My father passed away last night april 17th at 10:50pm. Although the pain was deep, we all sang amazing grace at his bed side, took turns with him in his bed and I crawled up next to him like a baby and my father regained conscience and opened his eyes bright and wide and my sister was talking to him and my mother went to his side and gently caressed his brow and said relax honey , relax, its okay. His eyes were so big and bright and I told my mother he has seen the light. He raised his head and took his last breath as I was holding him in my arms. God blessed me with a wonderful gift, I will never forget. Hospice helped us and let us have our time with him. Then when it was time she made the call to the funeral home. I then helped roll him over to one side and put the diaper on him ( procedures they do ) Then we brushed his hair and I shaved my father one last time. I never thought I had that much strength within me but it was a beautiful gift. Unfortanately one of our sisters chose not to watch her father pass. Which hurt my mother deeply, but we all must do what we must do. I only wish she could have seen the beauty in my fathers death. We all slept well last night, course we were up for like 48 hours without sleep, so we all crashed around 3am and when my eyes opened around 8am I did dread getting up, I miss him deeply and wish I could still see him (the way he was) before he started slipping away, Pray for our family for strength. And I will still keep in touch with all of you through the boards . My heart goes out to all of you and your loved ones who are sick. I will pray that your passing will be as beautiful as ours God Bless to all Thanks so much Eva

Oh Eva, I am so sorry about your Dad. May God bless you and give you strength. I am sure your father now will be with you all the time. Please keep in touch with all of us.

Nancy

Eva, My sincere sympathy I know your hurts I lost my father 8 years ago in may It was the hardest thing I have ever encountered Daddys little girl alone , I tell you not a day goes bye that I dont miss him But I know he now has peace as your father does there is no more pain or cancer he is again whole, God will take care of him and prepared a place for us once again with our fathers Love and Blessing to you and your family and Let your sister deal with her sorrow she will come around , God bless her to this must be a hard thing she had to take it i am sure brings back the memories for the child she lost ..........God Bless you all.

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I am so sorry for you Eva, Danny also had a bright eyed look, I said it was like he saw something so beautiful that he couldn't describe it. I'm praying for us all here.
Cheryl

Eva I am so glad that you were able to be strong. Those things that you did for your dad are wonderful and beautiful. I hope and pray that you will continue to be strong. Your dad is now in his eternal happiness. He will always be with you. I am sorry for your loss and will be praying for you.
Natalie

Eva
I'm so sorry I've only just signed in and read your post I can't stop crying it was just the same as we experienced so beautiful I'm so glad you saw it as a gift because it is so special to be with him and he is still with you all now you carry his love with you I will be thinking of you and your family be at peace now eva and take care of yourselves luv..mags..

Eva, I'm so sorry about your dad. I do know the blessing you felt in being with him in his dying moments. I saw Katie have a blissful look in her eyes as well. I felt very blessed to have been able to share such an intimate moment with someone who means so much to you. I will cherish it forever as I'm sure you will. I hope all is well this week with your mom and family and I hope you continue to sleep well. God Bless you. Krissy

My deepest sympathy to you and your family, God bless and take care, Ann.

Dearest Eva
I pray that your courage and strength inspires many others in the same position. I am so sorry about your Dad. You will miss him terribly, that's for sure. (But you now have an angel you know by name!) My Dad died last year in March. And we miss him so. But I go on each day knowing the time will come when we'll all meet again in a better place. I hope your ma goes easy on your sister. We are all different and unique and your sis just could not cope with it the same way you did. She loved him just as much and hurts badly too!

"I can see how it might be possible for a man to look down upon the earth and be an atheist, but I cannot conceive how he could look up into the heavens and say there is no God." ~~-- Abraham Lincoln
Hugs and blessings. Romi.

Thanks and prayers to all of you on the boards. I am back home now in Alabama. My mom wanted me to return and get my life back. My older sister is with her from Nebraska and is finalizing all of the legal papers. Dad had left her in charge of everything, mostly everything was handled, but just staying to oversee to help and ease mom from the burden. I promised my dad I would stay and take care of mom but she insisted I go. I know she will need her time and space to heal. She is having it pretty rough, loosing someone that you have had in your life for 50 years, everyday, must be terrible. My loss is different from hers, I am glad to experience the death of my father, the way I did. It too me was like watching the birth of a new born child,although the pain is very deep, I find my self wanting to call him and ask him something, or dream he is still alive, and I wake up looking for him, to see if he is okay, like I did when I was down there. I know I will be with him again one day, and it has really changed my life, wanting to be right with my God and not slip to the wayside, stay right on path, therefore I will know I will see his face again, Thanks again to all who have been here to help us all through this painfull time in our lives. Thanks Eva