Hey you all...

Please help..
I feel awful.
Tomorrow I am going to seaside with my friends, and I can't I just can't wear a swimsuit.
This year has been tough for me, I recovered for **** months or less, started Zoloft, quit, because I started to gain a huge amount of weight and since then, for about **** months I am dieting and have my old anorexic habbits, and they are getting worse.
But still I want to lose more and more weight. I lost, so I can fit into my old clothes but they aren't loose as they were, and my thighs and butt are biggher a bit.
I can't live with myself when I can't lose weight on that area. I am awful to myself. Especially because I am on strict diet....
I don't know how will I survive this summer when I am not as thin as last.
Everyone says that I am skinny, very slim, very skinny, even that I look anorexic, but I know how I looked lat summer and can't stop comparing myself with that.
I don't know what to do............

I just want to lose that........

Sorry girls, but I am crying and can't pack myself. And I couldn't even buy swimsuit.

I know how you feel, I really do and I wish there was something I could say or do to comfort you right now, but you cannot compare who you are now with who you were last summer. That time has passed adn it will never be again. Even if you do lose the weight, it will not be as it was then. You won't feel as successful as you felt then because it isn't then, make sense. I just want you to know that there is so much more out there than losing weight in life and meauring your self-worth by what the size of your clothing or swimsuit tag says. Good luck and take care.

Morg

Don't be so hard on yourself. Just remember that you are beautiful and you should learn to love yourself. Honey nobody is looking at your thighs and butt and thinking you are fat they are probably jealous of you especially if they say you are skinny and stuff. Our bodies change from year to year we are not always the same. I know it's hard for you right now but the more you obsess about it the harder it gets. Just relax and enjoy the summer.

Huni,
You need to take each day as it comes, one day at a time, then if you have a bad day at night you can just say - its been one day - and make the next a better one. Getting stuck in the past and looking at how thin you used to be isnt going to help you.
I know its hard, but im certain that you are skinny now! Being with your friends and that beach will be good for you, just dont think about last summer think about the now! And ignore the people around you, stick by your friends, friends are what matter, they will tell you the truth and they will stick by you.
It sounds to me (tho i could be wrong) That last summer you were very very skinny, even maybe v. ill, and when you come to fully recover you will look back at those photos and think "Why did I ever want to be that thin again, i look ill"
I know its hard to think that your skinny now, when you look back at the past, but you need to be strong, and bebe, im sure you look gorgus in any shape or size or form, because you are you and no one can shatter your soul it will always stay with you strong and true!

Take care
Lv X Hannie X

Hun, throw all ur old clothes away...get them out of ur site! they are WAY too triggering. buy some new hot clothes that will show off ur bueatiful bod :) . u should consider urself proud that u arent as skinny as be4, really thats a compliment from me and should be a compliment to urself. have fun this summer, and as hannie sed, stay close to ur friends, they are the best things put on this earth....shes so rite. i look back at myself from last summer....ew, i mean EW. i looked horrible...and i thought i looked good?!?! um. NO! and u can do the same for u.

stay strong gurl and dont let material pull u down. sell them or give em away, and start with a new healthier, not to mention "hot and up to date" wardrobe :)