Well, things are going ok. I went back to work Tuesday and it's been good. On the down side I've been kicked out of my apartment for bouncing my rent check (while I was still using) and I have a -287.23 balance in my checking account. Apparently I wrote a busload of checks, good and bad alike, in my last two weeks of using. I was paid on May 27th and all my money was gone by Tuesday. $2,345.92 in 5 days and I wasn't doing drugs. I'm still not sure what all happened. Sometimes I think I should turn my finances over to a monkey to see if they would get better. I'm sure the monkey knows more than I do.
Despite this all I have not used. I am still taking the Suboxone (8mg 3x/day) and that has helped.
Last Sunday I drove 100 miles towards an old hookup before calling a friend and letting her talk me down from using.
Oh well I'm rambling....Hope everyone else is doing well....

Last Sunday I drove 100 miles towards an old hookup before calling a friend and letting her talk me down from using.....
THAT is SO awesome! I am so proud of you for making that call and turning around - that took a lot of strength. You should be very happy with your progress. :D

As for the money situation, I know what you mean. You don't remember spending that much money so where did it go? Well, in my case, I would just get so weird on my pain medication that it actually created a sort of amnesia in me. I would do all kinds of things and say all kinds of stuff that I would not remember ANY of later. Whole conversations were gone, appts made were not kept because I forgot them, bills weren't paid that I could swore I had paid! I couldn't look at my finances and figure them out until I was completely off of everything and clear headed.

It will be overwhelming to you at first but if you have access to your account online and can see what money went where and when - maybe you can figure out what happened and get back on track. My own records were a shambles so I couldn't rely on them to get an accurate picture. But my bank gives a line by line account of what was paid when and to whom and that helped tremendously. You can do it - good luck!

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great job - i am on day 12 and everything is ok --the cravings come in waves. The good thing, isthat I have NO way of getting the meds without getting busted and there are none in the house anywhere. Lord nows I have looked. I flushed one that I found at day 6 and hope to do the same with the others, if there are some. i hope there isnt. I would love to get the cravings behind me and get this madness in order!

:bouncing: CONGRATS on calling someone and letting them change your mind about going to an old hook-up & also for staying clean. that is just awesome. im on day 10 of being clean & free of narcotics. thankfully i just moved to a different state and I know no one. easier for me because the only place i know to get pills here is the doctors. but anyone who has had to doctor shopped knows there is always some doc that just loves to write prescriptions. i have found plenty. how embarrasing :rolleyes:

anyways, please keep in touch. reading everyone's stories helps me so much with staying clean & keeping me motivated.

~Suz~