:confused:It seems like I'm having more good days now but not today. I know it's just anxiety but sometimes it feels like I have a knife stuck in my chest.Does anyone else every feel like this?I'm on medication but some times I can feel the pain coming back. I feel like an empty shell and my soul has been riped out.Tommorrow I go to see my counselor and she'll say you have to fight it but some days I just don't have the strength but I'll keep trying! :angel: RAGDOLL

:wave: Hi Ragdoll,

I'm six days into my medication for anxiety/depression, it is nice to know that you are having some better days, gives me hope!

I suppose you just have to be grateful for the good days and well, just get through the bad ones. My counsellor is the same as yours, one week I'll go and be ok and the next be down in the dumps, I suppose that's the cycle of depression.

Hang in there and enjoy the good days! Out of interest what med are you on and how long for?

SS :D

I've been on Effexor for two months.I'm now up to 112mgs.a day.I know it's helping ,it just seems to be a slow process.My counselor must know what she is talking about because she has clinical depression and has been on meds for four years.I don't know how long I'll be on meds probably forever.I've never been this bad before and I don"t want to feel like I did without the meds.It'll be the same old routine with the counselor.She'll say how are you,whats new this week,then she'll tell me you have to keep yourself busy and set your goals.I've heard it all before but sometimes it just doesn't work.

yeah i know how u feel! i sometimes feel like that, my mum gets anxiety a lot worse than me, so bad she cant do anything, thank god im not that bad most of the time but i certainly feel for u, at least ur having more good days now,which is better! like u said, u should keep trying, thats all u can do :)

Good luck and take care RAGDOLL!!

Brett :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel: :angel:

Your mother is very lucky to have a son like you,Brett.You always have a kind word to say to everyone and seem so upbeat whenever you reply to someone who is down in the dumps.I know how your mom feels I get the same way.The house looks like its been hit by a tornado,it seems like I only do what I have to.Is your mom on meds?If she ever wants to talk about it,I'am here.Thanks a lot for all your replies everyone.Hugs.RAGDOLL

aw thanx!! thats made me smile now :) my mum cant use computers heh heh., today she attempted to write an email to someone in canada, using one finger to type and pressing the space bar instead of the enter key to change lines heh heh. she managed to type a WHOLE line!! wow altho it took her about 1.5hours no joke, we all find it funny, she does too, bless her tho she tries ;)

I live in Canada.Where is your mom from?It took me a long time to type when I first started,I only used one finger, to.I bought a typing program for the computer and it doesn't take me as long,now.You can type for her if she every needs anyone to talk to if she gets down.I love this board but everyone seems a lot younger then I am.You remind me of my youngest son ,he's always telling jokes.My oldest son also suffers from depression,it makes me feel bad because I think he's inherited it from my side of the family.TTFN,RAGDOLL

my mum is from england but her best friend lives in Hope BC :) id love to go to canada! my mums best friends daughter is coming to visit me in spain in dec and when i get enough money im off over there! :)

dont feel bad about ur sons depression, thats life isnt it? i dont know where i got my depression from, my mum or my dad? but it doesnt matter cos ive got it so now weve gotta concentrate on getting better :)

Brett :angel:

Wow ,I need to take a few deep breaths after reading Man apart's last post.Why is he so hard on himself?I read his first post and he is wonderful with words.I admitt it isn't something you want to read if you want to get better but you start reading his posts and you get hypnotised by his words.I better shake it off!My husbands parents were from England.His mother was from Holsworthy,she was a pretty maid.He still has relatives over there.Canada is a wonderful country,I'd love to go to BC,I live in Ontario.TTFN RAGDOLL

yes, feel the same some days I feel good and some days I just want to do nothing at all. I wonder some time if the pills even work.

yeah he is wayyyy too hard on himself!! :( but i find his messages too hard to read most of the times

when i come to canada which i WILL be doing ill pop in and say hi heh heh :wave:

:wave: Hi Brett.How's things today? How's your mom,doing?I've been bouncing back and forth between this board and a Canadian site I found which has about five members.There's a lot more people on this site,I think in Canada it's still an illness that's kept bottled up. The weather here has been great the last few days.It's finally getting warm after a long cold winter.No, we don't live in igloos.I don't think it gets really cold out in BC like it does here.Spring started there about a month ago,when you come to Canada we live on the street with the white house and the green trim.HA!HA!Hope you and yours are having a good day.TTFN RAGDOLL

It's creepy,

I used to want to go to Canada and so many places and now I don't think I'd enjoy it at all. (And I'm a travel nut). Maybe that's part of my depression/anxiety/Panic disorder/PTSD etc. It sucks. I am so miserable. I lost my job and my uni (and my motivation) with this. I just wonder what my purpose is in this life.

hah thanx, im sure to find ur place now ;) the weather here is great, went to the beach today which im lucky cos its only 15k away, got a great tan and enjoyed a peaceful walk, apparantly it isnt hot enough here yet for the beach to be busy, 25c cant be hot enough for the local spanish!!!!

take care

Brett :angel:

It's creepy,

I used to want to go to Canada and so many places and now I don't think I'd enjoy it at all. (And I'm a travel nut). Maybe that's part of my depression/anxiety/Panic disorder/PTSD etc. It sucks. I am so miserable. I lost my job and my uni (and my motivation) with this. I just wonder what my purpose is in this life.
I live in a village where all you have to do is go over one street and your're related to someone.Right now,I wish I had enough money to just travel the world and never have to come back here again.I would just get on a cruise ship and imagine I don't have depression /anxiety/panic attacks anymore but I know it isn't that easy.I just started a new job in Dec.but I had to quit in Feb, because I couldn't handle the stress.I'm asking myself the same question,I don't know what my purpose is either .Maybe we just need to be selfish for once and concentrate on getting healthy or somewhat normal,again.I know someday you'll enjoy travelling,again. :) HUGS RAGDOOL