blurayne
03-07-2005, 07:22 PM
I just found out I am positive for hepc and have to have a biopsy which I'm scared to death of, anyway, I have had an addiction to pain pills and after years of being on them, I finally found my way off!! This was and still is a huge step and a lot of work!!I am new in recovery and just got passed the horrible WD period (physical) and now I'm going through the emotional crap and trying to face life on lifes terms. I was told SOBER stands for Son ofa ***** everythings real. that's how I feel. I have support and a sponcer and meetings and all that. Life is just hard right now and I'm still living every day one minute at a time. My doctor said if the virus is bad and my liver is really infected he is going to suggest treatments. I am already an emotional basket case, feeling like i'm waking up from a nightmare. When my ex started treatment he was sober and after the first few shots he went right over the edge and started using again. He couldn't take the treatments and moodswings, sick feeling reminded him too much of withdrawel. He had to get off of the treatment because it jepordized his recovery. If it is that bad though, I should not wait. right?? Plus I have this time that I am not working and it is for me to get well. This would be a good time to get the treatments over with but I don't want to jepordize my recovery which is so very new and vunerible. I can't believe I made it off the pills. That is huge for me and took years. I am sober, brand new but sober still! I still feel fatigue form the WD I believe and my body trying to deal with life without the pills. Should I get it over with since I feel lousy anyway? I just don't know if I can take another blow. I feel so weak. any help would be so very much appreceated. thank you, Kim :rolleyes:

