hayley0610
07-08-2005, 11:36 PM
ok my addiction isnt as bad as most here and some may even find this pathetic but the way im feeling right now i just need to let my problem loose. I am addicted to shopping or always having money in case i want to go shopping. I dont really buy excess things or things i dont need and i spend about 3-400$/month. But the last few months I havent really had the money or ive decided to be responsible and pay bills instead of shopping ( no, not bills from shopping)Right now I have no money! We own a house, car,food and everything anyone could ever want but I have been waiting for a credit card to come in the mail ( I am not overwhelmed in credit cards at all) But the card hasnt come and the things I was waiting to pay off on the card i have had to pay in cash so we can live. so now i have NO cash. But i am being pathetic. my dh says i look like someone shot my dog! I am sad, feel like crying and know i am being so stupid right now!! I am so bored and feel so useless because i cant go anywhere if i want to or do whatever i want meanwhile theres people that would die to be in my shoes! I just cant shake this overwhelming pathetic feeling i have right now! when i shop i dont buy clothes and stuff like that i just like to shop knowing i can buy those things if i want. every day the mail man walks by my heart sinks!!! im sulking right now because dh wont let me have a planned garage sale just so we can have cash in case we MIGHT need it!!why am i so damn pathetic???