They were twins that came at only 26 weeks. Ryan died right after birth. Bryan on the other hand struggled to live. His lungs were weak, he suffered a right ventricle brain bleed, heart surgery, yet through it all he gained from 1.13 pounds to 3.4 in 37 days. Then he was stricken with Septicemia. It kills adults, this tiny infant that should still be safe inside his mommy's womb didn't stand a chance. At first I didn't get my hopes up that he'd live. But as he fought and gained weight I started getting hope, then when he went through the heart surgery with flying colors I truly came to believe that he would make it. That some day in the future he'd be here on our campgrounds chasing frogs with the other kids. He looks so much like my husband, I could see that right away.
Today we buried him beside his brother. The little casket was the size of a shoe box. :(
Kat

HI kat kat

I am heartbroken for you and your family over the loss of the little babies. I too have lost my own baby son on Jan. 11 2005 (I was 36 weeks pregnant when he was born) and with time, support and love from people and my own strength that I have from enduring so many other things in my life, I feel I will make it through. My husband has been wonderful. I am still recovering from the shock and healing from the pain. I know what a horrible time it was for my whole family so I know it must be horrible for you too. There is nothing to say to make it better, just know other people have gone through this and your family is not alone. My mother in law was to be a first time grandmother , she is in her 70s. She was so excited and thrilled through my pregnancy and now she is probably wondering if she will ever be a grandma? I am planning on trying again in a few months but for now just trying to keep busy as possible. I wish you all much love and help from those around you. You are in my thoughts.

KatKat and Hope2Heal,
I am so sad at the loss of these tiny babies. From the moment we learn that a baby is expected we have hopes and dreams and love for these precious little blessings from heaven. I am so sorry. These things just don't seem right. I will be praying for you and your families.

I have twins....so I know what it's like to grow attached to those tiny little people inside of you. My one daughter was in NICU struggling with her lungs and by the grace of God she pulled through. I know the pain of not being able to make them better and blaming yourself. They are healthy four year olds now. I am so sorry for the pain your daughter feels and how alone and empty she must feel. Lots of support. Nothing anyone can say will make "your" baby better and I know that hurts you. She has to believe that they are in the arms of family members who are in heaven and they will be waiting for their mommy when her time comes. They are NEVER "gone". The boys are together and you can bet that as they grow in heaven they will be running and jumping and playing as two brothers should. My daughter that was in NICU is named Ireland Ryann. I will always remember your grandson when I say her name. I will pray for your daughter every time I say Ryan's name and also one for Bryan. Twins are a high risk pg..A friend of mine was pg with three different sets...she lost the first set at six months, had one of the second set...the other past and one of the third the other twins passed also. I pray that angels will stand beside her in these times of sorrow and to wrap their wings around her and the babies father and to consume their hearst in faith that they will see those boys again in heaven AMEN.

Kat and Hope2Heal; I'm so very sorry for your losses. Life is unfair. Please know your babies are in Gods arms and together now. They watch you and keep you safe until you are united Heaven. Stay strong. Peace and warm wishes to you and your family.

Soulcatcher; from one mom-of-twins to another, that was BEAUTIFUL. (mine are 5 1/2) Very comforting words. Luck to you.

happyelf

I know we are going to get through this. From the very beginning I didn't think Bryan would make it. But then I started to believe......only to be let down.
I know that he is in heaven and that he is fine now. I know all those incisions, injections, tubes and needles are no longer hurting him.
thanks to you all for your lovely comments.
Prayingmom, (((hugs))) to you too. I know what you are going through is the worst of all, you've grown to love your son and had him for so long.
Kat