I gotta be honest, my father and I have NEVER had a good relationship. We often argue and I always end up being the one hurt.

He often tells me things that degrade who I am, and screams and yells at me. There have also been times when he has teased me. He also calls me wimp or makes up mean nicknames like "gimp" or "wuss." Which really hurts my feelings whenever I'm already not feeling good.

I have borderline personality disorder, severe depression, social anxiety, OCD, self-injury, and suicidal tendencies. I am a very sensitive person normally, but recently I decided to not put up with it anymore.

I am currently not in a situation financially where I can move out, so I really need help dealing with this. I fear that I may eventually become angry enough to actually try to hurt him if I can't learn to deal with this, and I really don't want to do that. Please help me!

That's alot of labels to have, sometimes when people are labelled they often take it to heart and believe that's all they will ever be. Do you have a problem with anger too? Maybe this is genetic and your dad has alot of the same dxs as you even if his condition has never been formally diagnoised.
To solve the problem, have you tried writing a note, sometimes when we remove the human element - the accusing face, the sneer, the "look" and even body posture, and just say what's in your heart, look for solutions - what you can do and what he can do, find a common ground and try not to accuse...it just makes people more defensive.
Good Luck Buddy! :bouncing: