Wowwwweeee
04-16-2005, 03:32 PM
Hi all,
I hope this finds everyone doing and feeling well. :)
Well, I got through my first week at my new job! Any new job will take some adjusting, so I know that on that end, it's just a matter of becoming acclimated and learning what's what in a new office environment.
Symptoms-wise.....after not having many head symptoms for the three weeks prior to starting my new job, I am upset that my symptoms started to increase few days before starting, and have continued.
I am sure some of that has to do with the stress of leaving my old job, and not completely embracing my new job because of some of the responsibilities that I don't care for, and a different schedule than what I am used to.
And also because I am in a brand new adventure with new driving patterns (and city atmosphere during the drive), and a new work environment to navigate.
The company is underneath part of a gorge, which is actually lovely. However, since the building is underground, it's accessible by elevator or stairs only. Obviously, I have opted to take the stairs, which start outside and go down to the first level, of which ahead of me is the gorge complete with running water. So the motion of going down the stairs with running water in the foreground is a challenge.
I have to take three short, but steep flights of stairs to reach the main entrance, which tires me and throws me off.
Once inside, the building is nicely refurbished, but old, so a good portion of the floor either tilts, is buckled or is uneven. As soon as I start to reach the part of the building where the floor begins to tilt, my symptoms increase and I feel a strong need that I am pulled to the right.
Plus, sometimes scents throw me off, and the copier that sits in my area has a very strong inky smell to it, that makes me feel woozier when I smell it. Not sure yet if I am just so worried about that, that it's a little psychosomatic.
My main concern are my head symptoms, and so between those worry-thoughts and being literally kept hopping on my new job from the moment I go to work to the moment I come home, I am feeling overwhelmed - but JUST as it pertains to my head symptoms.
Not to say that my new job isn't worthwhile. My new boss is super. He took me to a baseball game this week for lunch one afternoon - we stayed two hours, he bought my lunch, and we talked about how things were going for me. He knows all about my symptoms, and we even talked at some length about that: he wanted to know what it felt like, how long I've had it, how I was feeling "now" (when we were walking back from lunch), etc. He even told me about the BPV exercises that he recently read - trying to be helpful.
Back to navigating: the first day on my new job I wore heeled boots, but by the second day, I was walking about in stocking'd feet because my head symptoms felt better when I was without shoes. So for the rest of the week I have been in my work boots because they are what feels best. Go figure. I bought some really nice new clothes and heeled shoes, and now I am in work boots....
Also, I will be working with a lot of numbers: either doing math or having to refer to numbered files. I always knew that since dealing with my head symptoms, that I have a difficult time "understanding" some concepts (it's that poor concentrating thing or feeling confused over simple character structures), but it's so apparent now that I am working so much with numbers and letters. I have caught myself transposing numbers and not being able to find a file simply because a straight alpha-numeric filing confuses my brain. I think that alone will be good practice for me, but!
Anyway, just a quick one to say "hi" and to update you. Having some anxiety about another full week, in large part due to my head symptoms, which have carried over to this weekend (so far), and in part because I think my generalized anxiety worries are more noticeable with all the changes.
xo
I hope this finds everyone doing and feeling well. :)
Well, I got through my first week at my new job! Any new job will take some adjusting, so I know that on that end, it's just a matter of becoming acclimated and learning what's what in a new office environment.
Symptoms-wise.....after not having many head symptoms for the three weeks prior to starting my new job, I am upset that my symptoms started to increase few days before starting, and have continued.
I am sure some of that has to do with the stress of leaving my old job, and not completely embracing my new job because of some of the responsibilities that I don't care for, and a different schedule than what I am used to.
And also because I am in a brand new adventure with new driving patterns (and city atmosphere during the drive), and a new work environment to navigate.
The company is underneath part of a gorge, which is actually lovely. However, since the building is underground, it's accessible by elevator or stairs only. Obviously, I have opted to take the stairs, which start outside and go down to the first level, of which ahead of me is the gorge complete with running water. So the motion of going down the stairs with running water in the foreground is a challenge.
I have to take three short, but steep flights of stairs to reach the main entrance, which tires me and throws me off.
Once inside, the building is nicely refurbished, but old, so a good portion of the floor either tilts, is buckled or is uneven. As soon as I start to reach the part of the building where the floor begins to tilt, my symptoms increase and I feel a strong need that I am pulled to the right.
Plus, sometimes scents throw me off, and the copier that sits in my area has a very strong inky smell to it, that makes me feel woozier when I smell it. Not sure yet if I am just so worried about that, that it's a little psychosomatic.
My main concern are my head symptoms, and so between those worry-thoughts and being literally kept hopping on my new job from the moment I go to work to the moment I come home, I am feeling overwhelmed - but JUST as it pertains to my head symptoms.
Not to say that my new job isn't worthwhile. My new boss is super. He took me to a baseball game this week for lunch one afternoon - we stayed two hours, he bought my lunch, and we talked about how things were going for me. He knows all about my symptoms, and we even talked at some length about that: he wanted to know what it felt like, how long I've had it, how I was feeling "now" (when we were walking back from lunch), etc. He even told me about the BPV exercises that he recently read - trying to be helpful.
Back to navigating: the first day on my new job I wore heeled boots, but by the second day, I was walking about in stocking'd feet because my head symptoms felt better when I was without shoes. So for the rest of the week I have been in my work boots because they are what feels best. Go figure. I bought some really nice new clothes and heeled shoes, and now I am in work boots....
Also, I will be working with a lot of numbers: either doing math or having to refer to numbered files. I always knew that since dealing with my head symptoms, that I have a difficult time "understanding" some concepts (it's that poor concentrating thing or feeling confused over simple character structures), but it's so apparent now that I am working so much with numbers and letters. I have caught myself transposing numbers and not being able to find a file simply because a straight alpha-numeric filing confuses my brain. I think that alone will be good practice for me, but!
Anyway, just a quick one to say "hi" and to update you. Having some anxiety about another full week, in large part due to my head symptoms, which have carried over to this weekend (so far), and in part because I think my generalized anxiety worries are more noticeable with all the changes.
xo