give me a back up prescription just incase.

How educated are you about herpes? I'd assume you've looked up info online and have been reading up on here. I almost contacted my doctor about some questions I had. I made a list of what i wanted to ask so I wouldnt forget.

Once you become more educated you can fill your parents in more on how herpes is. My parents were respectful enough to let me tell my brother, he didnt believe it at first until i showed him the pills and what they were for.

I'm sorry they went out and "advertised" that wasnt right of them. I can understand how heart breaking that would be.

so other then learning more about herpes you will grow to understand this isnt the end of your life. You will get past this just like the rest of us, you will go back to being normal and comfortable, but the first couple weeks are the worst. But we are here for you!

~Dream~

MissMomma83 ~
Your post made me teary eyed....You've got to understand herpes - sucks, but it DOESN'T change - who you are! You need to put the time and energy into yourself and find activities to make you feel better about yourself. Like doing things you enjoy, walking, reading, mediating, long baths, music, etc. whatever it is that helps you relax. Dwelling on it, isn't gonna change things and stress only adds to the severity of the ob. You have to make peace, with yourself and forgive yourself, trust me - we've all been there.....And it does get easier with time....but, like my suggestions - you need to occupy your mind, with good positive thoughts about yourself...One of my side passions is astrology, I like reading my strengths and positive aspects of my sign, it can be very comforting....And the negatives - are just something "to work on".....My point is the more comfortable - you become with yourself, the easier this h-crap gets. Does that make sense???? Also, information is key, read, read, read.....it will only help you understand this virus even more....This board is wonderful for support and without it, I probably would of lost my mind by now...(was diagnosed about 14 mo. ago, gentially, and have had ob's once a month since then, usually a week prior to my period, only one ob was severe the rest were tingles/twinges) Not saying your's will be like that - cause this affects everyone - differently, you'll need to "learn your body" and with time - you will. Herpes - was the hardest for all of us, in the beginning and that's the point that your at. Now, on to the family thing - sorry, about how your's reacted....Just when you feel, you need them the most, they weren't there for you...Maybe, you didn't need them after all...I wouldn't put the energy into them, you need "all" the energy - you can get for YOURSELF. I've only, told one person, the guy who infected me, he got tested, it came back + and we're still together.....An no one else needs to know....and believe me - there are others in my household. I just take the necessary precautions, to protect them....(not sexual - at all)....I mean dirty towels, washclothes, things of that nature...Read the different supplement posts, there is alot of good information in them. And you will FIND RELIEF, the more educated you become about "H".
Hopefully, something here was helpful....and keep posting and asking questons...And remember - "we're all here for each other", always.....Take Care, -ShinyOrnament

shinyornament your an angel! that post was very thoughtful! :)
And she is right, it does get better. I am so sorry to here about your mother... that is just wrong and cruel. DONT waste your energy on thinking about her or anyone who is being cruel and mean about this. These sites are very helpful! A lot of people here have helped me through A LOT! Im only 17 and I have genital hsv 1... which isnt as bad as 2... but when it comes down to it... the social stigma remains the same.... But we all learn to deal with it, all in our own unique ways. Because the fact is, you have to learn how to cope and deal or else you will drive yourself insane! so keep posting, and remember, things could be worse!
xox Heaven

Bumping up for missmomma............