Hey all. I just want to know how to make it all stop. Make it all go away. The meds are making me feel worse and I do not want to continue on. It's too hard to keep going. I've tried and it's just too hard. What makes you go day to day with no hope in sight? I've run out of hope. It's easier to quit and be numb to everything around.

You mention that you are on meds, but you don't mention whether or not you're seeing a therapist or if you are in counseling of any kind. If you are just taking the meds, then I would suggest you get yourself into some kind of counseling. Talking is great therapy and can really help in putting things into perspective. Also, I don't know how long you've been on meds.... but if you don't feel the ones you are on are doing you any good, I would speak with your doctor about trying a different type. Sometimes it's just a matter of finding the right one.....a lot of trial and error for some people...but worth it if you find something that really seems to work for you!!

Depression is not an easy thing to deal with.....but with the right treatment, it can be very managable. Please keep the faith that you can find the help you need. Be persistent.....it pays off!!

All my best,
mj

Blueyes, talk to your doctor ASAP. The meds should not be making you feel worse. If they are, there are plenty of other meds you can try. Don't give up!

mj's suggestion is a good one, too. If you're not in counseling, I definitely encourage you to start.

yeah different meds or different dosage and counsellors sound like a good idea, i guess what makes me keep going is when i think of how happy i used to be before this major depression took hold,i want to be like that again, happy and having fun etc. if u think that one day u will be better again and happy then things are easier to cope with, but i know how hard it is in the middle of depression to believe that u will ever get better! so hang in there !! dont give up and good luck

Take care

Brett :angel:

I am on Zoloft and seeing a Dr. So I am in therapy. It's just not working. I don't know why. I just feel worse....

How long have you been on the Zoloft? If you have recently started taking it.....keep in mind it can take as long as 6-8 weeks to fully kick in. Maybe you need a higher dose...or a different med altogether. If it isn't working and you don't feel better (or you do feel worse)...you really should mention it to your doc and ask him what he's gonna do about it. No reason for you to suffer needlessly.

Hang in there blueyes......it really is just a matter of time....and/or the right meds.

All my best,
mj

You need to treat the root cause of your problems, with which meds and doctors may or may not be helpful. In my case, they were harmful rather than helpful, but I dealt with them for years because I was forced to do so. I had situational depression, for which meds are pointless, as was talking to doctors who half the time didn't care. I'm numb and emotionless... the only thing that keeps me going is the lack of ability to kill myself, but I can't imagine that lasting.

You may just need a change in medication. There are so many! For example, I became almost suicidal on Celexa, but Zoloft makes me feel pretty close to normal most of the time. Call your doctor and don't give up! There IS hope for you.

Another day...another pill...and more thoughts of ending everything. Thanks for everything guys. I've been on the Zoloft for 2 weeks now. I feel worse. My head always hurts....I can't eat...I am sleepy but restless....I feel sick....this sux. I'm 25 and can't function properly. What the heck? :confused: If I just drive my car into a tree or something it would be an accident....and no one would be angry. I wish I could just fall asleep and never wake up.....

Blueyes678 ~
Do you ingest any artificial sweetners? I am currently "detoxing" from using sucralose after a terrible reaction. It all began with purchasing a box of Splenda. The changes (in my opinion) were subtle.

However, my family and friends noticed immediately. I became withdrawn and disinterested in my usual hobbies. Everything became a "chore." I was tired during the day, but couldn't sleep at night either. I work on a computer and typing was difficult, as well. Also, something as simple as having a conversation became a struggle because the words would not come to me.

During the past three months I noticed myself "zoning out." I'd become forgetful and moody. I thought perhaps it was the Splenda, because that was the only thing different in my daily habits.

I quickly dismissed the thought - despite having experienced a similar situation with Equal a few years back. I called it "Jekyl v. Hyde Syndrome." But it seemed I noticed the changes much quicker with Equal than with Splenda.

However, I REALLY began to suffer. I was an emotional wreck. I cried and cried. I felt like I was losing my mind. My senses had become SO dulled, I could barely function.

This morning, I feel MUCH better than I have in the recent weeks. Not quite yet "normal," but SO much better.

I whole-heartedly agree that you should see you Dr. because it could be an issue with your medication. However, there are also many people suffering from what appears to be diseases/illnesses, when it is simply a reaction to a chemical they are ingesting.

Thanks for the input however, I'm not using artificial sweetners. I don't really eat tons of sugar. But thank you. It's just getting to be too difficult....

Blueyes,

No one should have to feel as helpless as you are sounding right now. Sometimes Docs get so hung up on the easily-diagnosed "depression"...that they don't bother to look for anything else.

Don't let your docs pigeon hole you into believeing that they know better than you. If you don't feel right being on these meds...let them know or find someone else who WILL listen. There are all kinds of things that can manifest as depression. If your thyroid or hormones are out of whack...you could experience symptoms of depression. For my husband (who was on a doc and med roller-coaster for over 24 years) it happened to be food allergies. If your doc won't help you...find one who will. Through experience...we have had much better luck and results with "non-typical" docs. For example...try holistic, alternative or environmental practitioners. These docs are less likely to be "drug pushers" and they will work hard to find underlying causes and alternatives to drugs. You may get better results going this route. Worth a try in my book.

One thing, also, that really helped my hubby...was doing lots of research. He researched every drug he was "offered" as well as those he wasn't.....he researched every alternative therapy....he researched all he could find on depression. He was "armed and dangerous" when walking into his doc's office. This helped him pretty well....as the doc couldn't so easily just push meds.

Sad to say......if you really want to feel better.....you're gonna have to get pro-active in your treatment. Don't let them tell you what's wrong...make them listen to you!! And if they won't...then find someone who will. Don't give up......there is help out there!! If you look and stay persistent.....you WILL find your answers and get the help you deserve!! Please don't give up!!!

All my best,
mj

I was on lexapro, then went to zoloft and felt much worse.. eventually i got put on paxil which seemed to do the trick, but only for a few months. I don't know if i need to up the MG's or what to do, but i feel the same.. im starting to feel as if im having withdrawls..all loopy and dizzy

Sometimes there's no choice. I was in a state program and didn't have any alternatives so my choice on doctors/meds was take it or take it.