Summer91102
04-24-2005, 04:59 PM
Just wanted someone to share with me if you ever feel this way..
I wake up most every morning knowing this is the day I will die I have been doing that for many many years..But lately I have this high or stoned feeling all day long, feels like I have a real bad cold and my eyes just feel weird, It makes me feel like i cant think good, like I am not acting right, like i have no feelings or something..I snap out of it from time to time but never for very long and these feelings have been going on for months now I sometimes feel like i cant talk right or like i am crazy..Nothing seems of importance anymore except for these feelings I just cant cope with them..I am not on any meds and I do not drink or do any kind of drugs.. Like a lot of teenagers I drank a little and smoked a little pot but that was 15 years ago never anything harder than pot....Please HELP ME, if anyone else has every felt like this....I dont know how much longer i can go feeling like this...I have had panic attacks along with ocd, agoraphobia, and my safe place was always home so i just stay here, but now when i have these spaced out days and week i dont have per say panic attack symptoms anymore i just feel plum crazy..But when i do snap back to reality for a day or so I feel the panic symptoms again such as heart racing cant breathe then boom i am right back to a zombie...Please if anyone can relate please let me know....
I wake up most every morning knowing this is the day I will die I have been doing that for many many years..But lately I have this high or stoned feeling all day long, feels like I have a real bad cold and my eyes just feel weird, It makes me feel like i cant think good, like I am not acting right, like i have no feelings or something..I snap out of it from time to time but never for very long and these feelings have been going on for months now I sometimes feel like i cant talk right or like i am crazy..Nothing seems of importance anymore except for these feelings I just cant cope with them..I am not on any meds and I do not drink or do any kind of drugs.. Like a lot of teenagers I drank a little and smoked a little pot but that was 15 years ago never anything harder than pot....Please HELP ME, if anyone else has every felt like this....I dont know how much longer i can go feeling like this...I have had panic attacks along with ocd, agoraphobia, and my safe place was always home so i just stay here, but now when i have these spaced out days and week i dont have per say panic attack symptoms anymore i just feel plum crazy..But when i do snap back to reality for a day or so I feel the panic symptoms again such as heart racing cant breathe then boom i am right back to a zombie...Please if anyone can relate please let me know....

