Hi;
I'm not religious, I believe in a God/Goddess, I find all things spiritual. I don't follow a religion, I'm more of a "new ager" if that is the correct terminology.
I had a reading from a psychic, a very good one, and she helped me to understand what is going on with my anxiety. And helped me realize that along with medicine there is also a spiritual aspect to work on as well.
I am fortunate to rent a house in the middle of a grape vineyard. So, I bought myself a hammock, and I lie in there a lot of the time and read. I also take naps, and try to get myself back with nature. I've lost touch with nature, something I was with all my life as a child. When I was in south africa I would always be outside exploring and taking in the seasons etc. This I have noticed is helping. Right now i'm going thru another tough time, I'm ill and can't go outside and finding myself getting depressed and anxious again.
I'm reading a goddess book. I highly reccomend to all you women out there to read about godesses to find out which goddess you connect with right now, and pray to her, ask her for your help, she will help you.
I hope this doesn't sound weird to anyone, but this has really helped me along with my meds and counseling.
Thankyou much
Michelle
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I found my spiritual side whilst suffering with depression....I felt a hypocrite at first because I was praying in the psych hospital chapel when I hadn't really given much though to god before.

But at the time I was so desperate for help that I started to attend church every other day and I felt it helped me a little...it doesn't sound weird at all.

I think you'll find a lot of people are the same....pain and suffering often leads people to question god or a "higher being".

:)

Yeah it's a way for us to feel connected. I feel when I'm most depressed I'm disconnected.

Oh boy, do I know how that feels.

I found that having faith in someone higher than myself gave me hope that maybe someone out there could help me....hence why I prayed so much.

It's interesting. I've had such a different reaction to depression, from a spiritual standpoint than you have all described. I've thought I had a pretty good spiritual connection in the past and nurtured it vigorously at times. Over the last year as I plunged into the abyss, I've often wondered whether God just decided to abandon me.

My circumstances really aren't that bad by comparison to what I've read has happened to some others but its very hard to have faith right now when you feel like your life as you've known it has been stripped clean of any joy whatsoever. I know bad stuff happens to good people and life is full of loss but I don't understand the purpose of it all. I've wondered whether I'm being "punished" for something, but have no way of knowing. It is often noted that adversity can be a blessing in disguise, but honestly, right now, I'm having trouble seeing things that way....I hope their is a God or Goddess or many who have a plan for us, but I must say right now, it sure doesn't seem so.

Hi;
Like I said I believe in a different type of god that most religions do. I find that religion depresses and scares me. I think this is an interesting discussion.
MIchelle

Astroboy and others from this post too,

Ways that you are feeling. Pro God or against God. That is so normal. I find it so common that sometime in our darkest hours, deepest despairs and biggest losses almost everyone even some atheists think of a possibility of God or a higher power helping, being responsible for causing it in one way or another or even blaming God. If we believe we must think then, that these times may be the only time for some of us to even take notice of a God and not just OURSELVES. A time to reevaluate all our current conditions. Stop and smell the roses or sit in a hammock in a “grape vineyard and rediscover the beauty of nature”. So maybe these bad things or times are true blessings from above. If there is a true afterlife, Heaven or whatever you want to call it what a better way to prepare us then with our shortcomings here and now??? I know one thing from my experience of hard times throughout my life and from others I have seen. All of you at this board are probably some of the most caring, loving and most compassionate people on earth. You have been through rough times and losses and FEEL them so deeply. They have formed you and made you the precious feeling, compasionate people you are today. We need to be woken up and see this for what it is. We are living today at one of the roughest times in history for materialistic I, ME, MY SELFISH people who have perhaps too perfect of lives that we too envy, want and pray for. Some of them are so rude you may never want to talk to them. Yet all of us can be here for one another looking for nothing in return??? Who is more blessed now??? If there is an afterlife with a God and Heaven, I want to be there with others like all of you!!! Not some of the others who had perfect selfish lives. They need our prayers too.

Good luck and God bless all of you!!!
JohnD

Thankyou John, that was lovely.
Michelle

John, indeed, this is some beautiful and thoughtful post. Thank you.
Michelle, what's the title of the goddess book you are reading?
Hugs to both of you,
Angel. :angel:

Yeah right now I'm reading goddesses in everywomen...helping me to understand myself better. Look it up on the web and you'll see reviews and see what I mean.
Michelle
PS there's also a book by the same aurthor God's in every man