hey everyone, I have a real problem. I know its wrong but I just can't help myself to stop. I am 5'4 and weigh 115. I think I am huge, most people tell me I am skinny, but my stomach has a lil bit to much fat. For the past year maybe year and a half, I have turned to bulimia. I don't do it after EVERY meal, but if I eat to much or feel full, I tend to sneak up to the bathroom and throw it all up. I don't know what to do. I just don't feel comfortable with my body. Even after doing all of this, I still don't lose weight, I either gain a pound or stay the same. Even though it isn't working I still go to it. My mom had caught me twice..they just keep trying to ignore it. But my dad will crack jokes about it. Like we were sitting there and he was like you don't need an easter basket your on a diet, well you could eat the chocolate but you will just end up puking it up later..I just want to scream when he does that because he doesn't understand how much it hurts me, because I always try to stop..and I think he is the reason I think im so fat. He always is like ohh looks like you have put a few pounds on, or has your stomach always stuck out that much. My sister is older than me but smaller..and he is like oh can you fit into her clothes yes I always thought the younger one was suppose to be smaller..he just doesn't get that he is fueling my bulimia, and he is fueling me anger towards him..idk, but I just need help..without telling anyone, none of my friends know anything about, not my boyfriend, or my best friend who I am with almost all the time. I just need to know about anything else I can turn to instead of this. please help..thanks

Hi Brit,
I think you might get better and more appropriate responses posting this letter on the eating disorders board. Almost everyone there has an idea on bulimia and/or anorexia.
SS

My own 2 cents worth, hope it helps you. Try to eat more "easy foods" like salads, soups, sandwich, ect,. Small portions but more often. Through out that scale-don't weigh yourself! (Unless losing more weight which might be indicated through friends or family-Don't end up in the hospital!)
I'm 5'6 , now 125lbs 30yrs old. (I've usualy stayed around the 90-110lbs mark up to about 3 yrs ago.) I was always petite by choice. Now though, i've learned, my little belly, is actually attractive. I feel SO much better it's unreal. I eat healthy, small portions.
I'd love to know the statistics on how many women feel comfortable 100% with their body. Many of us, don't. I think the key is not to "stress" too much over "looks". Look around, you ARE petite! Health is SO much more important than our "cute" women natural bellies. It's a sign of a healthy women.
As far as your your parents, the way I read your post, again, my 2 cents worth. Can your dad maybe be trying to embarass you so that you stop making yourself throw up?
I have a good feeling if you eat "normaly" and don't visit the toilet after your meals, your dad will stop making those comments. Try it for a week, prove me wrong, eat light, but more often, don't weight yourself, concentrate your energy on work/school/hobbies/friends, don't look at that "natural women's belly" in the mirror. The way I read this, bad comments will be NO MORE :) Worth a try? One week.
At 5'4-115lbs, Dang , you ARE a small women!