I am so confused. I don't even know what I am thinking or feeling anymore. It seemed my medication (I've been on 40 mg paxil for just over a week) was alleviating the physiological anxiety... and then I worried that it meant I wasn't feeling anxious enough and I was okay with the thoughts. Okay, got over that.

Now I am just in this weird fog where I just feel, I don't know. I kind of get weird, intrusive thoughts that don't really mean anything and are relatively harmless. I guess now I am just bothered by the randomness of it and OCD in general. And last night when I was trying to fall asleep, my body once again kind of jolted just before drifting off, which scared me because then I thought, well I guess the medication isn't really working after all. And again, I started obsessing about that and what if I never, ever get to feel normal again? And how do you get rid of a thought that is so vague and not really upsetting. I can't quite put my finger on it.

Has anyone else had this? Am I just in limbo until the medication really takes full effect?

BTW, I am in my 8th month of pregnancy and the doctors seem to think my OCD is largely chemical due to the pregnancy. I can't wait to have this baby and hopefully get my mind/body back! Thanks for listening.

I can relate to the intrusive thoughts. I have ones that are quite disturbing, but a lot of the time I experience the ones that don't seem to mean anything, as well. I really don't know how to get rid of them. I just work hard on distracting myself with something else.

Regarding the pregnancy and the OCD being related, I just read an article in a magazine a couple of weeks ago by a woman that had post-partum OCD. She said that it is a lot more common than people realize. I had only heard of post-partum depression before.

Not sure if this helps, but just wanted to reply and encourage you a bit.

--Loopy