Hi all let me start off by saying i am 24 i first developed bulimia in december of 2003. i dont know how it started really. and the fact that i still weigh excactly the same as i did when i started makes me wonder why i can not stop. a few months after it started i told my husband because i didnt like myself or what it was turning in to. it wasnt me and i felt ashamed and i hated myself. he wanted me to tell my docotor but no matter what i did i couldnt get myself to do it, i couldnt tell my doctor. i didnt want anyone to know i didnt want it in my medical record.
anyway so i started to get better on my own i joined a support club online where noone knew who i was and i went months with out binging and purging. but then i got pregnant. even then i went months without throwing up but then it started agian, Yes while i was pregnant. i would do my best to make sure i woke up and had a really healthy meal and took my vitamins and i wouldnt eat again for hours just in case the next time i ate i decided to throw up, my baby would have the nutrition from the morning meal. while i was pregnant i had more control over it but i still felt extremly bad it made me feel like a very bad mom and like i was going to hurt my baby, and in some way that made it worse. but i was very lucky and had a very healthy baby only a month ago. but now my eating disorderis worse then ever is still weigh the same but i find myself throwing up atleast 2 times a day and i dont even binge. my husband cought me and wants me to get help. I want to get help i do, i dont want to have an eating disorder, i dont want to be sick and i dont want to throw up everytime i eat. my husband thought i was better! he still has no idea i was doing it while i was pregnant and i honestly have no intention of telling him. i already hate myelf enough. i dont need him to hate me as much as i do. anyway how do i go about telling my doctor i have my six week post check up coming up should i tell that doctor or make an appt with a different doctor?

Hiya :wave:
Firstly, I think you should feel proud of yourself for telling your husband in the first place. I know how very hard it was for me to tell mine about my eating disorder.
Anyway, I think it is a very good idea that you tell your doctor as soon as possible, why wait till your appointment. Go today. Go while you still have the motivation to tell them.
What I did was write down all the stuff I do on a piece of paper and took it in with me in case I suddenly couldn't speak with nerves or something. Some of the eating disorder sites have really useful tick lists that you can print off and tick which apply to you. That way you get all the info down.
Also it is difficult to bring up the subject so I advise you just go in and say hello, then just blurt straight out that you are scared that you have an eating disorder that could be harming you. And that you want to be free of it so you can focus on getting happy again and being a healthy mum to your newborn baby. (CONGRATS on that by the way!)
As soon as you come out with that it should start the doctor on asking you for answers, so you get to sit back and let them take control of the situation while you give them the info they require.
Lastly, I think you would benefit from some counselling, which may be something your doctor can arrange. Afterall, most of us on here are aware that our ed's have very little to do with the actual food, and much more to do with underlying issues that we just have not been able to deal with.
Hope that helps. Good Luck to you and your family - remember your husband loves you and wants to support you in your recovery. Believe in yourself, and in your right to be healthy and happy. You can do this.
Hugs from H :)
PS, if you get a chance let us know how it goes.

I just want to let you know that i totally think you should tell your dr. I am in the process of finally seeing my dr. for my ed and it just feels so much better. I still get nervous everytime i go, but i want to be healthy again and i know this is the only way how. I find out my results from my blood test wed. so im actually pretty nervous about that (i already know im extremely anemic) but i have decided that i am gonna be completely honest with my dr. I wish you the best of luck i know this is one of the hardest things to do but remember you have all our support!

thank you both i already feel a little better about it and i definitly need help. the fact is i dont think i have an eating disorder i know that i do, and my husband is in the military and everything has to be done by an appt so i cant go in today. but i will try to get a same day Appt tomorrow!

I totally understand how you feel. I told my doctor earlier this week and she was VERY understanding and non-judgemental. She ordered a lot of bloodwork to check for organ functions and other levels. I'm waiting to hear back from her about the results.

I finally got the courage to see her because I had been feeling SO tired. I know my body is so out of whack because of the purging and to be honest, I think my heart is starting to weaken.

This eating disorder stuff is SO horrible and the consequences can be devastating. I had a scare just this morning where my heart was pounding like CRAZY! I thought I was going to pass out or have a heart attack. That was all due to the purging that I did. It catches up to you after a while. Please, see your doctor ASAP...don't risk your life or your baby's.

Take care and good luck!

I think you should tell your MD. There is a big difference in a MD and a OBGYN. Trust me your best bet is to tell your MD. An OBGYN does not have the training to help you and yes most MD dont either however he or she will have a better understanding of it and will be able to rather help you or point you in the right direction. You are so lucky that your baby is OK. Not all of us are so lucky. cherish that baby forever he or she is a mericle, I too have 2 kids. a boy almost 6 years old and a girl who is almost 8 months. I to suffered with bulimia threw my pregnancy with my little girl and the one thing that I want to tell you is its NOT your fault that you are sick. Dont punish yourself for something that you have no control over. But please get help with your eating disorder. I wish you the best, and hope that you are able to find help with this demon. Good luck to you.
Jamie

Yes i agree do tell your Dr. I never purged but used to make myself sick after some meals and still do occasionally now but not as much as i just hate being sick and am frightened of the affects it can have and had a bit of a scare recently when i vommitted blood. although i dont do it as much i still have much of the feelings that are attached to it all although i do feel im better than i was. I have never spoken to my Dr or anyone about it but have had many a times when i have wanted to and times when i have been close to it and the thought of doing so was like a huge relief. As i simply want to feel normal again and enjoy life. Maybe some day i will open up but its finding that courage.


Do it for yourself and your future happiness and well done for telling your husband. In doing that your partly there. Hopefully your find that courage and find the help you deserve. best wishes to you.