Tomorrow I get my biopsy done! I know people have reassured me about it not being that bad, I have lost all of that at this moment. I had wittnessed my ex have one done and it was the most awful thing i have ever seen. I should have been tested for hepc right then and there but I was always so afraid after watching that! I got to a point I couldn't even look it was so bad! He was flippin out and I keep picturing this long long long *** needle with a jagged edge to rip out a piece of your liver. I know I sound like a big big baby especially when holly had liver surgery and here I am complaining about a biopsy, but I would rather be having surgery because I would be knocked out! I just wittnessed the worst biopsy ever. I have been saying all week I can't go through with it but I know I have too. I have had anxiety attacks, cried, haven't slept or ate! I just got off the phone with my ex and told him I was going, well he just friggin told me it was the most EXCRUCIATING PAIN he has ever felt in his life!! I just broke down and lost it! I know people on the board have made me feel better about it, but hearing him say that just now, it's all I hear. I have no pain threshold what so ever! I know I am a friggin wimp and sound like a crybaby but I'm so scared I can't help it. I apologize for being like this and crying to all of you, but if I never asked for help again, this is just flipping me out. I think it's because I saw that awful one and it's in my head. I keep seeing that jagged *** long needle in my head and I say outloud "I can't do this". i'm not gonna sleep at all tonight. I just thought some encouragement, esp. if people know, it would help. Even if you have already encouraged me, I am so sorry but it was a while back and all went out the window when he told me that tonight. Maybe if people can help me out here I can read this right before I go. As I said, I will not whine about other things like this, this just has me bad for some reason. If I never ask again, please help me get through this. love..... big baby!

Tomorrow I get my biopsy done! I know people have reassured me about it not being that bad, I have lost all of that at this moment. I had wittnessed my ex have one done and it was the most awful thing i have ever seen. I should have been tested for hepc right then and there but I was always so afraid after watching that! I got to a point I couldn't even look it was so bad! He was flippin out and I keep picturing this long long long *** needle with a jagged edge to rip out a piece of your liver. I know I sound like a big big baby especially when holly had liver surgery and here I am complaining about a biopsy, but I would rather be having surgery because I would be knocked out! I just wittnessed the worst biopsy ever. I have been saying all week I can't go through with it but I know I have too. I have had anxiety attacks, cried, haven't slept or ate! I just got off the phone with my ex and told him I was going, well he just friggin told me it was the most EXCRUCIATING PAIN he has ever felt in his life!! I just broke down and lost it! I know people on the board have made me feel better about it, but hearing him say that just now, it's all I hear. I have no pain threshold what so ever! I know I am a friggin wimp and sound like a crybaby but I'm so scared I can't help it. I apologize for being like this and crying to all of you, but if I never asked for help again, this is just flipping me out. I think it's because I saw that awful one and it's in my head. I keep seeing that jagged *** long needle in my head and I say outloud "I can't do this". i'm not gonna sleep at all tonight. I just thought some encouragement, esp. if people know, it would help. Even if you have already encouraged me, I am so sorry but it was a while back and all went out the window when he told me that tonight. Maybe if people can help me out here I can read this right before I go. As I said, I will not whine about other things like this, this just has me bad for some reason. If I never ask again, please help me get through this. love..... big baby!
Will the doctors be able to give you medication for pain relief? Are they able to give you nitrous oxide to calm you down? If so, concentrate on how that pain relief will feel.
Also prior to going in for the exam, when no one is speaking to you, try placing yourself in you head away from the scene, Get a picture in your head of where you would like to be and start focusing on those details. Like if the beach is your thing, focus first on the whole beach, then slowly picture a handful of sand, then bring the focus down to one grain of sand and then even further down to the angles on that grain of sand. Imagine the reflection of something beautiful on each smooth side of that grain of sand. Keep dropping your concious level down to the most minute detail of that grain of sand as to whether it is smooth or shiny or colorful. It is a self hypnosis exercise that will take you away from the situation long enough for you to feel in control of what is going on inside your head. good luck