Well ladies, I just binged. I don't know what happened just couldn't hold it back any longer. Haven't taken any laxatives all week so far but I want to so bad. Then I saw these diet pills in the circular today and I thought "hmmm, maybe I should". I'm going to be moving in with my sister pretty soon. She's going to be adopting soon and if we move in with each other we'll save some money monthly and I'm on disability so I could really use the financial help. The problem is she really doesn't understand eating disorders. Honestly, I don't think she wants to even TRY to understand what I'm going through. All she keeps saying is "well since you're not bingeing and taking laxatives anymore" and I just agree because I don't want to disappoint her. I mean, I've been lying to my mom too and just telling her that I'm ok and have been eating normally. I've never lied to my mom before so I'm feeling really guilty and I think that may be the reason why I binged today. How do you guys deal with the guilt? :nono:

eeeshhh diet pills, honey I would stay away from those.... adding diet pills to the mix is a whole new arena. Your energy, and emotions are all over the place. Worst of all, you shake bad. You can never think straight or focus...It reallllly makes life miserable when you get caught up on them. Plus, they are expensive, and why would you PAY to have that done to yourself, yah know?

I'm not sure if your problem is arising out of guilt or not. For me, when I start to feel guilty, it gives me a reason to hold back (so i wont feel guilty). Do you have anyone who you can talk to who would understand (since your sis doesnt)?? Then, you wouldn't have to lie, at least to someone....so I think a support system would really help you.
When I feel guilty, because I too hide it from my family, and most of my friends, I go to my support (boyfriend) and let it all out. Whether it's a good cry, or good advice, I usually get something out of it!

It's one thing to have people know, but another to have people who understand. I hope I might have given you at least some useful insight! Stay strong love.

hey, i agree with Cricket, i mean, i lie to my mom all the time 2, i cant imagine hurting her and telling her the truth. so, i tell my closest friends. i also see a counsellor and she helps a great deal! have u considered seeing a counsellor? i mean, it helps me but everyone is different. and yah. dont use those pills. Bad pills! they would just make things worse and personally, i think no drug can cure us, only our mind can heal!

SammYx0x0x

I know how hard it is to resist stuff like that. I hardly ever take laxs anymore, but for some reason somehting last night triggered me to, even though i ate barely anything the whole day... and all today i felt so sick and i actually went home from work because i couldnt stand up my stomached ached sooo incredibly bad. I hate doing this stuff to my body. I swore to myself today that I would NEVER take them again, and i actually flushed all of the ones i had down the toliet which is a big step. I might have to bring this post back up to remember, but hopefully we can all get through this crap together!! God bless you and if you need to vent or anyone who knows what you are going through we are here!!
Liza

I have a friend that I used to talk to all the time about my eating disorder but she usually just tells me to stop it..lol...as if it were that easy. I haven't seen my therapist in a couple of weeks now. I did call him and left a message for him to get back with me so i can set up another appointment. Will call him tomorrow if I don't hear anything by noon. Thanks for the advice. :nono: