o man, i was doing so good "feeling better about myself" wise because yesterday i went to the doc and i gained. i was so happy. but last nite, i saw a pic that was takin of me and my friend at school yesterday and my face is SOOO fat. its literally huge! i cant help but think im ugly again when ppl say "o ur looking so much healthier, ur face is fullyer" i dont want me face to be fuller!! my freind's faces arent full! they have nice skinny faces, yet i was fricken blessed with a fat face. i just dont get it! i honestly thought i looked better when i was at my all time low...i sawe pictures and thought i was pretty...now i look at pictures and think "omg, what a fat slob!"...."sigh".

i hate this...this doesnt mean ill stop eating, o no, im past that point, but my self esteem is now at a low. :(:(

Sammy!!! Welcome back!!!

I'm sorry you feel bad. Just remember, you may always do well from now on...but there are going to be times when that nasty ED tries to tell you something that you really don't need to hear. You may have a rounder SHAPED face than your friends...but that doesn't make it fat. I'm recovered, and I KNOW my friends are all heavier than me...but I always feel like I look just like them. It's just one of those things to deal with. It's GOOD that your face is fuller...but that doesn't mean fatter. And I hate when people say things like that to someone whose trying to get well...it always made me feel "fat" too. Keep your head up, hun. You are beautiful!!!

Jenn

Sammy! :wave:
Dont let that get you down. You have done so good and are such an inspiration to all of us trying to take that next step into recovery. You are going to always have those feelings not because you are recovering from an ED, but because you are a women. But its what you do about those feelings, and you came to us which is awesome!!! You didnt go stick your head in the toliet, run to the gym and exercise for hours, or starve yourself which is something to be more than proud of. Like jenn said, you are beautiful, you can fight this!
xoxoxoxo
liza

aaw, gurls! thank u so much..yeh i told one of my friends how i felt and she said i should be slapped. lol and i dont blame her..today im feeling alot better even tho i had a shi**y school day) got my first 0 for helping a friend in french haha