I completely understand being scared. I had a nose job about 4 weeks ago and still can't believe I'm talking about it in the past tense. This was my first surgery ever -- first time being put under, first time recovering from anything other than the flu. Surprisingly enough, I experienced almost no pain (with the exception of the first few visits to the doctor post-op) and moderate bruising. It is a bit shocking to see yourself looking like you've been in an accident, but you do get used to it and it fades within a couple of weeks. The most difficult aspect of my recovery, however, was not physical but emotional. I'm not sure whether this is a common experience, but I became somewhat depressed several days after the surgery. I've since heard that general anesthesia can sometimes cause depression as the drugs pass through your system. Has anyone else heard about this or experienced it? All in all, however, I'm very glad I went through with it. It's now 4 weeks later and I feel back to my old self. I think you'll know when and if you're ready. Good luck with whatever decision you make.