I'mtired
02-03-2005, 06:15 PM
COUNSELORS HAVE THROWN THE WORDS BIPOLAR AROUND MY HEAD, AND I GAVE THEM THE "I DON'T THINK SO" LOOK. I HAD NO CLUE WHAT IT WAS BESIDES ANGRY PEOPLE, SO I LOOKED IT UP. I HAVE UP AND DOWN PERIODS BUT I DOUBT I AM BIPOLAR. THE DOWN PERIODS ARE WAAAAAAAAAAAY LONGER THAN MY UP PERIODS. OR MAYBE THEY SEEM THAT WAY. I DEFENATELY JUMP UP AND DOWN THOUGH. BUT MY UP ISNT EXACTLY MANIC. I JUST TALK EXCITEDLY AND LOUD AND MAKE TONS OF LAME JOKES, AND PEOPLE ASK ME IF I AM ON CRACK. (IM NOT.) BUT MY ENERGY BURSTS ARENT EXACTLY MANIC. I DONT RUN AROUND OR CLEAN EVERYTHING OR KEEP MYSELF BUSY FOR HOURS. MY PERSONALITY JUST POPS UP. AND EVERYTHING IS GOOD, EXCEPT THE DREADING FEELING OF--- WHEN WILL IT GO DOWN AGAIN? WHEN WILL I TURN DEPRESSED AGAIN? I HATE WAITING TO SEE WHAT TURNS ME FROM NORMAL INTO MISERY. :confused:
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mudhound
02-03-2005, 07:09 PM
There is hope. BP can be a treated with meds and other means.
kiehn
02-03-2005, 07:10 PM
Here's a few other things to ponder
One major sign of Bipolar is Denial
Mania is pretty drastic but there's also hypomania and that where you have
elated feelings, talking alot, racing thoughts and people may ask you if you're
on crack. No joke
The ups and downs dont have any set pattern or length, whether it be in minutes, days, months and one may last longer than the other.
Bipolar symptoms can vary dramatically from one person to another. If you still
dont want to accept the doctors diagnoises trying doing some research online
Or just start asking questions here on this board anyone here would be willing to
help you.
From a 13yr Bipolar veteran. Best wishes, K
One major sign of Bipolar is Denial
Mania is pretty drastic but there's also hypomania and that where you have
elated feelings, talking alot, racing thoughts and people may ask you if you're
on crack. No joke
The ups and downs dont have any set pattern or length, whether it be in minutes, days, months and one may last longer than the other.
Bipolar symptoms can vary dramatically from one person to another. If you still
dont want to accept the doctors diagnoises trying doing some research online
Or just start asking questions here on this board anyone here would be willing to
help you.
From a 13yr Bipolar veteran. Best wishes, K
Ruth6:11
02-03-2005, 09:00 PM
I was thrilled to get a diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder.
Finally.
A chance to lead a halfway normal life!
20 yrs later,
:angel:
Finally.
A chance to lead a halfway normal life!
20 yrs later,
:angel:
I'mtired
02-03-2005, 09:27 PM
Well at first I was told I may have minor depression, then severe depression. I took Wellbutrin which made me VERY hostile then I took Paxil, but I could never wake up to make it to work, so I stopped them. I just started Effexor a couple of weeks ago. But I do have up periods, they just seem so far away I almost forget them when I am down. Maybe I should bring this up at my next appointment. I wonder if this even makes a difference? They only people who said I may be bipolar are 2 counselors, not psych.
But thanks for the advice!
I am now addicted to this website because it's so helpful just to read other's posts and know that I am not going crazy :bouncing: and that others are out there too.
:wave:
But thanks for the advice!
I am now addicted to this website because it's so helpful just to read other's posts and know that I am not going crazy :bouncing: and that others are out there too.
:wave:
kiehn
02-03-2005, 09:37 PM
Hi again
Wellbrutrin did the same thing to me, I cant take it. You maybe then you may
not be Bipolar. Sometimes it's very hard to diagnose, it wasnt my first diagnoses
I agree with you talking to your doctor is a good idea. I too have learned a lot
on these boards just in the last couple of months. High~5 Take Care, K
Wellbrutrin did the same thing to me, I cant take it. You maybe then you may
not be Bipolar. Sometimes it's very hard to diagnose, it wasnt my first diagnoses
I agree with you talking to your doctor is a good idea. I too have learned a lot
on these boards just in the last couple of months. High~5 Take Care, K
dragon25
02-04-2005, 09:42 AM
Hi Tired,
I do believe you are having hypomanic episodes. When the doctors diagnosed me, I cried because I was afraid of 'turning out like my crazy mom.' I agreed to try the medicine and what a relief! I felt a million times better! I say you think about trying the meds.
Good luck to you!
Dragon
I do believe you are having hypomanic episodes. When the doctors diagnosed me, I cried because I was afraid of 'turning out like my crazy mom.' I agreed to try the medicine and what a relief! I felt a million times better! I say you think about trying the meds.
Good luck to you!
Dragon
Concerned39
02-04-2005, 11:49 AM
:wave: Oh my gosh Tired- you just wrote my life. I am the same as you exactly. I am bipolar 2 W/ rapid cycling. I can be really excited and have lots to say and joke like crazy, and laugh til I am in tears, and feel like I just won the lottery, and in the next instant I will dive down to feeling sad for no reason. I can do this sometimes 2 or 3 times a day, but my main phase is a down feeling and the excitement doesn't happen to often. It kind of hits me by surprise. I do not have the manic phases, just the feelings I described, and then the down side lasts longer- as my up moods do not stay too long. The most is an hour of up and then I go back down. I am on Celexa- and I found it is the only one that took away most of my anger and bad thoughts, and evened out my moods to a workable level, didn't fix it, but it is a little easier to deal with. I went through so many meds that I can't even list them all. I just wanted to let you know that there are others like you out here and we understand. I go through the denial of meds once in awhile- but if I go off I crash really hard and the anger comes back really fast. So maybe consider giving it another try, it does help some. I also use topomax for sleep as my thoughts race so much and I wake up every two hours and then am up for a couple hours each time- and am toast the next day. Sometimes it still happens but for the most part it really helps. Good luck to you, and keep us posted on how it is going.
I'mtired
02-04-2005, 12:13 PM
:wave: as my thoughts race so much and I wake up every two hours and then am up for a couple hours each time- and am toast the next day.
I used to be like that every now and then, but now for the most part I wake up about 3 to 5 times a night but I can usually get right back to sleep. All this scares me in a way, as I hate the thought of having a "chemical imbalance" in my head. I know my family and friends at home will think I'm crazy so they know nothing of what I am going through. (I live in a different state than my immediate family.)
But I really will stress my anxiety and my ups and downs to my clueless dr at my next appointment, and if he treats me like he did last time, I will request a new doc.
I left his office in tears at my first appointment. :nono:
I used to be like that every now and then, but now for the most part I wake up about 3 to 5 times a night but I can usually get right back to sleep. All this scares me in a way, as I hate the thought of having a "chemical imbalance" in my head. I know my family and friends at home will think I'm crazy so they know nothing of what I am going through. (I live in a different state than my immediate family.)
But I really will stress my anxiety and my ups and downs to my clueless dr at my next appointment, and if he treats me like he did last time, I will request a new doc.
I left his office in tears at my first appointment. :nono:
Concerned39
02-04-2005, 12:36 PM
I am really sorry to hear that. I do feel for you and know how tough it is to get your exact feelings across and understood. I see a psychiatrist for all my meds and any new symptoms- and I believe they are better able to understand than a regular doctor. Hope that you can find the help you need- and keep trying. It is scary at first, but as you come to deal with it, it just becomes second nature as it is just a part of who you are. All the best to you. I am wishing you all the help you need.
I'mtired
02-04-2005, 12:50 PM
:) Thanks! :)