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goofyafter2

04-04-2005, 06:50 PM

Oh my god, the past few days I have just been irritable beyond belief! I will be fine and coping and all of a sudden - POOF- Mrs. ***** arrives. This is like I am fine for half a day or so then I snap in and it takes another day to snap out for a short period and here it comes again. Does anyone else experience this? What do you do?? I just can't stand myself and my dh starts getting pissed because I am pissed. I see my pdoc on Wed and I cannot wait. What do you all do? I am sick of screaming and yelling and being a complete jerk! It is not that time of the month either. I was a crying basket case then. I can't deal with this mood thing anymore!!! HELP!

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jen1008

04-04-2005, 08:22 PM

I understand exactly how you feel. My hypo episodes always manifest themselves with extreme irritability. Made it kind of difficult to properly diagnose me. My husband understands that I really have no control over this, but tries to help anyway, which usually just makes it worse. We usually end up avoiding the subject all together and/or each other. It works for us, but it may not work for everyone. I have to keep telling myself that its not my fault and do my best to relax and think of what to say rather than the first bi***y thing to pop into my head. Difficult? YES, but I'm slowly getting better at dealing with it. And as my husband always says..."and this too, shall pass." Good luck and I hope it passes quickly, if it doesn't know that you are not alone, many of us are going through the same exact thing.
Luv,
Jen

dragon25

04-05-2005, 10:35 AM

Hi Lori,

I am in this mood right now. I experience it when I am depressed and hypomanic. I tend to ignore people or be very short with them. Everything and everyone gets on my nerves. I just want to scream!

Hope you feel better soon, Lori. Just know that I am right there with you. At least for today.

goofyafter2

04-05-2005, 04:25 PM

Thanks for sympathesizing with me! I am so new to this crap;, I don't know what a manic , or hypomanic or any kind of episode is. I am just going crazy, but not crazy fun - LOL! I would love to hop back on prozac. I wish I knew then what /i know now, I preferred that type of "episode" much more then this kind. Thanks! Hope we all are laughing soon!! Love, Lori

Ruth6:11

04-05-2005, 09:43 PM

Hope you don't mind asking, but how old are you goofy? I started having ALL sorts of problems with irritablility - turns out it's probably linked to perimenopause. A real thrill of a time for Bipolar females when the "chemicals" that are our hormones start going haywire on us adding to the fun in our brains...!
:angel:

polarized13

04-05-2005, 10:02 PM

Hi,

I answered this post yesterday, but then I pushed the wrong button, and deleted it, and I was so IRRITATED that I just got off the computer and said forget it. LOL :D

I also get really irritated, and easily agitated when I am going into manic mode it seems. And if my meds are keeping me from becoming manic, then I can stay in that 'in between' state for days. (anything is better than the depression, but I feel so bad when I'm grouchy to my family)

I think that if you are finding yourself feeling like that more often, you should tell your doctor, maybe your med isn't working like it should, or maybe you havent been on it long enough....

Ruth has a good point about the hormones, too.

good luck!! :)

~~~heather~~~

pferg101

04-05-2005, 10:43 PM

Funny. My mood has always been irritability too. My old doc said I had depression with moods. MY new doc says, biploar. Maybe I am bipolar. I am often snappy, say things that I shouldn't! People laugh and say you always speak up but, maybe I just need to control myself better!

Then again I am female, a mother and was working full time. I could just use some plain help around here too!

I hope you find the answer to help your moods!

pferg

goofyafter2

04-06-2005, 12:56 AM

hey, thanks for the responses! I am 34 yrs old, have been on lamictal for like a month, but have only been at 100 mg for like a week. I see my pdoc tomorrow-wed. I was first dxd ppd after the birth of my son last summer and put on prozac. I ended up raising the dose every couple wks, then i'd quit taking it, then I'd take too much. Finally, dxd bipolar in hospital in feb and put on depakote. took myself off that after a wk, got a second opinion, bipoalr II, put on lamictal and here I am.

I had a serious prob admitting there was a prob, thought it was fake, i was making it up, etc. My pdoc thinks the prozac was making me manic, up all nite, out running every night, etc. I really miss that feeling. My pdoc says that sometimes drs are too quick to prescribe anti ds w/out first waiting for the mood stab to kick in. I will definitely be discussing. I wrecked the slidy tray that holds my keyboard pounding it in frustration then went on to cry my eyes out for who knows what. I haven't felt so alone and needing help for quite awhile now and I am just losing it.

Thank you all for your support and sorry I have gone on and on and on...Pretty typical -lol! Love, Lori

pferg101

04-06-2005, 11:24 AM

It is so frustrating to feel so many things falling down on you. Anger then tears. I am so sorry you are feeling so unstable. Keep an eye on your meds and side effects. I do think that sometimes when we are on so many our bodies must not know when it's up or down! My son was on several meds for bipolar for years & unstable. They were supposed to take him off all of them in the hospital but, never did! He was finally weaned off most of them and is stable on just lithium now!

I know several people who take one to be up, one for when they are down. It must get the body and brain very confused! Talk to your doc about all the ups & downs and if they are different then before you went of different meds. Keep a log of meds on/off, side effects. Mood feelig differently, etc.

Hope things get better.

pferg

loopyturtle

04-06-2005, 11:52 AM

Lori,

Hope things go well at the Dr. today. I don't have any great advice. Not that good at dealing with the irritability, myself. My husband wasn't good at dealing with my irritability, either. Lol. :) Really, I hate the monster I can be. I walked out of school today rather than rage in class. So the school thing was short-lived.

Hang in there. We'll get you through.

--Loopy

PeggyHarmon

04-06-2005, 12:45 PM

I'm off kilter. I am irritable, snappy, and I am on nothing. I'm 45...seems I have no patience left. I have crappy insurance at work (even work for a MHMR company) but they send us to private practice if we need therapy ourselves for privacy benefits. Everything sets me off. I have been on everything and off it seems. Once I'm off it, I break out in hives with an allergic reaction, so I'm scared to take anything more. Although I'm thinking paxil cr again. But yea, I'm living my own moody hell...no one loves me, no one does enough for me, then I pick fights with my S.O. and the household is shook up....soon, i'll have to do something, regardless of financially doing without some sort of meds.

pferg101

04-06-2005, 01:04 PM

Sorry to hear that! Can you go to the local Mental Health Clinic? I went here for years & they billed my insurance. I was also on a sliding scale which helped! I know I live in Moodville a lot of the time too! I am taking the xanax right now for anxiety and it seems to numb out my moods quite a bit. Although I am afraid of being dependent on it!

The mood stabilizers helped me the most. I loved risperdal but, got tics on it. That was a dream at helping me go to sleep! I take seroquel now & really like that too! I don't think some of the older ones are very expensive if you have to pay yourself! I hope you can get it under control. I know if doesn't feel good at all!

pferg

goofyafter2

04-06-2005, 01:40 PM

I am so happy to hear I am "normal" - LOL!! But not at all of your guys expense.

Denise, I'll bet these damn babies have something to do with something - lol! Anyhow, I blame everything on meds too, then I go off them and have problems, so I am not sure where I am at. I'm about 5 lbs up and that is 5 f-ing lbs too many!

Pferg, Thanks, I have a list of complaints for my pdoc today! He is gonna just love me!

Loopy, Loopy, Loopy! I am so sorry to hear you had probs in class already! You CAN go back you know!! Hope the anger eases up. When do you see dr next???

Peggy, I hear you. I have been shaking up my household for the past couple weeks. Sometimes I just wish my dh would leave me and take my kids away, because I am no kind of mother. I hope you are able to find help somewhere. You probably should.

See like now I feel ok. I have had an ok day so far. Pdoc in an hour. I'll keep you posted. (like you all care -lol!) I KNOW you do!

PeggyHarmon

04-06-2005, 02:14 PM

I am not real big on astrology stuff... however some friends of mine say its the Mercury causing the fits. It's here until April 12--if I can patiently handle that, my schooling, my job, 2 weddings back to back, and my homelife...yeah... so it might just really be all the planets out of line. We're normal *throwing hands up* right? lol :wave: I do know I've had a bad bout this time.. I've questioned myself, my sensiblity, and my relationship, my OWN choices... I double question and over analyze. It completely sux to be this way.

goofyafter2

04-06-2005, 03:13 PM

I hope you are right PeggyHarmon but if not, my pdoc just prescribed me some amblify(i think its called) and ambien for sleeping. Oh, and up to 150 mg lamictal. All scripts are at the drug store right now. It used to be down the st. so I go there and they move the moth-rf-cking thing somewhere else that I just drove past. So I am having a fit just trying to get the *****. ARGH! Had to stop and get another capuccino! LOL! Hope you are all well! Love, Lori

goofyafter2

04-06-2005, 06:56 PM

I guess I mean ablify. I hope it works soon!

Ruth6:11

04-06-2005, 10:00 PM

Peggy, you might be a real candidate for perimenopausal bipolar gone wild...
:angel:

dragon25

04-07-2005, 09:52 AM

My dear friend Lori,

I have been feeling you today on the irritability. I haven't qite come out of it sice my severe deppressive episode. It is starting to get to me. Let me know if the new meds work. I am thinking of changing doctors. I am becoming unhappy with mine. Anyway, let me know!

halfreality71

04-07-2005, 12:37 PM

I have a question about this irritability stuff..

I am diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. I am usually a fairly calm person. These last couple months have been very stressful for me because of all the changes that have taken place.and i recently relapsed really hard (psychotic episode) and went back into the hospital.
Usually my emotions are really flat, but when something confusing and stressful is going on (ex: Im driving and trying to find the place i need to get to, and a lot of other things are going on around me at the same time: my boyfriend is talking, cars are going by, the radio is too loud,hearing voices, etc.) and im trying to concentrate and i have all these voices talking in my head,... i'll lash out in anger and confusion and yell and shout at my boyfriend. It's like i can't control my anger.

The other day my boyfriend mentioned to me that maybe im schizoaffective: bipolar type, because of all this uncontrollable anger i've had lately, but extream irritability like this doesn't mean that you are bipolar, right? i mean, i thought in order to be bipolar, you must be having manic episodes and i have never had a manic episode.
Irritability like this can be caused by other things, like stress, and be part of other mental illnesses(like depression and schiz)... am i right?

thanks

-Becka

goofyafter2

04-07-2005, 05:00 PM

Hi everyone!

Overtheedge, thanks for the good luck! I hope it helps.

Dragon, my pdoc says I am in some kind of mixed whatever. The depression and mania mix is making me irritable. I hope you find a dr you like. I just love mine. I totally trust him and that makes a huge difference! Hope you feel better soon. He said I should notice in a few days.

Becka, I wish I could help you, but I am so new to this. Best of luck to you!

Thanks a ton! Love, Lori

Colefort

04-07-2005, 11:38 PM

Hey Lori,

I really hope you are doing ok. My gf is going through one of these phases right now. We haven't really spoken for the last 2 days. I don't know exactly what you are going through, but I know that it isn't fun. This has been one of the most helpful threads I have read here. I have never heard the hypomanic state described so much, and also in terms of dealing with it in a relationship. I was just about to start my "pseudo depressive" phase that I have developed to go along with my gf's hypomanic phase when I read this thread, and remembered that everything will be alright when it passes. and everything will be alright with you when yours passes. Hope you found some help with your doctor, and this thread. Thanks for starting this thread, and thanks to everyone who responded. Everyone here is so great and helpful.

Becka,

I don't know much about bp, but my gf is bipolar II and she doesn't have manic phases but hypomanic phases which manifest themselves with extreme irritability. Talking to your doctor is your best bet.

CF

goofyafter2

04-08-2005, 04:03 AM

Thanks cf! My dh and I end up not talking too, and I just hate it. I kind of think he gets it, sort of, but just wants its to go away, as do I. There are a lot of women who enjoy being a *****, but I myself am not one of them. A couple more days... I am still hopeful. Hang in there cf! It can't be easy on the other side of it either. I too am learning as we go. Love, Lori

terrienne

04-08-2005, 11:41 AM

Hi Lori, and ALL, hope you are doing better. :wave:

I think this is the only place where we can truly say, ' I know how you feel ',
so, I DO know some of how you feel.
Coming to this message board, where I know people understand me, has
truly made my life eaiser these days. THANKS to everyone......,

I have been Bipolar so long, from my own experience, I think a LOT of what we have to deal with, besides meds., and that sort of thing, and just getting
through family issues, of course, is having a good relationship with our Doctors. Lori didn't you say you liked yours ?

I have learned to make a list of things I want to talk to my Doctor about, and what all has been going on in my life, since I saw him last.
I have found that when your Doctor sees that paper in your hand, more than likely, He/She WILL listen to you !
And, I don't hesitate to ask questions, also.
I guess I have learned this because of my medical problems in the middle
of having Manic Depressive Illness. Life's a beach, sometimes....,
I also have learned a LOT from my Doctor Father-in-Law, who has taught
me that we have our rights, and we need to stick up for ourselves !

About ' Anxiety ', I was going through the ' climbing the wall state ', and I was acting like a snapping turtle, just biting everyone's head off.
I was also having panic attacks, and could NOT leave my house.
About a year ago, my BP Doctor asked me if I had taken Lexapro, after I
explained how I had been feeling. I told him that I hadn't.
So, after being on Lexapro, along with my list of meds., that I take every day, I have been ' chilled out ' ! It has been the miracle med., for me.
I know, I know, not every med., works the same for everyone.
I just wanted to share this info. with you guys !
I hope I have helped someone today.

I have a question.......... ? What is the difference in BiPolar 1 and BiPolar 2 ?
One of our Daughters has just been diagnosed with BiPolar 2 !
Just wondering, and as far as I know, I don't think she's had a manic episode.
However, my family tends to tip toe around me (I HATE THIS), like they
think I will just fall apart when something serious is going on in the family.
Does anybody else feel this way ?

I hope to hear from somebody...........,

Take Care,

Hope you ALL have a good day,
Gee Gee

Christine1984

04-08-2005, 11:45 AM

Hey goofy,
That happened to me and my reason was because the medication called abilify did that 2 me, so the dr took me off it. Your meds are probably doing that 2 u. you have to change them up, or go on anew med. this is if you are on meds!!! okay. i understand exactly what your going through. take care, gd. luck christina

goofyafter2

04-08-2005, 07:16 PM

ok, overtheedge, maybe we should move in together because my kids and husband are also ready to get rid of me LOL! I have NO patience with these people!!!

Gee Gee, I too made a list to bring to pdoc, but then I was embarrassed to get it out - lol! But I covered most of it, just forgot to ask about vitamins, fish oil, etc. I am dxd bipolar 2, I think because they say i get hypomanic episodes and not like full blown mania - whatever that means. Thanks for sharing about the lexapro and I am glad its helping. I love my pdoc. He is so mellow and I don't know, its just like I really DO matter.

Thanks Christina, I have been on the abilify for a couple days now and I am still waiting for something to happen.

Ok, so I haven't really slept the past 2 nights, I took the ambien last night and my little guy decided to play for 2 hours in the middle of the night, then the dog wanted out about 230, so needless to say, irritability was inevitable. I started out irritable, then I had fun for a while, back to irritable, then depressed, then ok for a while, then irritable again. Isn't this just normal? People have this stuff all the time, right? Whatever, I hate it. Oh, my pdoc said when I asked what it meant when the meds "kicked in", he said my moods or days would be predictable and stable like. So thats what I am shooting for.

Thank you everyone! Your input means a lot to me! Love, Lori

Ruth6:11

04-08-2005, 09:25 PM

Hi Gee Gee,
Bipolar II is kinda like "Bipolar Lite". The lows are still there, but the highs don't quite reach official mania level. They call it "hypomanic" instead.
I'm enjoying your posts!
:angel:
(an oldtimer on many different levels)

terrienne

04-08-2005, 11:52 PM

Hi Ruth,

Thanks so much for your reply, and I really appreciate you thinking of me.
I really needed this information.
I'm an oldtimer too, but don't quite know what you mean about ' on many levels '.
Duuuuuuuuh...,
Take Care, (GLad to hear that someone is enjoying my posts !)
Gee Gee

terrienne

04-08-2005, 11:58 PM

Lori,
well i just need to add, maybe the dog needs some kind of meds too, cause i also have a dog, 130lb monster, that at least 2x a week will want to go out 5 or 6 times a night, i think he just like messing with my mind too,,,,can it really just be all of them and not us? lol

Gee Gee, i wish i had some answers for you, but iam so new at this but what i can offer to you is my support and a shoulder......and aprayer or two never ever hurts anyone.
Denise
Hi Denise :wave:
Thanks for thinking of me........., and I will take that shoulder of support,
and a prayer or two just any ol' day.
Take Care,
Gee Gee

terrienne

04-09-2005, 12:09 AM

terrienne

04-09-2005, 12:12 AM

PS. Lori,
I appreciate your information also ! I am an old timer about this BiPolar stuff, and
I still have a LOT to learn.
I am glad to have a place to go, where folks really DO understand what I'm going
through, and hopefully, I can help someone TOO !
Later.....,
Gee Gee

goofyafter2

04-09-2005, 07:01 AM

Gee Gee, I too feel so fortunate to have this site. Not only is everyone here so nice and helpful, but they all know at least some of what I am going through. Its nice that we can help each other, sure a pdoc can help but unless he is bipolar or f-ed up (LOL) also, he really can't "know" everything. All of our bits and pieces tell a big story. Thank you for being here! Love, Lori

princess72

04-11-2005, 08:42 AM

Hi Denise..............I recently been diagnosed with bipolar and OCD! Long story short.......been depressed my whole life, im 33. Been on every anti depressant you can imagine. On Lamictal for a month. SCARED TO DEATH, to gain weight, i too suffered from eating disorder and the mental part stays with me!!!! I gained weight on Celexa, and took me forever to lose the weight. I am also on Buspar(anxiety) and Wellbutrin. My doc says these dont make you gain weight, the internet says diffrently, and my phyciatrist wont let me go off them. Lamictal supposidly is wonderful for bipolar, but is very slow in getting into your system, it takes awhile to feel the effects! Sorry for rambling on and on about weight gain........I AM OBSESSED about it and people are probably getting bored with reading all my posts about these drugs and gaining weight! I just have had so many different experiences with these drugs that a year ago i was anti-drugs to any med to make me feel better. K, just wanted to share................Have a great day! :wave:

pferg101

04-11-2005, 11:58 AM

Well, I am off geodon. Back on seroquel, on wellbutrin and xanax as needed!! My mood is ok, then something makes me mad & I jump! Don't know what else to do as I have had too many side effects to these meds!

pferg

goofyafter2

04-11-2005, 01:57 PM

Ok, so how long for lamictal to work, princess? I have been on for a little over a month, almost a wk at 150 mg. I am just so irritable still. I have been on abilify for almost a wk too and I am still waiting for that too. I notice I am so easily startled now, just like with prozac. I don't mind that though, just sick of being a b--ch!

Good luck pferg. I am hopeful that there is combo made for all of us. Just the waiting is BITING THE BIG ONE!! There that feel better (LOL)

Have a great day everyone! I know I'll prob be ok for another few hours, then look out!

princess72

04-11-2005, 08:38 PM

Hey goofyafter2, I have been on Lamictal for a month! My doc said this med will take 4-6 weeks to feel anything! Talk about being IRRITABLE...........I cant stand this. I feel like im getting worse since i've been diagnosed! I have NO PATIENCE at all!!!!! Im on Buspar for anxiety, but i dont think it's working. Sure hope i feel this Lamictal soon. Take care.... :)

princess72

04-11-2005, 10:25 PM

Overtheedge.....About calling the doc about weight gain!!!!! THAT'S ME TOO! My phyciatrist is making me stay on these med's that i think are making me gain weight! I cant tell if it's all in my head as well, seeing that i have about 15 disorder's that im dealing with. Sad fact-------ive never loved or accepted myself, im 33 with 2 kids! Oh about exploding on them, that was me today! No patience......even for chaos or being loud!!! I just want to go nuts!!! I feel crazy! I have to say i am sooooo happy that i have found a "real" doc to help me. Yes i have an answer to my "craziness" over a 15 year period all the doc's did was put me on anti depressants with more side effects that made me even more depressed! I finally got some answer's that i am bipolar and OCD, on top of ED, body image and self esteem, self worth....you name it! I get so confused on these boards, as far as how many times i've posted the same stuff to different people! Oh well, i wont obsess about it though, lol....................... ;)

goofyafter2

04-11-2005, 10:42 PM

I don't mean to butt in, but both overtheedge and princess, your posts sound just like me! I am up a couple lbs and I freak out and start the binge/purge. dr put me on abilify to try to settle down til lamictal kicks in, told him i better not gain wt. I weigh myself quite a bit throughout the day. I can't help it.

I actually wrote in my journal that this past weekend that I was ready to smash my kids or break their arms or something, and i was just screaming my head off at them. I am not even a spanker so I am just wanting this crap to kick in because I am really hating myself. I too had to work at having these kids and I probably shouldn't hate them so much. It IS the noise. I have 2 and my 3 yr old is trying to kill me by whining.

Love, Lori

princess72

04-11-2005, 11:00 PM

Hi Lori.....I think i have replied to you before, as i said in my last post, i dont know who ive talked to and said what to. Anywayz, my kids are 11 and 15, and the teenager drives me insane.....k, they are suppose to, but im talking at a level that drives me over the edge. What im struggling with, is all my problems, and im having a hard time trying to deal with her problems. I feel so selfish and consumed with my own s*** all the time! I dont ignore or neglect them by any means!!!! It's just hard being a parent, and then to have all this on top of it! Hope to chat again.... :wave:

goofyafter2

04-12-2005, 02:44 AM

I am sorry, I don't remember much either -lol! Sometimes I feel like its all about me too. My dh just informed me this past weekend how sick he is getting of me being a rag all the time and being sick and being on the computer all the time, etc. I forget how this must affect him too. I know I am not always treating my kids with enough attention. They are 3 and 9 months and they deserve so much better. I am hoping that once I calm down, I will be able to work better within my family unit. Thanks for your response. Love, Lori

goofyafter2

04-12-2005, 04:53 PM

HI overtheedge. I am up to 150mg for like a week now. I am not really getting any less angry I don't think. I just feel like squeezing my kids til they shut up. I try to walk away from them instead. Then I feel bad when my son is screaming because of course he wants his mommy. oh, I see my pdoc tomorrow I think I will mention it. I think he mentioned topamax to me and said it makes you lose weight, but since I was fitting perfectly in the chart , he said he wouldn't give it to me for just that reason, but if this lamictal isn't going to work... I have also been on abilify for about a week now (supposed to take the edge off, til lamictal kicks in) whatever. I can't ramble on and on about this forever. Oh, plus I have severe sinus probs (result of mri) so I need to see a dr, but I had an "episode" with mine so I need to find a new one. I don't think these headaches are helping my moods either. I have noticed the abilify has taken my appetite away, so I might just tell him its going good to stay on it. I am so f-ed up!~ Anyhow, thank you for sharing with me. Love, Lori

goofyafter2

04-12-2005, 08:57 PM

Hey thanks Denise. I think I will visit it and check it out. I will definitely be trusting that my pdoc can decide what is best for me. I'll keep you posted (of course, how could I ever shut up-lol). Thanks for the info.

goofyafter2

04-13-2005, 03:51 PM

Well guys, no more abilify for me. On to bigger and better, LITHIUM. This sucks! Anyone just wanna quit this trip??

goofyafter2

04-13-2005, 08:51 PM

Thank you so much for your support! It means more then you know. Love, Lori

polarized13

04-13-2005, 10:39 PM

Hi Lori,

My doctor mentioned to me about putting me on lithium if this last combo doesn't work. But you have to have your blood checked every month? That sounds like a hassle. Why do they make you do that?

By the way, congratulations on having a five star thread, and thanks again for all the support during my little crisis.

You're the best!! :)

~~heather~~

ps. I'm so glad that everyone has shared their stories about how they feel with their kids. I was feeling so guilty for not enjoying my kids like I should, and being so crabby, now I feel so much better. I know it isn't just me, its this stupid disorder, or side effects from the drugs they put us on.

goofyafter2

04-14-2005, 06:29 AM

Thanks Heather for everything. He said i need blood chked Mon at first and the he didnt say how often but the need to keep an eye on your thyroid and kidneys. I am just crying right now. I hate this madness. Life is hard enough.

Ok,end of pity party. guess i have to deal with it. he said i would just be on it until i get through this "episode". the lamictal only deals w/the depression side.

I feel like such a rotten mother, I either need to get myself fixed no matter what they put me on, or give my kids away (lol-sort of).

ok, so heres what i'm on, 150 mg lamictal, 300 mg lithium (think thats each pill though and I take 2), and 10 mg ambien (at nite for sleep). Just tried it again last nite and my ds woke me up after an hour and I was so out of it, it was ridiculous. But I think I did sleep better. Before that I was rambling to dh about Christmas shopping of all things

How are you all doing? Thanks so much for all the support. I really need it. Love, Lori

polarized13

04-14-2005, 11:12 AM

Lori,

Don't be so hard on yourself!! We are coping with a very difficult illness. It's so complicated to cope with the symptoms, and side-effects, and find the right doctors to help you.

We are all doing the best we can to be good parents and partners, and not let this desease take over our lives. Maybe it's a little easier for those of us with bipolar 2, but for those of us who have full blown bipolar, in addition to eating disorders, or addiction issues, or ptsd, or adhd, it's so hard to be normal!! I think our spouses deserve an award for putting up with us!!

We are pretty new to this whole thing, and still tying to figure it all out, so cut yourself a break, you are doing fine. Just being aware of your issues puts you ahead of a lot of people who live in denial, right?

take it easy, I'll talk to you later :wave:

~~heather~~

goofyafter2

04-14-2005, 11:45 PM

Thanks for the boost Heather! Love, Lori

goofyafter2

04-15-2005, 04:30 PM

OMG overtheedge! That lady sucks!!!! Can't you find someone else to see??? I HATE her!!! She just doesn't get it! You are not injuring them! She sucks! Let me know what you decide. Please don't feel bad about that, there is enough other crap to feel bad about -lol! Love, Lori

polarized13

04-15-2005, 08:23 PM

Hey,

I just wanted to throw something in here, possibly it may help to diffuse the situation a little bit. Psychologists, and psychiatrists are mandated reporters, which means if someone tells them something that may even resemble child abuse in any little way, they have to report it, or risk losing their license, or even going to jail if something actually happens to the child in question.

Also, just because she calls CPS doesn't mean that your kids will be taken away from you. That isn't how it works. Believe me, I had a neighbor who was the worst mother on the face of the earth, literally let her one year old run around naked in the street in the winter, and payed no attention to the child at all except to give her spankings, and they didn't take her kids away.

They might just come out and interview you and find out if you need help and support in any way, and possibly make you take parenting classes or something.

I wouldn't lay a hand on my children at any time for any reason, and if someone is dealing with psychiatric issues, and struggling to cope, I don't think it's such a bad idea that maybe someone comes and helps you cope with the situation.

I just hope that everything works out. The system is set up to keep anything bad from happening before things get out of hand in a case like this, not to take children from their parents. If you are a good, loving parent, and you haven't hurt your kids, then you have nothing to worry about.

good luck, I hope you're all ok :angel:

~~heather~~

polarized13

04-15-2005, 10:56 PM

Hi again,

I'm sure you're a great Mom. And it think alot of the time things like this get blown out of proportion. I'm always really carefull about anything I say to any healthcare provider, about when I'm really depressed or whatever. You never know when someone will use good judgement, or jump to conclusions. Try not to worry too much about it. It will work itself out. ;)

sincerely,

~heather~

BethyGirlie

04-17-2005, 07:42 PM

:) I get the same way. I feel as if I literally wake up on "the wrong side of the bed" and I know what kind of day it is going to be. I get so angry at stupid things, and I freak out and cry about stuff that I can't really control. I swear I feel like the worst roommate, because sometimes I feel as if I can't control these moods. Blah.

*Beth*

goofyafter2

04-18-2005, 01:09 AM

BethyGirlie

04-29-2005, 10:57 AM

Denise, Congratualations on the great review! Nice to know you are feeling better. I too feel as though my patience is starting to recover. We will be the best moms by the end of this thing. LOL. Oh yeah, we already were.

Beth, Are you on any meds at all?

Yeah, I am on Lamictal. Just got it increased to 200mg. It is helping a great deal. I feel like I have a lot more control of my moods now. My therapist told me that I just need to find the right dosage and I'll be alright. I think I did with the 200mg. It is just right. I was still moody with the 150, but on the 200 I think it took just the right amount of "edge" off.

goofyafter2

05-01-2005, 08:04 AM

Beth, HOORAY!! Good for you! I hope the dosage continues to work well for you! Can't wait til I get there, think I am getting close. Love, Lori

kbatten278

06-09-2005, 09:40 AM

hi,
I get extremly irritable when i go into mania, it seems i go right into hypomania. I can physically feel it. It feels like if you clench your fist as tight as you can, thats how my whole body feels. On edge. Tense. Sometimes it lasts longer than other times. I get very verbally mean so i try to try and get the emotions out. I try to stay away from people when i am like this. I do try to keep in mind that "this will pass" but it is hard. I know for me when i have a manic a depression is soon to follow. I tend to do really stupid things when i am manic. I make decisions that i normally wouldn't make, not thinking of the outcome of it. Hense ending a marraige.
kbatten278

pferg101

06-09-2005, 10:42 AM

I know how difficult this can be for you! Sorry! Are you on meds for this? I mostly just get irritable. Like bad PMS!

Pam

terrienne

06-09-2005, 12:27 PM

Hi ! Lori, :wave:

I am so sorry that you are having such a rough time...,

Heather always seems to know just what to say, doesn't she ?
She always makes me feel better, and she's such a dear, with a lot of
intuition, in insight....,

I take ' Seroquel ', which my DH calls my agitation, aggrivation, irritablility,
Med., and it is exellent for good sleeping.

As I told someone the other day.................,
I take ' Upper's, and Downer's and In-betweener's !

I also take ' Lexapro ', for anxiety ! This is/has been a life saver for me !
I have been taking this for over a year, and it's made my life so much better.
I just thought I would throw this in, hope it helps.

Take Care, and I hope you are feeling better soon...,
Gee Gee