Potassium
04-06-2005, 04:16 AM
This is what happens to me and is the reason I think I may be bipolar. So tell me if you think it sounds like it.
Sometimes I go on -I used to call them adrenalin binges. I can't sleep. I feel closer to God, I feel like I could be God. I take stupid risks, look for trouble. I'm very violent and destructive. Drugs, criminal activity, self-injury.
Then a light switches and I'm incredibly depressed. I'm tired, hungry, and suicidal. I stay and bed and cover my windows with sheets.
The thing is, this happens often in one day's time. All the people I hear tell me they stay on the mania for days and the depression for days. Sometimes I do, but most of the time I don't.
Like yesterday I was okay because I was in school. But when I got home I laid down and just felt the blood rushing. I got out a baseball bat and went outside and started beating any object that I legally could. I felt like I was possessed. I went inside and starting throwing everything around, I felt like I couldn't help myself. Then I slid against the wall and cried until I fell asleep.
Then I woke up and was "normal" again.
This is making me exhausted.
Sometimes I go on -I used to call them adrenalin binges. I can't sleep. I feel closer to God, I feel like I could be God. I take stupid risks, look for trouble. I'm very violent and destructive. Drugs, criminal activity, self-injury.
Then a light switches and I'm incredibly depressed. I'm tired, hungry, and suicidal. I stay and bed and cover my windows with sheets.
The thing is, this happens often in one day's time. All the people I hear tell me they stay on the mania for days and the depression for days. Sometimes I do, but most of the time I don't.
Like yesterday I was okay because I was in school. But when I got home I laid down and just felt the blood rushing. I got out a baseball bat and went outside and started beating any object that I legally could. I felt like I was possessed. I went inside and starting throwing everything around, I felt like I couldn't help myself. Then I slid against the wall and cried until I fell asleep.
Then I woke up and was "normal" again.
This is making me exhausted.
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veggigoddess
04-06-2005, 04:46 AM
You most definitely sound like you are Bipolar. Check out bipolardotcom to see the symptoms. No matter what it is though you need to see a specialist pront! You;re going to hurt yourself and/or others sooner then later if not.
dragon25
04-06-2005, 09:27 AM
Hi and welcome!
You sound bipolar to me too. You are probably a rapid cycler, thus the frequent mood changes. I tend to get violent towards myself and others when I am manic too and this landed me in the hospital. You should definately get help as soon as possible from a doctor.
You sound bipolar to me too. You are probably a rapid cycler, thus the frequent mood changes. I tend to get violent towards myself and others when I am manic too and this landed me in the hospital. You should definately get help as soon as possible from a doctor.
goofyafter2
04-06-2005, 03:41 PM
Hi Potassium. I agree with the others that you see a dr. soon. It is so important for you to get some kind of diagnosis in case you need to be on meds of some sort. Let us know. Love, Lori