hi, im having some troubles lately my mind is acting up on me, i just won 2 bodybuilding competitions and i need to go on to win one more in 3 weeks, and my ocd just started acting up on me pretty bad , here are some of my symptoms:
socializing,
looking people in the eye,
irrational thoughts,
depression,
repetitive thoughts.
picking,
haunted by past,
tripping on my thoughts,
speech,
appearance (clothes, face),
8 hours per day of torture,
unreal,
no confidence,
skechy,
uncomftorable around people.
checking
nothing in its right place

and the worst is when i forget something i was thinking about i try desperetaly to rememeber what it was for days upon days
not just hours

can anyone recomend something i should be taking to balance me out a little bit ,