chad1313
07-14-2005, 04:50 AM
I've been checking into some disorders but am confused. I shall try to explain my problems to you, so bear with me. Recently i havent been able to sleep. I stare at the wall and cannont go to bed. my dad thinks its because i stayed up late one night and never caught up. Also my thoughts in my head rush by me and i cannot concentrate. I was an a or b student. this year i had to take summer school! I've never been the hyper one or athletic. I would just be the mellowed out person. but in my head it is so fast but if i tell someone that, then they would look at the outside of me and judge me by that. Like if i had mainia, my family would say no you dont because your not hyper. I switch moods really fast and sometimes question my friends in my head. Like should they be my friend because of something they did a really long time ago or what. Its hard to explain but that rushing thoughts make me not concentrate. I know it is not add. And i have been diagnosed with OCD. This one time i cut my wrists when i was on paxil (now im off) and i still have the marks.
i really hate going to social events or meeting new people, i would rather be alone in a room for sure. And i have extreme doubt, if one thing goes wrong then i doubt the rest. i've been checking into BPD and was questioning that. Well thanks for reading and you guys are the best. One more thing, i bottle up anger and i think that someday it will not be good. like i will explode. I know thats not good.
i really hate going to social events or meeting new people, i would rather be alone in a room for sure. And i have extreme doubt, if one thing goes wrong then i doubt the rest. i've been checking into BPD and was questioning that. Well thanks for reading and you guys are the best. One more thing, i bottle up anger and i think that someday it will not be good. like i will explode. I know thats not good.
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GatsbyLuvr1920
07-14-2005, 10:27 PM
Hey, Chad! I have OCD, too, and I think that most of your problems are stemming from that! I've ruled out mania because you said you aren't hyper and energetic, and that you aren't succeeding in school- usually during mania, a person can think much more clearly and performs better in school. Then, the whole thing with doubting if someone's your friend is definitely OCD. I do this doubting stuff, too, but with things like, "Am I gay?" even though I've always known that I was straight, and even more ironically, "Do I really have OCD? Am I faking?" Only someone with the "doubting disease" would doubt if they actually had OCD! How twisted is that? :rolleyes: Borderline Personality Disorder could be a possibility in addition to the OCD because you mentioned liking somebody and then questioning their abilities as friends, cutting, and rapid moods... It sounds like your thoughts are rushing and you're unable to sleep because of your obsessions and the distress they cause you. Don't feel bad about your slipping grades, though. OCD is found almost exclusively in people with high intelligence because we just think too much, overanalyze everything, and basically get caught in the trap of our own mind. And most people with OCD have a hard time getting their work done. I don't know how I made straight "A's" all through school when I was constantly battling obsessions and avoiding my homework by procrastination because I'd be worrying about doing it "perfectly." The easy fix to boost your grade point average is to simply seek help. Don't be ashamed that you have OCD. If you already have a psychiatrist, I'd think he/she is a good one because it sounds to me that they've diagnosed you correctly. Talk with them about what you're experiencing, and hopefully, they can help restore your life back to the way it was. Good luck, God bless, and always know that there's tons of us on the OCD board if you ever need to talk! :angel:
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chad1313
07-16-2005, 07:55 PM
Thnx for the reply. I'm on a waiting list for a Physciatrist. Or how ever you spell it lol. But thanks alot!