I feel pretty good physicaly...still fatigued...and some stomach stuff but all in all I'm better. Oh and I can't get warm! But what is really eating at me are the cravings! I thought well once I make it past the first three terrible days I would feel better about myself and the situation, but its not that easy. I still want those stupid little pills. I almost get board without them. Life seems so blah. Isn't that a terrible way to look at it! Especialy after reading about the liver damage. You would think that would be enough to drive me in the right direction! I have forced myself to be much more active this time and I think that has helped keep my spirts up. last time I was alone for most of it and at home just sitting and thinking so the depression set in really bad last time. I'm just afraid that when my hubby goes back to work tomorrow and I am left sitting alone I will feel worse. I don't have many friends and the ones I have work too. I just hope the desire goes away...SOON! Especialy before my pain comes back...that will make it hard to resist!
Thanks for letting me let it all out!
One day at a time! :rolleyes:

Just imagine you've been 3 days off that stuff! I know that you want it bad but remember that high is only about an hour high and then you want more and more then back to the same old pill popping abuse. I ridden that roller coaster many many times myself. I was a 35+ a day hydro addict. I'm proud to say that I stopped and life isn't blah as you may think. Its wonderful and beautiful without PILLS. Be strong and trust me, you don't have to hide anymore nor be mad at the world and yourself. You're doing great! Good luck with the rest of your journey. Remember everything you're feeling right now, the cravings and the depression is only temporary. It gets better everyday!

Stay strong! :cool:

I think that LIVER POSTING really hit a bunch of people really hard. I would suggest printing it off and keeping it in your pocket. When you get the urge --READ IT. Dont justify anything "oh just one" or " this is only --mgs of tylenol it wont hurt me" --All of that is the PILL talking, not the real person inside of you that is trying to come out. I have been laughing at the CRAVE MAN (thats what I have nicknamed the cravings) and it works. I find myself looking for a stray pill or something and then I look at my shoulder and laugh the craving away. crazy but it works. Print off the note --that is hard core truth that will help. None of us want to die.

Hey, thanks for posting. I can relate.

I have a challenge for you. Next time you start to feel weird when alone, do something about it...get out of the house, go to a meeting, go to the bookstore and browse, ANYTHING..then come back here and post and tell us if your feelings changed by taking some simple action.

I definitely recommend going to at least one meeting and getting some phone numbers. Next best thing to going out of the house is to pick up the phone and calling another recovering addict. Not only will it help you but it will help the person on the other end of the line.

Us addicts tend to be very self absorbed and forget that there's a whole wide world out there with an immensely huger energy than our single self. We make such a big stink over withdrawal from opiates, but in the grand scheme of things it's really not that bad. I'm not downplaying anyone's suffering, but lets think about it, it's like the flu, and a stomach bug combined. It doesn't even last as long as a bug, and we've all had bugs and didn't get all down on ourselves over it. It passes.

Anyway, I'm rambling...my point is that if you can let go of yourself when feeling the way you do, and be around other people, like at a meeting, a ballgame or a concert with someone who doesn't use, it can work wonders...just submitting to a power greater than ourselves ( a crowd, or a performance for example) and having GRATITUDE for the things we HAVE instead of beating ourselves up for things we WANT, we've come a long way, and have 2 very important tools that can carry us very far.

I'm working on it all as well.

Kind regards,

Mike (Day 29)

This is the hard part-but hang in there a week or two-and you will see-
You can live w/o the drugs..
Congrads of getting clean-i promise that things will be much better-w/o the ball/chain of being addicted..
I agree-the post about the tylenol-is a wake-up call-
Its frightening..
Wishing you betters days..hang in there-and a hello to Mike/agentalias!!!
peace..
ggrl :angel: