Well, to make it short, i relapsed. It started last friday. I took one 45mg dose of oxy. Then saturday 50mg. Sunday 55mg, monday 60mg. Yesterday i stayed clean and today was 60mg again. I dont know why i did this. i've been stressing out a lot lately a guess. Anyway, i dont think i am going to withdrawal again but i'm being pretty hard on myself for doing it. I am still on the right track to complete sobriety and i KNOW i will not have another relapse session. I guess maybe i needed one final kick, i dont know. I WILL NOT let it happen again but i guess i just need some encouraging words. I made it through the worst part going from 160-200mg a day and then going CT. I made it about two weeks, and i was feeling great. Anyway, gotta go to bed. Sorry to those of you who i've 'inspired" :confused: :confused:

ohhhhhhhhhhh {{{{{Carguy}}}}}}}}----you are o.k....this is part of the process of getting clean and staying that way. It is a slip, get back up off of your butt and dust yourself off and go at it again. That is the best advice i can give you. Don't give in to the voices in your head, beating yourself up over the relapse,,that'll just make you do more. Instead, learn from this experience, know what triggered you and address the problem. Don't leave any pills in your possession, you now know that you can't be trusted and WILL take them, so flush em. Keep fighting the fight.....you don't ever want to go thru HELL WEEK again, do ya??????? :nono:
Give a meeting a try the next time you are craving.
Post here, go to the AA NA or smart recovery sites, they can help with online chats. Oxy is really hard to recover from alone. You need support. I am an oxy/percocet addict too, so i understand your struggle. Keep hanging on, i know you can pull thru this tiny slip. No pills today!!!!!!
I always try to remember....HALT for cravings..H-ungry A-ngry L-onely T-ired Keep all of these symptoms in check.
I hope you are o.k. today, post back when you can....
STAY STRONG!!! You don't need those mindless souless pills controlling your every move again.
luv,
LISA

Car,

you did inspire me and this does nothing to change that, except again make me realize how difficult this is to beat and vow to stay as strong as I can. You sound mad at what happened...good. We can do this...you can do this.

Keep posting and keep fighting. You lost a small insignificant battle...the war is what counts.

dp

Oh Carguy..
don't beat yourself up over this... This is really a difficult thing, I am finding that out more & more each day. But everyone is right it matters that you keep on trying. That's all we can do, wake up each day and fight the fight, in time it will get easier. But we ALL can do this.
I think about how these pills make me feel, good for the moment, but then what, It's not real. And we all are worth so much more!
Carguy close your eyes and don't look back focus on now, you can do this! If I can do this you can do this too!

I am walking the walk with you.
{{{Carguy}}}}

Take Care,
DV

How are you doing carguy? Just checking on you. Hope to hear from you!
Remember when you feel alone & feel as though you can't do it..Remember we are all he for you.

DV

Well, to make it short, i relapsed. It started last friday. I took one 45mg dose of oxy. Then saturday 50mg. Sunday 55mg, monday 60mg. Yesterday i stayed clean and today was 60mg again. I dont know why i did this. i've been stressing out a lot lately a guess. Anyway, i dont think i am going to withdrawal again but i'm being pretty hard on myself for doing it. I am still on the right track to complete sobriety and i KNOW i will not have another relapse session. I guess maybe i needed one final kick, i dont know. I WILL NOT let it happen again but i guess i just need some encouraging words. I made it through the worst part going from 160-200mg a day and then going CT. I made it about two weeks, and i was feeling great. Anyway, gotta go to bed. Sorry to those of you who i've 'inspired" :confused: :confused:

Its okay! but you know you are going to be craving for a while!
DONT be hard on yourself. That is what I need to keep telling myself too.
A few weeks ago my son had surgery and I took some of his pain pills.
I was 3 months clean.
Told hubby and he dumped the rest of the pills down the sink...
I have been craving ever since my slip up.
I went and saw my methadone Dr. today, and he prescribed me
some methadone (only one 10mg pill a day for a month) to take the
edge off of my cravings.
He said NOT to be hard on myself because that can cause relapse too.
YOU HANG IN THERE.
Sounds like you really CARE about quitting.
It is common to relapse.
Good luck to you. :angel:

Well i relapsed again the day after i posted that. But today i am clean, and plan to be the next day, and the next, and the next, etc etc. :) Haven't really had any withdrawals. A few GI symptoms thats all. Wish me luck (again)

It happens. But the thing that a lot of people don't realize is that once your body gets used to drugs being in their system and making them feel normal they don't feel right off of them. It gets hard to feel normal, or happy, or anything. That is why so many people do relapse. Just try to quit again and be ready to allow your body to heal with no chemicals.

Well i relapsed again the day after i posted that. But today i am clean, and plan to be the next day, and the next, and the next, etc etc. :) Haven't really had any withdrawals. A few GI symptoms thats all. Wish me luck (again)

Just take it day by day and don't be hard on yourself.

Keep us posted.

:wave:

I am thinking about you carguy..This is a difficult road, but it can be done. Hang in there. I am pulling for you.
{{{{CarGuy}}}}

DV