i feel so fat and so ugly all the time. i can dressed up and have on my nice heels and then i look into the mirror and see a fat, ugly woman. my husband just moved out and i'm losign weight rapidly and i still think i look like crap. i used to weigh 105 lbs and thought if i couls just lose a little more. y husband used to make fun of me that i didnt eat that much and i needed to eat more. wha do i do when i never feel hungry?

Hi, I was looking at your posts, and this one caught my eye first because I totally relate to the title. I am so self critical of myself it is pathetic. I am in good shape for the most part, and I am told by everyone that I am very attractive. Some days I think I look okay, but most of the time I don't. It drives my husband nuts because he gets so sick of me being down on myself all time when he says he is very pleased with how I look. I feel like, "how the hell can he be?! Is he settling for me?" I once gained some weight and got up to 160lbs. It took some time and work, but I got down to 115lbs., and was very pleased with my weight and body again. But like I was talking about in the "Needing to talk" post, I was single. Now I am married and not as active on top of that, and somedays I still feel like I am as heavy as I was when I was 160lbs. I am obsessed with counting my calories, and at times only eat 1600 calories a day. I am miserable at those times because I am starving.
I am so sorry that you are going through the separation that you are going through. I know in a way you feel relief, but I know it is heartbreaking as well. If you are not hungry, you are not hungry, but atleast try to make yourself eat something with some nutrition and try to drink water to not let yourself get dehydrated. I hope this helped you some.

hey anomoly...i havent seen u on here. prolly cuz i was gone all week, so ill introduce myself. my name is Sam, im 14, bulimic for 2 years now. im sorry ur having such a hard time with ur body image. i bet ur just a doll. 105 is VERY little. thats not fat at ALL> have u consdered seeing someone? talking to someone? u never feel hunngry nemore cuz ur body has become immune to no food. what u have to do is see a nutritionist or the doc be4 things get worse. ur just going to have to allow food in ur body in lil portions at a time. then ur body will become used to the food once again.

i hope i helped :)

Hey sweetie, how you doin at the moment?
I know what you feel about looking in the mirror and feeling ugly, even when your dressed up.
Sometimes when Im getting ready to go out with friends at night, ill look in the mirror and just cant see whats wrong, its like I know I dont look beutiful but I dont know what I can change. I guess thats why I stopped eating alot, people made fun of my hair colour when I was younger and sometimes they tease me a little now. Im not a strong person who can let it all go, for some reason I take any critism very personally which isnt a good thing.
I just wanted to let you know that your not alone, and I hope your feeling better. It must of really hurt you when your husband moved out, im sure it would hurt anyone, and people deal with things in different ways. You really should maybe see a doc or talk to someone about it. I know its hard, Im still very reluctant to do it myself.

X Hannie X

hi every one. i totally understand with you. I hate myself so much. I woke this morning and burst into tears. I looked at myself in the mirror and i hated what the reflection showed back, i can pick so many bad points on myself, i just cant seem to find any good. All i see is fat, Im only 7st 8lbs, and im 5ft 2ins. I constantly always worry about my weight, and always watch what i eat, and when i do eat, i feel guitly. I'm always touching my bit's that are fat and wanting them to not be there. I try and exercise, but even then i feel to low to continue because it makes no diffirence. I am always moaning about myself to friends, family and most importantly my husband to be,and they dont understand me and tell me to shut up being stupid, and this hurts more. I dont think im stupid, i can see the fat, it's there, i can grab it, and yet they think it's all in my head. are they write i dont know? but every waking day, every minute and second, i constantly thinking abut my weight. It's getting so bad now and this is my im turning to people like me that understand, to see if there is some help. do i have a problem? I need to sort something out as im conflicting problems on my relationship, i love my partner so much, but im so insecure. I'm starting not to trust him , yet he's never given me no reason to. I think he lies when he says im not fat, and im beautiful, but im so negative, i cant believe him. Im do to marry him next year. but dont know if i can do this, because of my stupid weight.
I feel so low, im not happy anymore, can someone help me? am i stupid, is this in my head?

yeah, it's in your head. but no, you're not stupid.

i'm finally at that phase in my eating disorder where i realize it's never worth it. ever. the thing is, if you are the type of person prone to eating disorders, you can be thin to the point where you're dying, and STILL feel like a fat glob. and the funny part is, while you're looking at yourself seeing nothing but fat, a healthy woman who is quite a bit heavier than you will walk by, and you will see a beautiful woman! why? because we with eating disorders tend to be critical of ourselves and nobody else.

i'm starting to realize now that thinness is not beauty -- HEALTH is beauty. please seek some professional advice as to what is a healthy weight for you.

best,
snitter

hi snitter, sorry i have been busy all day. you may notice a time difference, i am in england. thank you for your advice, i totlly agree, i also always compare myself to other women. and think am i fatter than her. i dont know why i do it. As for seeking profesional help, i did see the nurse a while ago to be weighed, and asked if i was under or over weight, she said i was just right, but shouldnt loose any more. I was chatting with my mate about this also and she thinks i should go and talk to my doctor, but i suppose i am scared, scared he will probably laugh. I do try and help myself, but it just aint happening.

any way, thanks again.