Hi...newbie here...

I'm not going to bore everyone here w/ the details...basically, I am heterosexual male that made a really stupide/drunken mistake of having unprotected vaginal sex (1 time) w/ a girl that I didn't know that well

Going in to get tested either tomorrow or the day after...and then the wait begins...kinda scared so just asking for everyone's prayers. Just seeing all the support here on the board has really helped me through this ordeal..

I'll keep everyone here in my prayers as well...Love in Christ...

Already done, my brother! I'll continue praying for you and you will be in my thoughts. How long until you get your results? Two weeks or a few days? Please come back and let us know.

We all make stupid mistakes (I've made MANY) and God knows this - He loves us regardless!

It's my prayer that you get the HIV Negative test results that you desire and that God continues to bless you in your life and your walk.

Your sister in Christ,
-C

Yes we will pray for you! I know the power of prayer and that it works, you have come to a great place to ask for them!

With you too dude,I am crossing everything possible :) You will be ok!

Thank you all for your prayers...

I made an appointment today (doing it through the my school) for this coming Thursday and unfortunately, the results will take 5-7 days. My hearts been pounding like crazy every since I made the call

I don't wanto offend some people by making this too religious or anything...but PLEASE continue to pray for me. It's all I've been doing for the last week or so. I haven't had the courage tell anyone (although I want to ) of my fears so God is pretty much who I've been talking to...

Thank you again for all your support...

...but PLEASE continue to pray for me.

Nonstop, buddy! :p

Ill be praying as well

Well, had my first panick attack today...

The day started out pretty well as I finally had the courage to tell a good friend about all of this over lunch. I just had to talk to someone...and it felt pretty good afterwards. He told me not to stress too much, and to forgive myself because God already has...he also said that God will not give me anything that I can't handle...

I think all of this has been especially difficult for me because I live by myself (I'm studying far far away from home) and I'm basically alone 80% of the time...plus, my girlfriend went home for the summer, and I just haven't really felt like going out with my friends lately


So anyways after seeing my friend I went home and took a nap, something I've been doing alot because sleep is the only time when I'm not thinking about all of this. Then I woke up suddenly from my nap and I found myself having trouble breathing and my heart was pounding like crazy...I didn't know what to do so I called my girlfriend (who is unaware of my fear of HIV and my test on thursday)...when I heard her voice I just broke down in tears...the thought of losing her just kept running through my mind...I really can't imagine my life without her. When she asked me what was wrong, all i could say was that I've been under a lot of stress lately...I don't think I can tell her about all this until I get my test result back...Anyways, the panick attack lasted a good 40 minutes until I was all cried out...

Sorry for the rant...but posting on the board does somehow make me feel alittle bit better knowing that there are people here who care about my situation and have gone through this kind of "scare"

I've been there J&W...I've been there. Your friend is exactly right: God will not put you through anything you cannot handle. Believe it, live it, breathe it...it's true. You will be alright!

I've been praying for you (as have lots of others)...I know you will be fine regardless.

It is so darned scary, I know. But, you just stay focused on what's important in life and focus on pushing through this fear to get to the end (which is when you get your results and the nightmare ends).

Come on this board as much as you need to for support.

Each and every day brought different emotions for me as I waited for my results. It's exhausting! But, so very worth it when you get your results, upon which time you can stop living in fear and can go on with your life.

I'm here thinking about you and of course praying for you. Know that - especially when you feel alone and scared. We're all here.

I know your going to be ok, and I am thinking about you too, just like everyone else on this board. You have decided to get tested and that is the hardest step,and i truly believe you are fine. Thinking of you!!!

Yes, an HIV scare can surely do that. And panic attacks upon waking are NO FUN!...I've made the same mistake twice in my life, and I thought for sure God was going to teach me a lesson...BUT...I came out negative, and learned the best lesson i've ever learned in my life...and here I am, and I feel more blessed then ever not only to help everyone, but to meet some AWESOME people as well. Everything will turn out fine, no matter what the result is. Just keep turning to your faith, and have NO DOUBTS!
Praying for you
-Sarah

Well just wrote a final exam for school today....it sure was difficult to concentrate...

I keep telling myself to have faith in God and that everything will be fine...but somehow, fear keeps creeping back. I wish I was stronger, but I'm not :(

And as much as I'd hate to admit it, I'm starting to pay attention to these "symptoms"...ocassional muscle and headaches, weird feeling in my throat, and what seems to be very slight fevers. What scares me the most is the white coating on my tongue that keeps coming back even after i brush it off...and my lips are always dry no matter how much water i drink....I don't smoke and I haven't had coffee lately so I really don't know where that's coming from...I just hope it's from stress and anxiety...

*sigh* trying to stay strong....trying to stay strong...

If you look for symptoms they will appear trust me!I noticed a whote tongue after looking for it and all of a sudden, there it was :) I know how incredibably hard this is and God knows how i am suddenly so cheerful but I think I have realised that whats done is done, and there is no point worrying about what I will do If I come out positive. It is wasted energy as I may be wasting the time I have before I have to deal with a positive result. I may turn out negative :) In no way am I having a go at you, I know exactly how you feel but dont worry, I think your negative from what you have said x

Looking for symptoms will almost always create them. however, it's hard to turn off our thoughts when we're going through something like this.
"we can't control what happens to us, but we can control what happens inside of us"-Ben Franklin.
Think about it.
-Sarah

Well, broke down again earlier tonight...

Got a call from my mom and as soon as I heard her voice I broke down into tears again. This "scare" is really getting the best of me...don't think I've cried so much within such a short period of time.

Anyways, I'm thinking about going for a vacation (back home) for a few weeks...what do you think? Maybe it'll help me take my mind off things for a bit. But the thing is if I do my test this Thursday, my results won't come back in time before I leave so it's going to be another two weeks or so before I come back and get the results...maybe that'll drive me even more insane?

I don't know, j&w, I wouldn't be able to go on vacation (and enjoy myself) with my results at home waiting for me. But, if that what you need to get through the next few weeks, DO IT! It'll probably be good for you.

You'll feel so much better once you get tested and get your results back... I'm here praying for you and thinking about you.

Well, going in for my test in the morning...wish me luck guys and keep me in your prayers ;)

Well got the test done today...results in a week or two was what I was told

I feel somewhat relieved and I guess it's all out of my hands now. I've decided to take a vacation back home just to visit some friends and family...hopefully that'll make the waiting period a bit better.

I'll probably stay away from the board for a while just for my own sanity...but I'll continue to pray for everyone here and pleas do the same for me :)

We'll, we're here for you while you're waiting cus it's not gonna be easy! But, you have alot of courage, and you're halfway there, so keep praying, we'll keep praying and enjoy your vaca
-Sarah

Hey,you have done the best thing by testing, and im sure your fine :) Time with your friends helps I promise, and i have just got back of vacation and i really had fun,it helped :) Stay strong.

Hi...newbie here...

I'm not going to bore everyone here w/ the details...basically, I am heterosexual male that made a really stupide/drunken mistake of having unprotected vaginal sex (1 time) w/ a girl that I didn't know that well

Going in to get tested either tomorrow or the day after...and then the wait begins...kinda scared so just asking for everyone's prayers. Just seeing all the support here on the board has really helped me through this ordeal..

I'll keep everyone here in my prayers as well...Love in Christ...

Pray for me too. I just got the test, 13 years after exposure to a very promiscuous man. I see him around town and his exes and they apparently haven't dropped dead. He told me he was negative but he is also a pathological liar. So the wait begins. We all make stupid mistakes, even when not drunk. Jesus loves us all, though. :angel: