SunnyDarkness
08-13-2003, 11:51 PM
When people swear at me or threaten me I tend to get VERY ANGRY. I mean, even more angry than I get about other things. I have never in my life gotten into a physical fight and I thank God for that because I truely believe that if a fight ever got to a physical point I wouldn't stop untill whoever I was fighting was dead.
Here is an example of one situation that happened: I was in a conversation with one person they walked outside, I went into the house, they accidently shut the screen door on my dog, I looked out and I said hey, you shut the door on my dog, I know it was an accident but you gotta be more careful. Then a person who was observing this said "You ******* don't lie you shut the door it was you stop being a jerk" In response I yelled back "I didn't shut the f*cking door, don't yell at me" The person kept insisting that I had shut the door and kept swearing at me, I responded by walking up to the person who had shut the door and placing my hand on her shoulder I said "You shut the door on my dog did you not? I know it was an accident, it's no big deal, but this person over here is calling me a liar which I am not." the person who'm I was addressing agreed that she had indeed shut the door on my dog and that yes it was an accident. I then looked towards the person who was swearing at me and said "Ok, now what, you are still tryin to call me a liar when she just told you that she shut the door!?!" The person proceeded to swear at me, she got into my face pointing her finger almost to the point of poking me in the eyes, she then threatened to find a way to have me kicked out of where I was living and then swore at me some more. I told her "You need to back off, it's not ok to swear at me, and it's definantly not ok to threaten me, you better just chill now." I had actually said that in a calm non-yelling voice. She then sat down in a chair and I turned to go back in the house. She then threatened me again saying "I am going to come in there and snap your head off" I then told her "No, youre not going to do that because if you hit me or touch me in a threatening manner I WILL defend myself." I said this relatively calmly. She then kept yelling and I just walked into the house. I could here everyone else who was outside telling her to be quiet, that I hadn't done anything and there was no reason why she should be talking to me like that, and I heard her continue talking about snapping my head off. Other people were telling her that she had better not mess with me because she would be the one to get hurt. After that I don't really remember what any of them outside were saying. I was in the kitchen while they were all outside having this conversation. I was trying to mix a carnation breakfast drink. I was so angry that I was dizzy and shaking. I seriously could not feel my body and my brain felt like it had been shot up with a bunch of novacaine. I was so mad that I was shaking so bad that I ended up spilling milk all over the counter and having no feeling in my entire body made it impossible to be able to tell how firmly I was holding my glass. I ended up breaking it in my hand..... accidently. Has this ever happened to anyone else or am I just totally crazy??? If it was someone my age, or who I didn't really care about I wouldnt've responded that way. But it was my aunt who was threatening me so I really didn't want to fight with her.
Here is an example of one situation that happened: I was in a conversation with one person they walked outside, I went into the house, they accidently shut the screen door on my dog, I looked out and I said hey, you shut the door on my dog, I know it was an accident but you gotta be more careful. Then a person who was observing this said "You ******* don't lie you shut the door it was you stop being a jerk" In response I yelled back "I didn't shut the f*cking door, don't yell at me" The person kept insisting that I had shut the door and kept swearing at me, I responded by walking up to the person who had shut the door and placing my hand on her shoulder I said "You shut the door on my dog did you not? I know it was an accident, it's no big deal, but this person over here is calling me a liar which I am not." the person who'm I was addressing agreed that she had indeed shut the door on my dog and that yes it was an accident. I then looked towards the person who was swearing at me and said "Ok, now what, you are still tryin to call me a liar when she just told you that she shut the door!?!" The person proceeded to swear at me, she got into my face pointing her finger almost to the point of poking me in the eyes, she then threatened to find a way to have me kicked out of where I was living and then swore at me some more. I told her "You need to back off, it's not ok to swear at me, and it's definantly not ok to threaten me, you better just chill now." I had actually said that in a calm non-yelling voice. She then sat down in a chair and I turned to go back in the house. She then threatened me again saying "I am going to come in there and snap your head off" I then told her "No, youre not going to do that because if you hit me or touch me in a threatening manner I WILL defend myself." I said this relatively calmly. She then kept yelling and I just walked into the house. I could here everyone else who was outside telling her to be quiet, that I hadn't done anything and there was no reason why she should be talking to me like that, and I heard her continue talking about snapping my head off. Other people were telling her that she had better not mess with me because she would be the one to get hurt. After that I don't really remember what any of them outside were saying. I was in the kitchen while they were all outside having this conversation. I was trying to mix a carnation breakfast drink. I was so angry that I was dizzy and shaking. I seriously could not feel my body and my brain felt like it had been shot up with a bunch of novacaine. I was so mad that I was shaking so bad that I ended up spilling milk all over the counter and having no feeling in my entire body made it impossible to be able to tell how firmly I was holding my glass. I ended up breaking it in my hand..... accidently. Has this ever happened to anyone else or am I just totally crazy??? If it was someone my age, or who I didn't really care about I wouldnt've responded that way. But it was my aunt who was threatening me so I really didn't want to fight with her.

