Hi all-
So I have been loosing weight again and my sister is making me feel like ****!! I haven't even lost a lot just enough to feel OK again.
I am not sure if everyone knows but I am in the process of recovery from anorexia.
I am fine. I have been really really down lately and I have been dieting and working out and its been hell but I am still eating, minimal amounts, but none the less eating or else I would have lost weight a heck of a lot faster than this.
Anyway she is making me feel terrible. I don't know what her problem is. She is just plain cruel to me, lately!?! :( We live together and we are like best friends but she doesn't knwo how to deal with any of this, which is fine but I cant take this and I am all upset!! I mean I feel sooo much better with my self when I am loosing I even rejoined the gym today!! I am very aware of my past problems I deal with my ED every day and I wont let it get that bad ever again, why doesnt she understand that!!! Grrrrrr :mad:
Just venting
Jade

o jade!:( i feel for yah! like, how is ur sister handling this? its hard yes, my rents have no clue what to do. did u consider going to a counsellor? if so, take her along, then maybe thatll help her understand. i am going to a retsreat on wednesday and my rents are coming with, and my counsellor said theyll get a better understanding. in my opinion, shes just scared and doesnt want u getting ne skinnier. she loves u and remember, in anorexia, ppl see us for what we really look like. we dont see ourselves as other do.

i hope i helped somewhat...please keep in touch! and get along ! haha sisterly love:)

SammYx0x0x

Hey Sammy
Thanks for your support. I know it will be fine some days it just really gets to me ya know, it is so hard, and to think I did this to myself :) Great right!!
I dont know about going to talk to someone yet. I moved across the country recently and I had falling out with my last "nutritionist/theropist" and I dont think I am ready :( I am just glad I can come here and talk to others who are dealing with this sickness and who can hopefully relate to some of the things I am going through.
I think I am going to try and sit here down this weekend and talk with her about what is in my head. I just dont want to scare her b/c she saw how much I have suffered in the past and that is the LAST thing she will want me to do.
I'll keep you posted
Kisses
Jade

hey jade! yeh, its not easy to go to a counsellor. when i did, i was scared as heck! but if u come across i nice counsellor, itll be like u were sisters! haha. mine was bulimic for 13 years! so she knows where im coming from. when ur ready, go for it! its so worth it! i mean, i get to learn about loving urself and whatnot! and im glad ur gonna talk to ur sis about it. thats what id do!:)

nehoo, i should get going!

SammYx0x0x

Hi Jade....
Just wanted to let you know that I feel for you and know what your going through. Recovering from anorexia is very difficult and very scary. I'm worried, though, because you said you haven't lost enough weight to feel good again. I hope you have realized and remember that feeling good just doesn't happen...there is no weight that you will feel good at. It sounds like you're under a lot of stress because of the move. Do you miss home? Is losing weight again the way you're gonna deal with the stress?

As for your sister...she probably thinks that being cruel to you will snap you out of it so that you don't get sick again. She's worried and she loves you.

I hate to sound preachy...but I consider myself recovered...I know that I too can tend to slip when I'm stressed or having a hard time. I've had a slip just recently...I know I need to catch myself right away before I get sucked in all over again. I hope you can find some other way to deal with what you are feeling. I'd hate to see you get sucked back in.

I wish you luck and strength.
Hugs....Jenn

Jenn-

Thanks so much you are right. I know its all in my head but I really feel better when I am thinner?!? I am totally aware that is crazy. I talked to my sis a little bit yesterday and she was OK. It is an awkward subject, someones head, you know.... So I told her that I was OK and I told her about the boards and how she has been making me feel bad and she took everything OK. She was offended when I said she was making me feel bad, she goes "Good I am glad you feel bad" but she appologized for the way she went about it.
Anyway I feel a little better but I also feel like I have been going through this so long I know exactly what people want to hear and I know some of what I said was bull****!!!
One step at a time, I know. She is a huge part of my life and my recovery so I am going to try to be as honest as possible, I just hope she can handle it and I dont freak her out to bad.
I'll keep you posted
Jade :angel:

good for u jade!! i am so glad u talked to ur sis and she apoligized!! way to do it at one step at a time!:):)

I'm sorry you're having trouble with your sister about your ED. I know how important family can be in helping you get better. It sounds like she doesn't know how to handle your problem.. maybe you could give her some information about it, a book or something for family memebers about how to help a family member with an ED. I think they think that they can shame us or guilt us into eating.. but they need to understand that it doesn't work that way. There are a lot of resources out there, I hope you can find something. Take care of yourself. :)

Glad to hear back form you, Jade. I really hope things go well for you. You are right...one step at a time. I'm glad you realize what you said about how you've been in it for so long that you know what people want to hear...and you're right about needing to be honest...it's a good way you can help yourself.


Jenn