got my results just then from the doctor, came back negative to both hsv 1 and hsv 2, im very relieved - but also very foolish as it took me 3 years to see the doctor to find out it was nothing, i think this should be a lesson to people who are hesitant to see a doctor.

i feel like ive been living with the burden for 3 years now so i can understand how everyone feels with it.

big thanks to beaker24 and others for his replies and everyone else because this should be a support board and there are alot of good people here.