hey guys

i have this wierd problem.

basically, my life isnt the greatest, im screwing up school, well actually no, i WAS screwing up school until i turned over a new leaf, but yea anyway.

when it comes to things like school and i fail, i dont seem to care that much, nothing really bothers me, i dont feel anger, even when someone punches me, i never feel the uncontrollable need to punch them back, infact to be honest i dont care, just laff. though no one punches me really coz i dont start fights and im friends with just about everyone.

but relationship wise. i guess it is a problem with trust. My girlfriend, she is trustworthy, i could trust her with my life, and i know she loves me. she is going on holiday soon and i am so ****ing worried!!!! i keep imaging her having sex with other people, and i cant get it out my head, people say she wouldnt, i know she wouldnt, but deep deep down i have this horrible feeling, but see, it is like this about everything. i wouldnt mind about it so much if the damn feeling diddnt control my life!!!!

whenever i feel like this i become a wreck, sitting in a chair or something worrying, feeling all cold and horrid inside. i cannot seem to tell myself she wont cheat, but i know she wont. this is so hard to explain im sorry if it makes no sense.

what am i doing wrong?

Guy