Well, for those of you following my story right now, I have had a slight change of plans. for those of you who dont(i have a heavy oxycontin habit 5-7 X 80mgs a day, with serveral CT withdrawls and relapses over the past 2 years, but, i am having a really hard time this time around_)

Anyway, I was going to go to the meth clinic tommorow, and pick up where i left off on friday, and get 25mgs. I have been flirting with meth for 2 months now, and trying it one day, then stopping. I have a real problem with it, and I kinda feel like I dont want to be on it, but I am willing to take it as a last resort, and lately have been feeling like this is the end, and i cant do anymore

I went out today, and got a cold turkey care package. the works. vitaim C, immodium, gravol, advil, etc etc.

I have some Clonide, and I need to know how to take it. PLEASE HELP WITH THIS, HOW DO I TAKE THE CLONIDNE PROPERLY.

Aslo, and more importantly, i think, I scored a bunch of 10 mgs Valuim. Thinking back to my last detox, this is the one ingrediant that I have been missing in my last attempts to quit. Its the axeity that screws me. ANY IDEA OF HOW AND WHEN TO TAKE IT. I am thinking that I should take it every 3-4 hours for the first 2 days, to get me through. Hell, I was even thinking, I should take enough to zonk me right out, to get through the first day. frig

I took my last dose, 2 hours ago, and I am going to go to bed, shortly, and the morning, is somehting i am not looking forward to, AT ALL.

I also, need to really try this time. PLEASE HELP ME. I have to get through this, without the methadone. I know that the methadone, can really help, but for me and for some reason, I just feel like, I am not really quitting, and the inconvience of it all, I dont know, I just dont like the proccess, and I just want to quit, so i can have all of those, amazing feelings that come after you get through this....

PLEASE HELP, I WILL BE ON THE BOARDS, ALL DAY TOMMOROW, IN HOPES TO NOT RELAPSE. PLEASE HELP WITH THE CLONIDINE.

I have books, movies, time, valium, clonidine, everything, you think you would need, to avoid methadone, and relapse. and the hatred, that Lisa talks about, I have alot of that.

Thanks,

Chris.

Hey,

Never used Oxycottin so can't really give you advice on how to quit.

All I can say is you need to WANT to quit. If this is what your saying then the phsyical addiction is overpowering your mental.

Try to use motivation. Just keep thinking that you don't want to be the mentally weak ones in society that has to have an addiction on drugs. Especially Oxycottin which is harder then a drug like marijuana.

When you have strong strong urges, take a hot bath or shower. Watch your favorite tv show...a comedy would be best. Go out and buy a box set of your favorite tv show and watch episode after episode while having the urges. Laughing really helps keep your mind off. If you still have a appetite, eat something you like--your fav desert or meal. And something that REALLY REALLY helps is to get some EXERCISE. Exercise helps deal with stress, which you are probably feeling as of now. If not, do it anyway--do pushups, situps, go out to jog--My main point is to DO SOMETHING and take your MIND off the drug.

To me, your a man with a brain. Its up to your mentallity to quit or not, if submitting yourself to a NA group helps then do it--but those don't always work.

Just keep thinking to yourself that you don't want to be a sucker in society (no offense). Let your intelligence handle the recovery.

This might not help you at all because I never even experienced a phsyical addiction, just a big marjiuana addiction. I've stopped for 57 days and the motivations and activities I listed above helped me through the first 2 months of stopping.

Good luck pal.

Oxy, Seems you have your mind set, now stay strong and GO FOR IT !!!!!
I cant really give you any recommendation on the dose for the Valium other than to tell you to do a search on valium dosage and READ CAREFULLY !!!!!

As far as the clonidine, i cant remember if you said what milligram the Clonidine is that you have, but i can tell you when it was prescribed to me for withdrawal to get off Fentanyl it was 0.2 mg. Take one pill twice dailey.

Please, make sure you dont over due it !!!!!!! This is a blood pressure lowering medication, you dont want to totally bottom out your blood pressure and get into trouble.

Hope this helps! As Lisa, I will be here all day as well... so if you need anything.... even if it is just to talk about ANYTHING..... I am here.

GOOD LUCK AND GO FOR IT !!!!! ValleyGurl (Wendy)

The Clonidine, takes a couple of days to get into your system, it simply helps ease some of the symptons of withdrawls, it helps, but the withdrawls are still unpleasent. The Valuim? If it wasn't prescribed by a doctor, I'd advise you not to take it at all. If you need it that bad, call a medical professional for a safe dosage. I do know that one of the keys to getting through the withdrawls is the ability to sleep. You have already been given some good advice on how to bide your time during the withdrawl process. It is a process, remember that, and although its hard at first, it does ease up after a few days. You need to stop obsessing about the pills as much as you can. You are driving yourself nuts. Calm down, relax and ride it out. Take the pain the first couple days, it will improve. Be strong, be tough, stick with it. You know what you need to do already, but you don't seem to be gearing yourself up for a fight and you need to. Stay on the boards as you go through this. We'll help you as much as is possible.

Oxy-
Only advice I can offer is to hang tough, go for a long walk, I mean really long 5 miles or more when you get back take a hot bath, then take 2 of your valiums conk out and repeat the process and don't forget to drink tons of water, gatoraid too.

Good Luck

Oxy-Glad to hear that you want to quit...it is a state of mind. It is a mind game. I quit Dilaudid and Morphine cold turkey 7 years ago. I was sick and I KNEW it was time. The drugs controlled me and every aspect of my daily life. I agree that walking and getting out that energy that you have-even the negative, wanting to use-is a good tecnique.(sp) It helps. You need to get your ming on other things and withdraw slowly. The other thing I did was write down every time I felt "crazy, sad, wanted to use" etc. I would go back to the day before and read it and realize just how sick I really was. I am now a calmer, fun-loving pereson and cannot iomagine goinc back to that lifestyle. That is just for today as you know. There is a statement I always remeber which I am sure a lot of you have read or heard...."There is NO chemical solution to an spiritual problem." It makes a lot os sense. Take care and let us know what's up..........Kahlia

I'm sorry but I feel the need to reiterate that I don't think you should be taking valium without a doctors supervision. Have you taken it before? Do you know if you'll experience side effects? Valium is addictive as well, remember that. I simply took Tylenol PM to help me sleep and it worked fine. I feel very uneasy about your popping valiums so casually.

DVC, dont worry so much about the valium...LOL...a doctor gave it to me, 10mgs every 8 hours....I will follow that, and only for 2 days, so thanks for your concern....Umm...I feel like ****, really, bad.....I need to get through this day....someone told me that, once, you got through day 1, you never have to do that again..I am going with that, right now, I have incredible withdrawl..I went to the meth clinic, but decided against doing it, i dont know how i did, but i did....

Chris....

Okay then, you know what you've got to do sister. Lets get you started......

yeah....well, I hear ya.....i am started, and I am withdrawling bad...really..bad...****....talk later.....3 days..can i do it..i have to...

Hang in there. I'm in your corner, and your going to acheive your goal!!!

Sending you power!