hey guys! omgosh ladies! this is like... :bouncing: wow. i never binged or purged since monday! i ate all 3 meals with snacks included! i ate cheese, peanut butter, pretty much stuff i wouldnt allow myself to eat be4!! the retreat like, opened my eyes and made me realize, wow. i need to gain weight and be healthy. and omg, thats what im doing! im not over excercising either! in order to gain the weight and muscle, i cant exactly do 200 push ups after i eat! i just do my normal activities ! omg. this is such a great feeling. i feel bigger, but its a good bigger, u kno? i feel healthy agaiN! im still a while yet to my goal weight, but frig me, a whole week with NO purging!! this is my record!:):):) my mom is so proud, my friends are so prou,d i shure as hell am proud! and u kno? i never really thought about binging that much. maybe id think, wow, u kno? but i would stop myself and the feeling would go away! i now eat crackers with cheese for a snack, raisins, yogurt and has fat in it, peanut butter, like wow. im not into sweets and butter quite quite yet, but if i keep this up, i may be able to!

my whole dealio is just to be healthy. i wanna gain weight, but ill always be a health nut. who knows? ill prolly never eat a burger from mcdonalds ever again, but heck i dont care! u guys! if i can do this i SO kno u can 2!!

Therefore i got 4 1/2 dervings of milk, 2 meats, 7 fruits/veggies, and 6 breads.

and other days id have peanut butter toast or w/e!

i feel so good about myself!!:) and i want u guys 2 aswell!!!:):)

Take care!!

SaMMYX0x0x0x0x0x

Sammy that's really awesome!! I really hope you continue to do well!! Looks like you're eating very healthy too! Awesome job sweetie!!!

On a seperate note...you may want to keep your food journal off the board...it may be a litle triggering for some....

I'm sending big hugs!!! (((((SAMMY)))))

Jenn

o..sorry! i dont mean to be triggering, but if u are in recovery, i would recommend one!

Hey Sammy! that's awesome and you're doing a fantastic job so far. You're definately an inspiration to everyone here! I agree with the above--keep in mind that food journals can be triggering (so you may wanna edit your post to take it out, or put TRIGGERING at the VERY top of the post, just so ppl know..). Otherwise, keep going kiddo! :)

GG

there we go! i took it out, sorry bout that guys!:)

Sammy I am so proud of you girly!!! It's fantastic how that retreat has helped you so much and how you're really sticking to it, it's easy to tell from the tone of your writing that you're feeling better for eating properly! And don't worry, recovery doesn't have to mean mcdonalds burgers, it means eating food you like without guilt and not worrying about your weight so much. Keep going with it Sammy, perhaps ou can sort out like a little reward scheme, so if you don't b/p til next monday you could rent one of your fave films to watch or something like that, just to keep up the positive associations and stuff.

I'm so proud of you Sammy! Keep it up!
Hugs
Juicy xxx

Sammy thats soo inspiring! I am so proud of you!! Just remember not to give up even if you make a mistake because you deserve to feel this good and we are all here to root you on. Your story really gives me something to think about.. thank you so much!!
love liza

Great job sammy! keep up the good work!!! :bouncing:

You are doing awesome keep it up!!! You are definently an inspiration. I hope to be where you are soon. I can't wait to eat normally again and to just be healthy and not underweight anymore. I'm so scared though. Just the thought of gaining scares me to death still even though I know I need to. People are starting to talk about me behind my back now. My fiance was talking to me the other night and told me people were asking if I was anorexic. I didn't know what to say so I just changed the subject. He said he's really worried about me and I was getting way too skinny. So I made me first appt at a mental health center for therapy. I'm so nervous about the first appt which is tuesday. I just want to get better and I have hope that I can. Anyway, keep it up girl! I'm proud of you! :D