I have had a odd relationship with food for the past few years. It mainly kicked off when i moved out of home and for some reason i became extremly fussy over what i ate and it developed into me making myself sick now and again after meals although i dont do it that often now just occasionally. my wieght did reach a low point and i know people were worried about me and asking questions but i have gained wieght in the past year and feel extremly unhappy about it. i know i probably needed to gain some wieght as my menstural cycle had stopped but my worries about my weight dominate my life. i have become alot less sociable and am unable to form a relationship because i hate my weight. All i often feel like is shutting myself away. Im so tired of it all and have times when i want to seek help to try and beat these worries but i feel i dont have a big enough prob to seek help. Im at a loss with what to do about it all as i just want to be able to have confidence and get on with my life but its not something i can just switch off.

Welcome. You need to know that you don't have to have a "big enough problem" to get help. If you want help then you deserve to get it. Besides, it sounds like you have been struggling enough to deem it a "big enough problem". The thing is that when it takes over our lives that's when we need to do something. It's not going to get better without help. I've been dealing with my ED for a few years now. I've been doing a lot better with the help I've gotten. It had to hit an all time low for the help to be enough, but it finally happened.
First off you need to do the asking for the help. Do you have a therapist or anyone you trust to talk to? Does anyone know? That's where you should start. And of course keep coming here for support. People here are great and they really know how you feel. Hang in there and keep posting
Lauren

Thanx Lauren

i have never had any kind of help for it or seen anyone. my mum kinda knows i got issues and i have a very close friend but its not something i can easily explain or talk to anyone about as i feel stupid and embarrassed. I feel i should should just stop worrying and get on with it all but i cant. but i have never directly said to anyone the root of how i feel. every issue i have usually roots back to my feeling of how i look, my weight. i just want to be able to lose a bit of weight be happy and get on with life. but i cant see it happening. and i find it hard to think that anyone can make a difference.

Im glad to hear your seeing someone and getting some help though. I wish you all the best.