Alright, this is probably gonna be a long post but I need some answers.

Ok, so when I was like 13 or 14 (8th grade) I became bulimic. It was really screwed up because it wasn't intentional. I saw this tv show where this girl was throwing up her food to be skinny.. and I tried it just to see if I could make myself puke. (How stupid? :confused: ) And since then I started puking food like every single day.
Then after that I became obsessed with it - throwing up, hiding food, throwing it away. I became anorexic that way too.
I started losing weight like really, really fast and I was so happy that my life started revolving around that.
I was always unhappy with myself because as a child I was chubby and always felt gross. My parents constantly shoved food in my face (still do).. which is extremely irritating.
Especially after I became anorexic/bulimic, it was like impossible to deal with because they constantly watched me and tried to control every aspect of my life. I guess that explains my major issues with food. :rolleyes:

Anyway...
Shortly after I started screwing up my body, I started growing nasty hair all over. Like I didn't even lose that much weight and I was already developing that stuff all over my arms and stomach... which doesn't make any sense to me at all. You'd think that if you lose like A LOT of weight then your body would get all gross and hairy, but not in my case.
Maybe it's because I started this thing during winter and the weater was cold, or something. I can't really make any sense out of it. I just don't think that losing like 10lbs would make one grow hair everywhere that quickly.

But yea... I was anorexic/bulimic for like two years maybe, and later on I used to do it occasionally.
By the time I turned 17 I competely stopped throwing up food and hiding it. I began eating more normal, for the most part. I decided I was very sick of having an eating disorder (even though I still suffer from a very mild case).
By 18 I began eating normal and not being so obsessed with food at all. I thought by then I'd be more healthy and all these issues would stop. Wrong.

I should probably mention that when I developed there disorders I was like 13 or 14 - 5'3", 125lbs.
I gradually lost like 10-15lbs and thats when the nasty hair started growing everywhere.
Now I'm 19, still 5'3", 105lbs.
Now, 105lbs for my height is pretty damn normal to me. I don't look skinny at all, I look normal. No one ever tells me "you look anorexic" so I know I don't. In fact a lot of other girls I know who are my heigh weigh about the same, or even less then me and they look really healthy and pretty. I, on the other hand, look sickly and gross.
And while I was anorexic/bulimic I was cold all the time, my heart beat got screwed up, I began fainting at a point too, and my skin turned all dry and yellow-ish.
Since I quit throwing up and being anorexic my heart beat has improved a whole lot, it's relatively normal now. I don't faint anymore, thank God! (that was really scary) However, my skin is still yellow-ish/really pale, and the nasty hair is still there all over my body.
They say when you're anorexic you grow hair on your face, arms, and stomach. I, on the other hand, have it ALL OVER everywhere. It's really nasty and I can't stand it.. especially in the summer when it's really hot out and I can't just like wear whatever I want because look and feel soooooooo gross.

I don't even know if it's just my recent irritation and obsession with this, or if this hair problem is just getting worse. I have to shave like my entire body practically, SICK! I literally think about it 24/7 and hope that it goes away... Because they say once you "gain weight" it should go away.
I really don't think I'm underweight at all; I don't look or feel that way.
So now I don't know what to do because I don't wanna start eating like a pig and gaining TONS of weight just in time for summer, all in hopes for this crap to go away like it's supposed to. I'm not very confident in the fact that it's supposed to go away.
I keep wondering, "What if I do gain a ton of weight only to find out that the hair is still there.?.." I'd like die.
Yea.. I guess I still obsess with weight and all, but I don't stop myself from eating.

So I was wondering, does anyone else know any way to get rid of this? I've read so much about it online and everyone says "if you gain weight, it will go away."
I don't think I need to gain weight. I mean I'm only 5'3"... I don't need to be like 150lbs.
I was also wonder why my skin is still so icky and yellow/dry. I try to eat tons of fruit and vegetables, and drink a lot of liquids... but it still doesn't help. I can't even count the number of things I've tried to get rid of these issues, but nothing works. I've tried taking vitamins on top of various different foods... nothing. Jesus, I must be really screwed up.
I thought maybe this is genetic, but it's clearly not. My mom has perfect skin even in her 50s, my dad as well... My sister's isn't perfect because she was anorexic too at a point in her life... but she sure looks a whole lot better then me. She was only suffering from her disorder for maybe 6 months or something. She recovered very quickly. Unfortunately for me everything went wrong.

Sorry if this is really long and pointless for some of you to read, but I've been having these problems for soooooooo long and I'm tired of feeling cursed. I'm tired of not being normal. Hair is so gross. Who wants to have it all over their body? Ugh! :mad:

Just a thought, but your initial weightloss seems to coincide with puberty... maybe you have abnormal hormone levels that set in at puberty? If thats the case, then you should be able to get treatment from your doc :)

As for the yellow/dry skin, again, this could be a health issue, so get checked by your doc. Other than that, try applying co-co butter (will nourish dry skin) and maybe try a tinted moisturiser for the yellow skin :)

Puberty and weightloss?
I don't get the connection since I lost the weight due to the horrible eating disorders I developed... because I was very stupid back then.
And I hit puberty pretty early.. a few months before I turned 12... but I didn't develop the eating disorders till 14-ish.

Nope, i'm not saying that puberty caused the weightloss... I must have put it accross poorly. What I meant is that the presence of extra hair may not have had anything to do with the ED, but it may have been more closely related to the fact that at that point your body was also going through puberty, during which, levels of hormones fluctuate and therefore so does body hair. Particularly if, like you said, you didn't lose much weight, then the two things - the weightloss and the growth of additional hair - may be unrelated (although it has been known, it is not very common).

I am going to have to agree with aqua. It is totally hormonal, in most cases an increase in body hair is an increase in trycligeridia (a hormone). Ask you ob/gyn for a blood test and it will surely reveal that you have a hormonal imbalance. I know because my sister had the same problem and after she found out what was causing it she went on medication which corrected the imbalance. Many people have this problem it's not that uncommon.
Don't be embaressed to go to the doctor and ask questions. Let us know how it goes, good luck.

Thanks you guys! I've been dealing with this for so freakin' long, it's scary.
But all this research and talk about it has encouraged me to go see a doctor. I'm setting an appointment tomorrow. Hopefully I'll get in within the next couple of weeks so I can finally get this over with and find out exactly what is wrong with me.

I hope the blood tests go well and there isn't anything majorly wrong.
My mom is concerned that it's my thyroid... probably is. I hope it's not though because I don't want to be put on medication forever. It is most likely some type of hormonal imbalance since I've been dealing with it since I was 13-14... makes sense.
I hope this can be corrected though and that I'm not too late.
Your sister is lucky. I hope I am as well.
Thanks so much! :) :wave:

Nope, i'm not saying that puberty caused the weightloss... I must have put it accross poorly. What I meant is that the presence of extra hair may not have had anything to do with the ED, but it may have been more closely related to the fact that at that point your body was also going through puberty, during which, levels of hormones fluctuate and therefore so does body hair. Particularly if, like you said, you didn't lose much weight, then the two things - the weightloss and the growth of additional hair - may be unrelated (although it has been known, it is not very common).

Oh, I understand what you mean.
You're probably right about that though. I mean, I know one of my friends is anorexic and way worse than I ever was, yet she still looks very healthy to me.
The hair growth and weightloss may not be related... I think it's probably the hormone thing. But I'm going to the doctor's soon to find out exactly what is wrong. Hopefully it won't be anything major.
Thanks so much! :)