i posted about getting tested last week and i find out my results tomorrow. i wasnt really too worried till i was at my b/f's house who is out of town and seen a page that was like the last page of a printed article from online and the top had the article name, it said something about an HIV vaccine...my stomach just dropped...im so worried now...
i mean i havent had any illness symptoms that i know of but that just is kinda odd...i just wish tomorrow would come and i hope im ok...but even then ill probably have to be tested again...how long does it take for HIV to show up in a test?

Hey :) Listen I know exactly how you are feeling, take a deep breath and realise that the odds are in your favour,you have made the biggest step by getting tested, now go get those results. I have noticed everywhere little things about HIV since becoming worried and stuff, in the news, on tv, even condoms at my mates house laid out in front of me, seemingly taunting me...until i realised that were little packets of latex incapable of cognitive thought :) Trust me,hang tough and get those results,you will be fine :)

Thinking of you!

thanks...im tryin to hang in there...
i wouldnt be as worried except there has been like twice that we've had sex without a condom and he could have gotten some sperm in me...i mean i just started the pill a little over a month ago, and this guy was my b/f who i thought i could trust since we've known each other for a couple years...and this is the second article ive seen that he has gotten about HIV...and one he paid 12 bucks to access it online...
ive heard that orasure can detect the virus after only 28 days? it would probably be accurate if i wait a month and retest if this one is negative right? or would i have to wait longer?

I don't know much about Orasure, but testing at 3 months is considered conclusive. I also noticed HIV logos, signs, pins, commercials articles, websites etc. all over the place when I was waiting for my results. It's like you become hyper aware of it and that's all you see.

How long has it been for you since your last exposure? A month? I *think* I remember hearing something about Orasure being reliable, but others can surely tell you better.

We're all here for you... God bless.

Hey guys! I just have to point out that I went through the same thing. I had never reallly thought about the virus until last month when I went on antibiotics and developed thrush. I know this sounds crazy but I looked up thrush on the internet and saw people with HIV. I freaked myself out with thoughts of how that could be me. I looked for every symptom in me that I could find. It then seemed like all I heard about was HIV. It was everywhere, on t.v., the radio, in the paper, on posters. Call me crazy again, but I felt like God was telling me something. The truth is, I was just more aware of it. I did drive myself crazy enough to get tested.

Oddly enough, we tend to be hypersensitive to the problem we're worried about when our mind is fixated on it. I used to be really worried about getting pregnant when I was in high school (i used condoms w/a steady boyfriend as well),and i would see ads on busses that said PREGNANT?, or hear a commercial about planned parenthood at least twice a day. I would think "great, here it is again, I MUST be pregnant". When I thought I had HIV, i saw a SLEW of those "knowing is beautiful commericial"...so Amberay, you're not crazy at all,I think we all go through it to some degree.
-S-

thanks...
im not really seeing anywhere except for finding 2 articles that my b/f had on HIV. i cant really figure out why he would have them...one was about m2m sex and recreational drug use and HIV, the other was the HIV vaccine article.
i feel like our relationship has been going down hill and hes been lying to me so maybe thats why im freakin out as i see these articles. cuz hopefully he wouldnt do something like that to me...
i just wish 3pm would hurry and get here...

Have you thought about asking him about the articles? Hopefully you two are open enough to discuss these things. I know if my bf had those articles, I would ask him ASAP, I don't care if he gets mad.
Well, hope to hear from you soon about results.
-S-

Thank God...NEGATIVE :)
im so glad thats over with! thank u all for your help!
i want to ask him about the article but i discovered it while hes been outta town by his computer and i was kinda snooping around...i know i shouldnt but i did...so i dont know if i can tell him.
i may just bring up that i got tested and tell him that i do it every year about this time, cuz honestly the last 2 years i got tested in June. plus since ive started birth control pills and hes been wanting to have sex without condoms i think itd be a good idea to get tested...even though we've done it a couple times without already...im just tryin to think of a way to bring it up without starting a fight. any ideas?

I would say "I found some articles about HIV in your apartment and it prompted me to get tested. Thank God I'm negative, but it's brought to light some concerns I have about you....(you fill in the rest)".

I think you should defenitely bring this up to him ASAP. It's not something you'd want to wait to do, IMO. His wanting to have unprotected sex with you is enough reason in itself to bring this up. The articles you found is another very good reason.

Good luck and many congratulations on the negative test result! :)

I'm so happy to hear about your test results!!!!! You should take this as a learning experience so you can be careful in the future! Talk to your boyfriend though. It needs to be out on the table. :D

Negative!!!!Yay!!!Really pleased for you!!!

thank u! :)