Inquiring minds want to know.......how ya doin? I think of you every day and God and I have some pretty interesting conversations. Do you know how much He loves to have someone brought to Him in prayer? That's one of His favorite things....so He can move in power and might and mercy and LOVE...most of all love. His eye is on you and so is His heart. You are in His mind; and remember...all things are possible to them that love The Lord.
Love to you,
SS

and no, you cannot hide :):):)
SS

bump #2 :):)

I'm sorry.... I failed and took some and am taking about 3 mgs per day now. I am trying again to c/t. Going to the doc this a.m. to see what he says.... I'm sorry I didn't come back. Was too embarrassed to admit that my 'tough talk' just didn't work. Now i'm sort of struggling every day to stay at this dose. I dropped too fast. Probably an excuse... I apologize.

Well, I didn't go back up on my taper.... I just started taking them again and it was because I 'thought' that being around someone who didn't really know what I was going through would help me.... But I took some because I wasn't able to just be sick and not worry what other people were thinking. I know now looking back that if I wasn't trying to impress someone, I would have at least made it another day. But I c/T from 4 mgs to nothing. It was hard. Again, looking back, I could have made it another day... don't know how much worse it would have gotten but I just felt bad and I was a 'baby' and caved. That 'feverish' feeling is what used to get me every time when I was taking lortabs.

I can do this.... especially with everyone of you guys. I've GOT to get tough.... tougher. I've been through worse... I can do this. Unfortunately, I missed my opportunity to do it without work/kids so now I've REALLY got to try twice as hard. But I can do it. I just don't know if I should just stop again or what.

I'll be honest guys. And trust me, I AM getting off of these for ME. But there is someone in the wings, watching, waiting to see if my weight comes off like I said it would. And it will..... if I would just stop. ANd this person is not someone that I want to be with if my weight is so important to them. But.... I swear I think he's what I needed to jump start me getting off of these.

I've GOT to go get everyone ready and out the door. Going to doc and I promise I'll let you guys know what happens... Thank you for caring!!!

I'm sorry.... I failed and took some and am taking about 3 mgs per day now. I am trying again to c/t. Going to the doc this a.m. to see what he says.... I'm sorry I didn't come back. Was too embarrassed to admit that my 'tough talk' just didn't work. Now i'm sort of struggling every day to stay at this dose. I dropped too fast. Probably an excuse... I apologize.

Will you please knock it off?? You are being a goof...good grief. Apologies have no purpose here and there is nothing to feel bad about. You are on a journey...for all of us who are interested in this sub thing...we all learn from what happens to you and others. It is such a new drug...no one can really say how it should be used. So go back on it and taper if you want off and let us know what the Dr. says...am still prayin and with you in spirit and if you don't post...well I will just wait.
Love as always,
SS

Hi guys... Well, today is day TWO! Went to the doctor day before yesterday and I will be vague for a reason. I WILL say that I think I'm lucky (who would ever think they were lucky to have ADD??) but doc says that Adderal 'touches' the same receptors that Sub does so hopefully, this next attempt I can just visualize that my receptors are getting just a little of what they need. I had really pictured these cells, all out of whack, out of shape, out of sinc, and them taking 90 days or longer to get back to normal. Now maybe (whether misinformed or not... ) I can have a slightly different picture. Again... maybe it's just me idealizing... but maybe it will work, for a while.

I want to make a very clear disclaimer here and that is, even though I'm not feeling just amazing, I would NOT go back and change me getting on Sub and STAYING on it for over a year. I just couldn't stop taking lortabs back then and it took a long time for me to realize that it was/is time...

Anyway, I've GOT to go get everyone to their destinations... I'm sweating.... hate it!

Thank you for everything and I'll keep you posted. Any suggestions on what to do when I feel like I'm going to die if I don't take a Sub? I'm not at that poiint but it's only been 48 hours... from what I understand, this stuff is still in my system and I'm already withdrawing.... But not terribly.... YET!

Just wanted to let you know that I made many attempts at stopping before the right time actually came. I would make it maybe a day and cave. But the time came when I WAS able to do it, and that day will come for you too. You know that you want it... maybe you are just building the strength? For me the misery of the struggle became worse than the wd's.

You are in my prayers,
-L

Banker,

You are not a loser for going back up. My gosh, you already dropped down so much already! I successfully tapered off Subutex and on for months before I got off hydros. Its me over, (I not a man but a single mother,remember?) I was at 35+ hydro abuser. It it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be here today. You can do it!Taper very very very slowly. Two weeks at a time.

Love from Cali....:cool:

Over.... I can't believe it. You know, I think I must have thought that (and I hope this doesn't make people mad at me) but you were so strong and no nonsense that I just thought you were male.... isn't that odd? Goodness, I need to change my line of thinking...

I was so hoping you would post. Pls remind me again... tell me what you went through and what your mindset was. Tell me... it's a choice. Please remind me of how it all happened. It will help me.

I'm still at 3 mgs.... I can't get past day two now. It's REALLY bad. The mornings are horrible and then I cave and take some. I honestly do not think that tapering even lower is going to help me... I just can't imagine. I know it's going to be bad, from 4 mgs or 1 mgs.... You think or not?

Thank you and I've missed talking with you. Please write and let me know.... Also, 2BClean.... give me the low down. Tell me how long and how you felt on what day. I know every body is different. I personally think I'm OVERLY sensitive to withdrawals... I swear... 24 hours and I'm hurting... 48 and my skin hurts so badly that I can't even open up boxes of crackers, etc. It's very difficult to explain. I want off... I want off desperately!!!