Well, I'm back. Out of detox...but not feeling right still. I know it takes time, but DAMN....when am I going to feel better? I was in for 3 days and doing so well, they let me come home yesterday. While in, I was given librium, clonidine, and something else for anxiety but I forgot what it was called. But, once the last of those drugs wore off, I had the creepy crawlies in my legs last night and couldn't sleep. I feel jittery today and wish I had some valium to help calm down. :eek: I learned a lot while in but I'm so scared I'm going to try and get more pills. So far so good, hubby keeps me in check. :)

I feel lost without my pills. Vicodin was my friend. I would appreciate someone who wants to talk about this or give advice on how to cope. I'm going to an NA meeting tonight.

Thanx

The first few days are the hardest with detox. No one likes to be sick. Wether it be a cold, the flu, or detox. Think about it though, people get the flu all the time and it is the same. I am 3 years clean and just got over the flu. My legs hurt, i was sweaty, could not sleep cuz my legs hurt, and was totally run down and had no energy. Guess what I did.... dealt with it, took some asprin, took hot showers, and it went away. The same applies to you. It will go away. You just have to tough it out. If NA is your thing you want to check out then that is a great way to start. I know at the time that your in detox it never seems that simple for some reason. I cleary remember those days. I don't miss them. I remember the intense anxiety that came along with all of that. But honestly, try to relax and simplify things. As far as not feeling all too right with out your pills, of course you don't. But it is also like anything else.... when you do it for a long time you do feel out of place once you stop. Have you ever had a job for a long time and then quit or got fired? You feel weird and get anxiety because you are used to that daily thing and no longer have it. I got layed off around Xmas and it felt weird, and I had anxiety, and guess what....i got used to it and eased into a new routine. You will slowly ease into a new routine and get used to it if you allow yourself that privledge. The body and mind are an amazing thing and they heal and adjust very well when they are allowed to. It just takes time. Find a passion, even if it is a small one, like maybe you like drinking coffee in the morning and blasting a specific cd. Maybe that cd is the one thing that will ease you , make you smile, and feel like, even if only for a moment, that there is a brighter tomorrow. When you find those little things hold onto them and use them as much as possible. Good luck. I was a methadone, heroin, any kind of opiate addict. I eventually added crack at different times and a lot of booze at some point too. I made it out alive. But it all started with a few harmless pills.

Well, I'm back. Out of detox...but not feeling right still. I know it takes time, but DAMN....when am I going to feel better? I was in for 3 days and doing so well, they let me come home yesterday. While in, I was given librium, clonidine, and something else for anxiety but I forgot what it was called. But, once the last of those drugs wore off, I had the creepy crawlies in my legs last night and couldn't sleep. I feel jittery today and wish I had some valium to help calm down. :eek: I learned a lot while in but I'm so scared I'm going to try and get more pills. So far so good, hubby keeps me in check. :)

I feel lost without my pills. Vicodin was my friend. I would appreciate someone who wants to talk about this or give advice on how to cope. I'm going to an NA meeting tonight.

Thanx

Hi There, I am here to talk to!!! I am so proud of you for having the courage and will power to go into detox! If and when the overwhelming urge to use hits you, just stay strong and DONT DO IT!!! Just think, if you dont give in and use when the creepy crawly yucky feeling goes away you wont ever have to feel that way again. Is there any way you can call the place where you Detoxed and maybe have them write you a script or call in some of the medicine they had you on while you were there? Just enough to get you through the next couple of days, just until all the withdrawal symptoms are gone?

I know all to well about the great friendship with pills. I wish i didnt!!! It is just one vicious cycle, ya know? Anyway, just hang in there. You really are very lucky to have the understanding and support from your husband, there are just so many out there who dont have anyone and they have to suffer alone without any support.

Hang tough and have a Great Easter!!!!

ValleyGurl

[QUOTE=InRecovery04]Out of detox...but not feeling right still. I know it takes time, but DAMN....when am I going to feel better? I was in for 3 days

Hi there,
Please give your poor body a chance to get with the new program. I detoxed off of remarkable amounts of Vicodin (HUGE) and by the 5th day I was feeling like a new gal. I think you just expected too much too soon. You'll be ok...I promise. If you want your "friend" Vicodin and have made the decision to no longer use...why, go to an earlier meeting and tell them how you are feeling. I promise you if you are open and honest you will have more offers of friendship than you can handle. Go to a meeting determined to offer hope to one other person...just a hand of help and see the reaction...I hope you are not alone today...you need not be.
Sparkles
oh and exercise and drink H2O

Hey recovery....I can empathize with you. I went into a detox last year at this time, and 3 days, i was out. Take about 1000 mg of vitiam C, it is essential at this time for you, and will make you feel alot better. each day will get better for you, and when the glorious morning comes, in about 5 or 6 days, when you wake up and all of a sudden its just gone, you will feel like 10 million dollars, and there wont be a thing anyone could do to get you to take a pill.

Let me ask you, I have some clonidine, and I was wonderng how it worked for you.

Anyway, you are almost there. keep going, i wish I had the courage you had to go to the detox, and sort it out.

Oxy Out

Hi Oxy...
Thanks for your reply...it made me feel so much better, as well as SheSparkles' reply...thanks to you both!

I feel better than I did earlier today and I just got up from a nap. I know the day will come, I have detoxed at home before (didn't know at the time it was dangerous) but it's been so long, I almost forgot when the "great morning" comes and I feel just like you said...like 10 million bucks. I remember what that felt like because I think I'm nearing that point!

As for the clonodine, it really did help, but be warned, it lowers your blood pressure and makes you REALLY TIRED. Don't go anywhere or drive when you take it. Also, the nurses came into my room every HOUR the first night I was on it to make sure my BP didn't bottom out. I didn't get much good rest!
I would suggest talking to your Dr. to see if taking the clonodine is OK for you (unless you already have.) I'm pulling for you too...are you considering detox?

HUGS and thanks so much for the support. I appreciate all the replies, everyone who replied to me, even if I didn't mention you by name...it still means a lot!

Peace. :wave:

Your doing GREAT! I'm proud of you.

I was in detox and a stress unit combined which helped as I got to talk out my stuff. I realized 6 years later that I still had issues that I had not dealt with. I am still dealing with them....they never really go away, you just learn to cope. Vic was also my buddy and numbed me out when I needed it. I am glad and proud of you that you are trying to start over.......Kahlia