i dont know what this is , but i am constanly telling myself that i am insane and i am constantly trying to think of something i dont know what it is but it is to the point where i stopped taking care of myself and i just want to lay down and do nothing until this horrible "feeling" goes away, i have to be constantly trying to make myself feel down, i really dont know what is happening but i need help, this thought only goes away when i am sleeping but as soon as i wake up i start "annoying myself" until the moment i go to sleep what is this terriblke feeling ? is this a disorder?