analogic
03-24-2005, 03:08 PM
First a little history-
I have been "self medicating" myself with mainly oxycontin (dabbled in Heroin, Hydros, opiates) for about 1 1/2 years. Recently I have taken the first couple steps in (1) admitting I have a serious problem (2) coming clean with my family and loved ones about what has been going on with me. Everyone has been supportive, and although they only know what the media says about the drug- they are behind me. My girlfriend of two years took it a bit harder, has no idea about drugs and whatnot and I'm not sure if she's going to come along for the recovery ride.
I do want to quit, and like everyone else, has run into trouble doing so. In my case, the c/t withdrawal is okay, and considering the length of time I've been on them and my dosage amounts (beginning 40 mg's ending up at around 160+) I thought they would be worse. I guess I'm lucky. I never took them daily but would binge for a few days at a time on a regular basis over 1 1/2 years. My issue is staying off. I have a tough time with old reminders, being alone and being bored. Alcohol also calls them up and clouds my better judgment.
I stayed clean for 3 weeks starting Feb 24th and spent some time out of state relaxing, getting healthy and thinking I was okay. I returned and not more than 48hrs later was back in the middle of a binge- staring March 17th I'm not sure why, it's tricky stuff. I had to come clean again with my family (who thought I was okay after my trip) and admit I slipped up and they have been greatly supportive. I came back to my parents house and have been clean for close to 72hrs with minimal withdrawals, and no real craving.
What I need to know I what step I should take next. I hope the background I gave you is adequate and will answer any specific question you might have. I'm not sure detox is needed, or counseling. I have no health insurance and little cash to speak of. Yes, these thing really screwed me up- personal relationships, jobs, you name it- the typical addict story but I've always been pretty good a bouncing back- this one is a challenge- but I need some advice or good recommendations. I live in the Buffalo, NY area.
Thanks in Advance! B
I have been "self medicating" myself with mainly oxycontin (dabbled in Heroin, Hydros, opiates) for about 1 1/2 years. Recently I have taken the first couple steps in (1) admitting I have a serious problem (2) coming clean with my family and loved ones about what has been going on with me. Everyone has been supportive, and although they only know what the media says about the drug- they are behind me. My girlfriend of two years took it a bit harder, has no idea about drugs and whatnot and I'm not sure if she's going to come along for the recovery ride.
I do want to quit, and like everyone else, has run into trouble doing so. In my case, the c/t withdrawal is okay, and considering the length of time I've been on them and my dosage amounts (beginning 40 mg's ending up at around 160+) I thought they would be worse. I guess I'm lucky. I never took them daily but would binge for a few days at a time on a regular basis over 1 1/2 years. My issue is staying off. I have a tough time with old reminders, being alone and being bored. Alcohol also calls them up and clouds my better judgment.
I stayed clean for 3 weeks starting Feb 24th and spent some time out of state relaxing, getting healthy and thinking I was okay. I returned and not more than 48hrs later was back in the middle of a binge- staring March 17th I'm not sure why, it's tricky stuff. I had to come clean again with my family (who thought I was okay after my trip) and admit I slipped up and they have been greatly supportive. I came back to my parents house and have been clean for close to 72hrs with minimal withdrawals, and no real craving.
What I need to know I what step I should take next. I hope the background I gave you is adequate and will answer any specific question you might have. I'm not sure detox is needed, or counseling. I have no health insurance and little cash to speak of. Yes, these thing really screwed me up- personal relationships, jobs, you name it- the typical addict story but I've always been pretty good a bouncing back- this one is a challenge- but I need some advice or good recommendations. I live in the Buffalo, NY area.
Thanks in Advance! B