Well today is day 5 for me without taking my hydro's and have to say it's really getting easy for me for some reason, as I said before I really made up my mind that I had enough and there is noway I will go back to them so I might as well get used to it, the sooner the better I say, I feel so much better about myself, I'm alert at work now to a point that I enjoy my job again,
being an engineer as I am I need to be alert all the time with a clear head and since 1993 I wasn't and if I would have continued to to do my hydro's I could have lost my job and if that would have happend I would have been at rock bottom because it's a good living and I'm not sure how I would have handled it.
Coming here everyday makes all the difference to me, reading positive post helps us all get through the day,
all of us here are as one as I see it, we're here to help each other, it's like one big family even though we don't know each other.
When I read post here saying that he\she feels they can't get off of their choice drug and can't even get out of bed it kills me to read them but if I can help just one person per day makes it worth while coming here.
My advice to those who say they can't get off is that you can and you must, however you do you must stop because it will kill us who abuse drugs, if you can make it a week then you can make it two weeks and on and on and one day it will be over and you can once again enjoy your life which as we all know is for a short time, we're only here for a certain time so enjoy each day, enjoy your family and tell them that you love them and to please help you get off of the drugs because you want to do the right thing.

God Bless You All,

NoMore4Me

Hey Nomore4me, I like your screen name its very clever!!

I am still shocked your feeling so good after 5 days of being off vicadin. that is awesome, did I read you right that you used since 1993, and had no withdrawls? what is your secret, PLEASE share it with us...... doesn't your body feel achy and aren't your legs sore did you have any withdrawl symptoms??????? you are soooo lucky to be feeling so good so soon into your recovery. I felt sick for weeks and weeks....

I know what you mean about the work thing. being clear headed is so nice. I would nod out at my desk and fall asleep right at my desk from percocet over load you know that pain pill fog head you get when you took a few to many???? NOT GOOD glad to be done with that myself .

sounds like your a real go getter, keep it up!!!! your doing great:)-
Take care!!

I have to tell you, I am SO very proud of you~ and you are a true inspiration to so many of us! Reading stories like yours give me (and many others) hope, and I thank you for taking the time to update us all. If you don't mind me asking (although you've probably already mentioned this in previous posts), how long were you on the hydro's and how many were you taking a day? Forgive me for asking these questions before searching for other posts of yours...I just logged on and saw your post first thing and had to respond, so of course I also have tons of questions! ;) I'll look for your other posts after I finish typing this to you (my computer time is limited though, so I don't get to read and respond to as many posts as I would like to). Once again though, I'm so very proud of you, and so happy that you are beating this awful, horrible demon. Continue to stay strong (as I know you will!), and please keep posting so that you can inspire and offer hope to those of us that are still struggling.

God Bless you, too~ it looks as if God has really helped you through this difficult process of going CT, I'm sure you realize what a huge blessing that is! ;)

Thanks for the kind words..
I was taking 5-6 pills everyday since 1993 and haven't taken one for the past 5 days.
I do have wd's it's just feel that there not to bad, reason is I think is that I really made up my mind, and of course God is helping me because I asked him to help me because I prayed to him saying that I can't do it by myself but if I would ask him that he would help me and would get me off of the pills, I prayed to him saying to please don't let me have strong wd's but to let me have some to make me not want to go back on them ever again.
I just can't explain to you all how I feel, I feel the wd's but learn from them and understand why I have them, I was on a drug that my body and mind loved.
Another reason I quit is because I was harming my body and mind and more important harming my body that got made, to me that was a wake up call,
strange thing about this is that I was very weak when it came to getting off of the tabs but when I made up my mind that was it, now I have my gaurd up because I might have a horrible day tomorrow and my post could read, "Please help me I'm having a bad day"
I think what can help us all is that when your having a good day and read a post here that someone is having a very bad day and helping that person giving your time will make you stronger, I know it helps me.
I know I have a long road ahead but look how long the road was for me being on tabs since 1993

God Bless You All
Let's fight this all together, let's be a tight family here even though we don't know who's behind their computer screen, this is really a good site

Congratualations on Day 5!! I know when I was on Day 5 it was almost as bad as days 1-3 at times. Your mental acuity to grip this thing is great. Good for you for taking control of your life. Even though I'm on Day 15, I know I have a long way to go to beat this thing. Taking it one day at a time....that's all we can do. Keep up the good work!
Ukonom

Ukonom,
You so right about taking it one day at a time, I think if we look to far a head tends to scare us making us weak making is easy to fall and get back on the dope.
Your doing good Ukonom being your at day 15, we all know that you worked hard for it.
The second day for me was the worst, I had pain through out my entire body,
what an awful feeling, I had to push myself to put one foot in front of the other, the only thing I had to do was to call my doc for a refill which I chose not to do, working 12 hours a day helps me deal with it better, keeping my mind busy makes my day easier for me, sitting around the house is the worst for me, so I come here and read and post to give me stenght

I agree with you 100%. Keeping busy appears to be a big key. It sure has made the days go by faster. It takes effort to force yourself into doing things, but if you can..........you will find that at the end of the day, you say, that wasn't so bad. How is your sleep? I have been using some OTC stuff, but it hasn't really helped. I just got done working 34 hours in the past two days, finally last night I slept hard. It was very relieving. Your mind has to stay occupied. I know some people find that working out helps them. I tried that last time when I detoxed for 21 days. Problem was that my body was sooo sore from lifting, and the depression was so bad, that the natural endorphins had a heck of a time breaking through, and after the physical withdrawals were over, the temptation became to great. Simply not going back there.
Ukonom

NoMOre & Uk,
I feel like such a 'whiner'! Congrats on your 5 & 15. Those were such hard times. It does get so much better. NOBODY feels GREAT all of the time!?!? Unless they are over medicating... and THAT doesn't work for long, and has some HELL consequences, as we know so well.

Hah! U R so right about reaching out to help someone else making a big difference. I had to give some words of encouragement back at 'ya!

Once that really terrible physical pain passes it is so easy to begin to forget how bad it was. Thank you for reminding me. I don't want to go down that road again. You are on the right path... keep the faith, you have soooo much to give and so many good things to enjoy. It is not all doom and gloom in recovery, I have just been having a 'haunted' spell, it will pass. Even the worst days not using beat the best of the days where I was only a shell of myself using

. Please, take any good stuff I share and 'leave the rest', as they say!

Thank YOU AGAIN,
:angel: L

I have some problems falling asleep, I had a really hard time 2 out of the 5 days without the hydro's, but once I fall asleep I sleep well and don't wake up until my clock tells me to.

NoMore4Me,
You will start to sleep better by the end of the week. Within 30 days your sleep chemistry should be back in working order but you should begin sleeping better very soon. I took/take some Tylenol PM to help, usually just one pill. It seems to help quite a bit.

Also, for me, the meeting thing was very important. I had a support group and my DBF has been very understanding. It was also important that I did not expect too much of myself. Past experience taught me that there is never a good time to go through wd's and if I tried to push it too much then I might try to use in order to do more than I am really ready to do either physically or psychologically. However, I have tried to push myself to go to meetings if I don't feel like it... one a day, at least, from day -1 (the day before I quit), go to the gym as soon as I the worst of the wd's was over, etc. I eat well, rest when I need to, and listen to my body. I guess these are great things to do all of the time? Go figure?

You are doing great. You are right about the support thing on the other post. Thanks for being there. We all need a helping hand sometimes. It does so help me to help you and so on and so on... :D It turned my mood around.

Healing thoughts,
:angel: L

I like the idea of trying to keep in touch with each other. Nomore and Lisa, I cant post very long right now but I did want to say thank you for posting to me and being so supportive. We all can do this !

Prayers your way tonight...............

Marilyn